|Reconnecting . . .|

 From the day I awoke from my 4-year-long coma to this day, not many memories have returned to me and helped me in choosing who exactly to trust with my life.

"With my secrets and all the things that I may need to leave behind."

When I'm gone, that is...

The doorbell rang and had me rush through the process of taking a shower.

I took the bathrobe and covered myself with it, leaving my hair dripping water drops on the carpet and tiles of the house as I headed outside the bathroom and ran down the stairs, walking quickly to unlock the door after checking who it was.

"Lou! Let me in!"

Yua's voice filled the silence there was in the front porch, and caught me off guard.

"What brings you here?" I asked her without giving her a glance as I led her into the living room. Normally, my parents would be here but then again...

'We own a lot of properties here too, giving me a ton of alone time.' she sprinted towards the couch and had me standing there with nothing on but a a thin white towel.

 "I have something to tell you, that's why I came." she lay on the couch upside down, motioning for me to put on some clothes first before coming back to her. So, I took my time and combed my hair, blow-dried, and styled it.

"I wonder what she has to say to me, at this hour of the day." I muttered to myself, avoiding eye contact with the person in the mirror.

'I still can't bear to see even my own face with this face blindness of mine.' I entered my bedroom and picked up anything to wear despite the poor color combination.

'It's not like I'm going out.'

Yua was still in her spot but properly seated this time. "What did you want to say?" I took the pillow from her side and sat there comfortably, too tired to even bother getting bothered by the distance between us.

 "Give me your phone." her voice was as dead serious as if someone had just died. 'Which I hope did not happen, really.' I handed over my phone to her, unlocking it using my fingerprint as she did something, and held it up near our ears while she took out something of hers.

"Are you just now giving me your contact number?" I laughed upon realizing that.

Her phone rang and I immediately attempted to save her number once I grasped onto my phone, her head was directed to me but I focused on my phone, seeing that it was already saved and... "Suzuki."

I blurted out when I saw the contact number saved in that particular name.

I thought about it for a moment before it clicked. "Yua." memories of that young girl started to hurt my head like crazy, little by little, it came back to me.

"How could you..?" I was starting to feel betrayed by someone I trusted.

"You know that you are someone I trust, right? And this..." the news was sudden to me.

"I did not see this coming."

My short-haired friend was silent, absorbing the utterances I made after revealing her secret. "You're just telling me now?? After all this time that we've been together, why did you even do that in the first place? I cannot."

I was in disbelief at the thought of her deceiving us like that. "If the other two find out... I can't even try to think of a reason. Why?"

After saying those words, I let her open up about it without letting my emotions out in this matter. 'This is not about me.' I anticipated what she was going to say afterward, giving her an opportunity to come clean.

"Your dad, he... Our families hated each other." Yua summarized it as possible.

My dad had something to do with Suzuki faking her death. "Do tell me what else I do not know about. Please, Suzuki." her head arose, feeling a sense of hope from what I could pick up.

"Our friendship was never accepted by those around us which is why I let myself die from my illness. So that I can get away from my family and find a way to truly live."

"I asked the doctor if he could help me fake my death even if it means deceiving you three." she continued, keeping her hands to herself but I took them and held them in mine, showing how concerned I was about her feelings regarding this.

 "Are you not mad at me? Why are you not yelling at me? I lied to you. I left you at your lowest." she tightly took hold of my hand, pressing it against her chest as I felt her heart beat fast from the flood of tears and rush of emotions inside of her. "This was not what I was expecting... Really, I was not expecting anything tonight." she listened attentively.

"But you did it only because you were suffocated by your traditional family and my prejudiced father. I can't blame you even after what you confessed to have done these years."

I can't say that I hate her or despise her for leaving me alone, I wasn't always supposed to be dependent on them, especially when she is younger than me.

"I can't accept what you did but I understand where you're coming from. I am honestly envious of you." I admitted my envy, my envy of her fighting back.

"And I know that you've tried to reason with them concerning our friendship which is why you must've gone with this as the last option you had. I really can't hate you for that."

I have no right to do so.

 "Do you mean it?" Yua's face was filled with tears, it was hard to look at her without feeling that fear, the fear of staring at something you can't even see clearly.

'They say that the eyes are the key to one's soul but...' I guess, I don't have that key. "I do mean it without a doubt. I'm just so happy to know that you're happy." I pulled her into a hug.

Despite hating the feeling of hugs as they can't seem to comfort me. I assured her and clarified how I felt about hearing her, telling her as many words of affirmation as I could think of, even when such words never seemed to reach my heart.

I did my best to console her about the matter, that I would never abandon her despite her abandoning me and then, coming back when she felt like it.

'I guess, I don't hate anyone except for myself...' good for them, they can just do as they please without worrying about getting rejected or not, and here I am.

--Author's Point of View--

It has been a while. A while since Honey Lou and Yua reconnected with their past self.

The two of them stood close together since that night, they both grew to become more honest with themselves and with one another after what happened in their childhood.

"Don't you have anything else to do? What about Young?"

Honey asked, feeling all the more annoyed than ever, to have a companion now in the house. Yua had her head hanging at the end of the bed as Honey Lou was reading a book.

"Hold on!" her head bolted from relaxing on the bed, and her body quickly went from lying down to sitting up on the bedside, drawing closer to her older friend as she remembered something.

"What happened at Jihyun's party? Did you talk to her?" these questions took her by surprise, being reminded her of a specific topic she tried so hard to ignore, at first.

"I didn't talk to anyone at the party. I just heard some ridiculous things." she tried to hide it but Yua knew that Honey might have found out something shocking.

"You can tell me." she scooted over to her friend's side, returning the favor that Honey had done the night they reconciled. "No one died." was all she heard Honey blurt out.

"No one died..." the one with the burnt gingerbread-like brown-haired older friend repeated twice as she shook her head from letting her mind drift away from the book she was reading.

"I'm not getting anything." Yua put the thought aside, dialing someone's number in her phone as she let Honey Lou read quietly. "It is time."