Chapter 30

It's been 4 weeks since our date to the gallery, we are nearing the end of August and Jangmi is almost 6 weeks old. There has been no further messages or breaches in security but Nari has not been found. Ahnjong has been officially arrested and is in prison awaiting a trial. True to their word both Namjoon and Yoongi have asked she be treated fairly as she brought the children back and would like that reflected in her sentence. As far as Joonie is concerned though they can throw the book at Nari.

Lori and Yoongi are doing well and Yeong is thriving. We have been spending a lot of time with them around the boys work schedule. They are working hard to try and release a new album before they press pause for a little bit and each of them has worked on a solo project. Yoongi and Namjoon have done a collaboration and all we know is it's about fatherhood but we haven't been allowed to listen to it yet.

There are also a few group songs written for them by the likes of Ed Sheeran who has written for them before and Billie Eilish to name but 2. They have decided to do this album completely in English, they haven't said why, but their fandom is growing in the US and the UK and I think it is so they have the ability to sing along and know the words perhaps.

The media attention surrounding us all has dissipated and the rumour mill has stopped. We have released pictures of Jangmi and her smile and dimples is a sure enough sign for most that she is Namjoon's child. He has had a couple of conversations with his Mum but they have been awkward. He won't allow her to see the baby until she apologises to me and she is so stubborn she won't do that.

My parents have gone back to Spain, but only to sell their property and look into moving to Korea to be with us. Mum has changed massively towards me since I became a parent, our bond has reforged itself and she was so sad to leave. We both cried at the airport, but we have been FaceTiming every day so she can see her precious little munchkin as she calls her.

Our search for a house has been put on hold, we are using Lori and Yoongi's old room for Jangmi and whilst Nari is still MIA all of the boys wanted to be protectors of me, plus Namjoon likes being with the other members, especially because he feels like their big brother being the groups leader. I really don't mind it, and the baby sleeps now for 7 hours a night so she doesn't really disturb them.

Things between me and Joonie have been great. On our date to the gallery and then lunch after we had a talk about a lot of things. One of which was sex, and how we had lost a little of our spark after we got married and how he wanted that fire back between us. The few incidents with his dominance whilst Jangmi was gone and just after she came back had shown him how much he wanted to explore our desires and carry on where we had left off.

I asked him about the comments surrounding sex with the other members and he wasn't sure where it had come from. He still feels like he doesn't want to share me, but said if anything came up and we both felt comfortable with it in the moment that he might consider it. He has said a threesome with another girl would be something he wanted to do albeit he doesn't necessarily want to have sex with her just watch me with her and I am more than open to that. Role play was mentioned, anal sex, toys and bondage were also thrown in the mix. Exciting times are ahead!

Thankfully I have stopped bleeding now and am back on to my contraceptive pill which stops my periods all together so we can have sex whenever we want. We have had a few sessions of making out really hot and heavy and me doing lots to him, but since the last episode in the shower we have refrained from full sex. Not because it was messy, but mainly because we didn't want me to fall pregnant again and that first 6 weeks after birth is a very fertile time for a woman so we needed to be cautious.

We do want more children eventually but not until after he has completed his national service. We are hoping that it won't be for too long, that maybe the government might allow them some leniency on the amount of time due to the nations pride for them and how much revenue and tourism they generate for the country but nothing is set in stone. Joonie most definitely wants to serve, it's part of officially becoming a man in South Korea, but doesn't want to be away from us for too long.