Chapter 109

Hyungwon's POV

It's been a couple hours since me and Wonho have spoken. He has been really quiet. We have just been cuddling together on the couch. I looked at him and saw that he wasn't fully there.

Hyungwon: Wonho-ah.

Wonho looked at me.

Wonho: Hmm?

Hyungwon: The depression is back, isn't it?

Wonho looked at me and sighed. He closed his eyes. Then after a minute, he opened them again.

Wonho: Yes.

Hyungwon: How bad is it?

Wonho: It's worse then when I had to leave for the 5 days. It's getting really really bad. I don't know why it did. I don't know how it came back and I just missed the fact that I was with you. I really missed you. I just don't know what to do.

Wonho was starting to panic and started to cry and he stood up and started pacing back and fourth and was rambling on about not knowing what to do or why his depression came back. I got up and stopped him. He was crying harder.

Wonho: I'm sorry. I really am.

Hyungwon: It's okay baby. It's okay. I promise. We will figure this out together.

I put my hands on either side of his face and kissed him. He put his arms around my waist and then buried his head into my neck. I was hugging him back and I was swaying us back and fourth to calm Wonho down. Once Wonho was calmer, he had put his forehead against mine.

Hyungwon: Any better?

Wonho: Yeah. I'm sorry.

Hyungwon: It's okay. Plus, I'm still like that two.

Wonho: But yours isn't that bad anymore.

Hyungwon: It still is. But I've tried to calm myself when it gets out of hand.

Wonho smiled. I heard something come from the nursery and Wonho looked at me. We instantly ran to the nursery. As soon as I stepped into the nursery, I saw my biological father standing over top of Seohyun. He looked up at me when he heard me walk in. He held up a gun towards me.

Hyungwon: Don't you dare touch my children.

My biological father smiled.

B/father: I'm not gonna hurt them. Why didn't you tell me that you gave birth again?

Hyungwon: Because I want nothing to do with you! You are a psychopath!

B/father: That's where you're wrong. Everything I did and that I do, is for your safety.

Wonho: Yeah right! You sent him to the hospital MULTIPLE times!

B/father: I wasn't meaning to.

I was starting to shake.

Hyungwon: Leave this house now! I don't want you here anymore.

B/father: That's no way to speak to your father!

Hyungwon: YOU ARE NOT MY FATHER!! AND YOU NEVER WILL BE!!

B/father: Oh come on.

He pointed the gun at Seohyun.

Hyungwon: Don't hurt her!

I took a step closer but he pointed the gun at me again.

B/father: Move any closer and you'll be dead.

Hyungwon: Then move away from my children. Now!

B/father: Like I said, I'm not going to hurt them.

Just then, there was a gun shot. I flinched. Wonho held me and whispered in my ear.

Wonho: It wasn't him.

I opened my eyes and saw someone in front of me who I didn't recognize. Shownu and Changkyun came in and stood next to me. I saw them but then I passed out.

~Time Skip~

I woke up in mine and Wonho's room. I tried to sit up but I was too weak to. Wonho walked in and smiled.

Wonho: Hey you.

Hyungwon: Hi. What happened?

Wonho: You passed out as soon as Shownu and Changkyun got here. Remember anything?

Hyungwon: The argument between me and my biological father, then the gun going off, you telling me that it wasn't my father, then me seeing someone new infront of me, then seeing Shownu and Changkyun next to us. Then I passed out.

Wonho: The guy who you saw infront of you was one of Changkyun's cousins. His name is Max.

Hyungwon: Wait, are the kids okay? Are they hurt?

I tried to get up but I got dizzy and sat back down. I started panicking. Wonho grabbed my hands. I looked at him.

Wonho: The kids are okay. Nothing happened to them. But you, you need to rest. You have gone through enough trauma lately.

Hyungwon: What about him?

Wonho: He's gone for good. He's dead.

Hyungwon: Finally. But how did they know when to come?

Wonho: Changkyun wanted to come check in on us before he went back with Shownu and Max. But when they got here, Max understood what was happening and somehow had a gun on him. Changkyun and Shownu didn't know about the gun. The cops didn't question it.

Hyungwon: How long was I asleep?

Wonho: 2 hours.

Hyungwon: Okay. Are they still here?

Wonho: Yeah. Changkyun wanted to stay until he knew that you were okay. But I'm still worried about you.

Hyungwon: I'm okay. But I do want to go out there and see them.

Wonho: Okay.

Wonho had helped me up and helped me walk out into the living room. When Changkyun saw me, he instantly stood up and took me into his arms.

Changkyun: Are you okay Hyungwon?

Hyungwon: I'm okay. I promise.

Shownu came over and looked me over. He sighed. I hugged him and let out a breath.

Shownu: I missed you. And I was worried about you.

Hyungwon: I'm okay. And I missed you more.

The guy who I saw walked up to me.

Hyungwon: Thank you.

??: You're welcome. I'm Max.

Hyungwon: I'm Hyungwon. Nice to meet you.

Max: Nice to meet you too.

Hyungwon: Sorry that I passed out as soon as you got here.

Max: Don't worry about it. My husband usually does that whenever he is really tired.

Hyungwon: Haha. He must be a really nice man.

Max: He is. But he is at home, due to his illness. And due to being pregnant.

Hyungwon: Oh, I do hope the pregnancy goes well.

Max: Me and my husband do too. But his illness isn't curable but we are trying everything we can.

Hyungwon: If you need anything, let me know.

Max: I will, but for now you need to rest.

Hyungwon: I will.

I didn't realize that I was swaying on my feet until Wonho stood next to me and held me. I looked at him.

Wonho: I know you still want to talk with them, but like Max said, you need some rest.

Hyungwon: Okay.

I said goodbye to Shownu and Changkyun along with Max. And Changkyun let me know that he will stay in contact for the rest of the time that he stays.

Hyungwon: Please let me know when you're coming back. So that way I know that you are coming back.

Changkyun: I will. I promise.

I gave him one last hug and then they left. Wonho took me back to our room. I kept stumbling, so it took a couple minutes for us to get there. Once we got into the bedroom, Wonho helped me lay down. Then he joined me. I scooted closer to him and he put his arms around me.

Wonho: Feeling any better?

Hyungwon: A little bit. But I am really tired.

Wonho: Then sleep. I will be here when you wake up.

Hyungwon: What happens if I sleep until this evening?

Wonho: Then I will let you sleep and make your favorite meal. But right now, sleep. You need it along with having the strength to walk.

Hyungwon: But what about you? I'm worried about you. And now that I know about your depression, I'm really worried.

Wonho: I know baby. But right now, let's focus on you. Okay?

Hyungwon: Okay. I love you Wonho. I really do love you, so much.

Wonho: I love you too Wonnie.

Soon I fell asleep.

~Time Skip~

Wonho's POV

When I woke up, Hyungwon was not in bed anymore. I sat up and looked around the room. I went to stand but someone sat in my lap and hugged me. I put my arms around his waist because I knew that it was Hyungwon. I kept my arms around him and I knew that he was having a panic attack. I made him look at me.

Wonho: What's wrong? What happened?

Hyungwon: I think someone broke in. There is someone laying in the kitchen and is holding onto something or someone. I didn't get a good look at them.

Wonho: Show me baby.

Hyungwon took me into the kitchen and pointed. I went over and looked at the person. I sighed.

Wonho: Baby, it's just Bangchan and Felix.

I looked at Hyungwon and saw that he was shaking. Something was wrong. I went over to him and grabbed his hands. He started breathing heavily. There was a knock at the door. I guided Hyungwon over to Bangchan and Felix.

Wonho: Stay here baby. I will be right back.

Hyungwon nodded and sat on the ground. I went over to the door and answered it. I saw Dongwook standing there with a tall man with blonde hair.

??: Is Bangchan and Felix here?

Wonho: I'm sorry, but who are you?

Dongwook: This is Hyunjin. One if Bangchan's and Felix's friends. Somehow they disappeared from the hospital.

Wonho: What do you mean disappeared?

Dongwook: I went to check on another patient of mine and went back to check on them but they were gone. Hyunjin was in the cafeteria at the hospital getting food.

Wonho: That's weird but yeah, they're here. Hyungwon found them. But another thing, Hyungwon has been acting weird. Can you check on him?

Dongwook: Of course.

I let them in. As they were walking in, Hyungwon screamed and then there was a loud bang. We hurrdly went into the kitchen. I instantly went to Hyungwon. Dongwook had checked on Bangchan and Felix since they were awake now.

Dongwook: What happened?

Bangchan: We don't know. When me and Felix woke up, we saw Hyungwon sitting there but then somehow there was this dark orb between us and Hyungwon screamed and shot back into the fridge and banged his head off it. Then the orb disappeared.

Felix : What was it?

I remembered the picture from couple months ago. I quickly went and got it. I showed Bangchan and Felix.

Wonho: Did it look like this in a way?

Felix: Yeah! I saw that figure sitting between me and Bangchan and Hyungwon.

I showed Hyungwon.

Wonho: Remember this drawing you did?

Hyungwon shook his head.

Wonho: Is this what you saw?

Hyungwon shook his head again.

Wonho: How long have you seen this figure?

Hyungwon: Ever since the first attack Jooheon did. But it was only a voice in my head then. But that day when I wanted you to leave the hospital, was because of the voice, then when you walked out with the things to give to a nurse, that's when I saw a figure. And that is the same one you saw that same day. But ever since then I've been seeing the figure at the end of the bed no matter where I am every single night like a sleep paralysis demon. But I also see it during the day if it's just me or if I'm with someone who isn't looking at it.

Wonho: Did you tell anyone else about it?

Hyungwon: No. It wouldn't let me. I can still hear the voice telling me to stop talking about it.

Wonho: Don't listen to it Hyungwon. Tell us more.

Hyungwon: I-I can't.

Wonho: Yes you can. It's okay. Tell us more. Is it a he or she?

Hyungwon: He.

Wonho: Does he have a name?

Hyungwon shook his head yes.

Wonho: Can you tell us his name?

Hyungwon: Jesse. That's the only name he has said.

Wonho: Okay. Do you know why he is always around and in your head?

Hyungwon squeezed his eyes shut and was crying harder.

Wonho: Hyungwon, can you answer the question?

Hyungwon: I don't know. He doesn't leave. He never leaves.

Wonho: Is there anyway that you can ask him what he wants?

Hyungwon: He never let's me ask anything. He said that if I tried to ask something or try to talk to him, he would hurt me.

Wonho: Is that why you always have cuts on your arms or usually get hurt?

Hyungwon: He only hurt me once by himself. But other times he controls me.

Wonho: Is that why you have those episodes where you don't remember anything?

Hyungwon: I don't know.

I looked at Dongwook. Dongwook looked at me. I put the picture away. I looked back at Hyungwon.

Wonho: Can you draw what he is doing now? What he is doing to your head? Or what he looks like when you see him at night or during the day?

Hyungwon shook his head yes. I helped him up and to the kitchen counter and helped him sit down. I went and grabbed a couple pieces of paper and a pencil. I gave them to Hyungwon and he started to draw everything. About 45 minutes passed and he gave me the pictures that he drew. Felix was looking over my shoulder at the pictures.

Felix: This reminds me of a show that I watched.

Hyungwon: Stranger Things.

Felix: That's the one. But this person who you drew, looks like 001 from Stranger Things. Before he turns into Vecna.

Wonho: You are one smart 17 year old.

Felix: I just finished school AND I do watch a lot of TV on my off days.

Dongwook: Once we get done here, I want to take Hyungwon to the hospital to check on him. With what is going on now, I want to do an MRI on him to see if he has anything going on in his head.

Felix: I rather take him now so that way we know what is going on.

Wonho: Me too. Plus, I'm getting worried about him.

I looked at Hyungwon and saw that he was still crying and that he was shaking. He was playing with his hands and was trying to calm himself down. I stepped closer to him and put my arms around him. He instantly grabbed onto me and started crying harder. Bangchan had looked at us and smiled.

Bangchan: Let's get him to the hospital. We can deal with this later. Right now we need to take care of him.

I picked Hyungwon up bridal style and carried him out to Dongwook's car and held him in my arms. He was still shaking while I was holding him. Hyungwon had started playing with my hand. I kissed his forehead. Once we got to the hospital, Dongwook led us to the MRI room. I put Hyungwon down on the bed. And Hyunjin had stayed at the house to babysit the kids. Hyungwon looked at me.

Hyungwon: What is going on with me?

Wonho: I don't know yet baby. But we are going to figure it out. I promise.

Hyungwon: Okay. I hope it's not a tumor.

Wonho: BUT if it is, we will figure it out together. You're not alone.

Hyungwon smiled. I smiled back.

Wonho: There's my happy Wonnie. Keep that positive side. I know it's scary right now but keep smiling and being happy.

Hyungwon: I'll try. But I'm really scared.

Wonho: I know Wonnie. But think of the happy moments that we had. Think of our wedding. Think of the day where we are going to renew our vows. Think of that. This will all be over soon.

Hyungwon smiled. I kissed him on his forehead and stepped away so Dongwook could do the things he needed to do. Hyungwon had closed his eyes and kept them closed while all this was going on. I knew that he was trying to stay calm. I went into the room where Bangchan and Felix were.

Felix: Hopefully, when everything is figured out, he can go back to having a normal life. He has suffered enough.

I noticed that Felix was starting to sway on his feet. I guided him to a chair.

Wonho: Me too. But I'm also starting to get worried about you.

Bangchan saw what I was doing and knew exactly what was going on. Bangchan had stayed next to Felix.

Bangchan: Felix?

Felix: Yeah?

Bangchan: Are you feeling alright?

Felix: I'm tired and I hurt and I'm dizzy.

Bangchan: Okay. Sit down so you don't fall.

Felix: Okay.

I looked at Bangchan.

Wonho: You got him?

Bangchan: Yeah I got him.

I went back to where Dongwook was and saw that he just came back in from telling Hyungwon something. He gave me a disappointed look.

Wonho: What's wrong?

Dongwook: Well, he called it. The one thing he was scared of before the MRI started.

Wonho: Brain tumor?

Dongwook: Yeah.

I sighed.

Wonho: How big is it?

Dongwook: It's the size of a small baseball width wise.

Wonho: How did he take the news?

Dongwook: Not that well. He needs you right now. He is having a panic attack and is shaking.

Wonho: Okay. Thank you.

Dongwook: You're welcome.

I walked into the room where Hyungwon was and walked over to him. I put my arms around him. He instantly grabbed onto me. I sat down next to him while he was still clinging onto me. He was calming down but he was still shaking. I put my hand on the side of his face and brought him to look at me. Once he looked at me, he put his hand ontop of mine then put other hand softly on my wrist.

Wonho: I know it's scary to think about the tumor, but I also said that you wouldn't be alone. And that we would get through it together. Don't worry about it. I'm sure Dongwook can do surgery to remove it.

Hyungwon: But what if he can't?

Wonho: I'm sure he will find a way. When does Dongwook ever let us down when it comes to you getting a surgery? He always tries his best to do everything in his power to get you better. And hopefully, this is the last tumor that we have to deal with.

Hyungwon smiled. I pulled him into a hug. He relaxed. Dongwook came in.

Dongwook: Sorry to interrupt, but I do have a room for you when your ready for surgery.

Hyungwon tensed up.

Wonho: Hey, everything will be okay. I will be right next to you. I promise. It will be over soon.

Hyungwon: Okay.

I stood up and helped Hyungwon up and walked next to him all the way to the surgery room. Hyungwon was still shaking a bit. I kissed his cheek and held his hand. He looked at me. I smiled at him. He smiled back and put his head on my shoulder. Then he whispered to me.

Hyungwon: Maybe having a fourth child won't be that bad. But let's renew our vows first.

Wonho: Okay. Let's focus on this first, then we will get our vows done. Okay?

Hyungwon: Okay.

Dongwook: Right in here.

Dongwook let us into a room where Hyungwon could get ready for the surgery.

Dongwook: Now when you get changed, there is a long sleeve shirt and a pair of pants for you to change into. They are hospital clothes that people back at my home wear when they are in the hospital wing. I snagged a couple pairs of them before coming back. So go ahead and change. I will be right back.

Hyungwon: Thank you.

Dongwook: You're welcome.

Dongwook left and Hyungwon started to change. Soon Hyungwon was ready and Dongwook came and got him and took him to a different room. Hyungwon hugged me one last time before he went into the room.

Wonho: I will be waiting for you when you wake up. I love you, so much.

Hyungwon: I love you more.

And that's when Hyungwon went into surgery. And I was left with Bangchan and Felix out in the hallway. We went to the waiting room and waited for any news about Hyungwon.