Love is not enough

Daniela and Lorel were on two different sides of a spectrum and they had different ideas for a relationship.

Lorel could be somewhat insensitive because she just couldn't get why everyone around her wanted to get into deep relationships. It seemed like nonsense and a waste of time. Why would you wanna find your mate at 16/17? Seems like stupidity to her. Truly she just never felt love in the first place.

Daniela had problems with understanding Zayn from the start. She didn't get why he did anything. They would get close again and then he'd distance himself again despite keeping up a really close intimate relationship with her. She was completely invested but it all seemed one sided. Even if he gave her reassurance she could read the energy and she tried to hang on but it all feels like hell now.

"Why didn't you say anything to him, you know how he is."

"And that's exactly why he didn't know. He doesn't care about me, he doesn't care about anyone but himself. He wasn't even paying attention to me because he didn't pick it up." Daniela pulled out make up wipes from her purse and wiped away her messy makeup. She stared at her red puffy eyes that hurt so much over shedding tears for someone who only saw her as a back up plan.

"You know he loves you." That's what she used to believe but now that doesn't seem so isolating. If that was love she doesn't know what is.

"And I don't want that anymore. Lorel I deserve someone who would give me everything and just see me. I feel like I'm just sitting on a beach waiting to be played and I hate that feeling. I want more. I want to be someone's person, their actual girlfriend. I don't want to just do girlfriend things. I want to be the girlfriend. I am so in love with someone who claims the same but can't throw himself into me the same way I do."

Zayn and Lorel were a lot alike and that's why she could always see his point of view. They were scared of giving away their whole heart only to have it crushed to pieces. The difference between the two is Lorel never loved anyone and felt like it was something she was incapable of. She gave all her loyalty to her friends, specifically Zayn since they were so close and others interrupted this as Lorel liking Zayn and that's how Daniela felt. She never hated Lorel and couldn't hate anyone but she saw Zayn and Lorel's relationship the same way she saw hers. She was jealous and cold at times but she never loathed Lorel. Daniela and Lorel both had the same fear, the fear of being a second choice.

"You think you're gonna get love and commitment from Chantelle? Haven't we already established they are one in the same dumbass?" She couldn't believe Daniela was being so blind for attention.

"YES YES I KNOW!! But at least he's gonna parade me around and call me his girlfriend when Zayn told me we had to stay friends with benefits because I wouldn't benefit his reputation!!!" Daniela was screaming her words so much, passers by stopped to listen in. "I love his validation and admiration but I just want a relationship where I am the priority and don't think you'll ever understand that because you're always on his side."

"Of course I'm on his side because I know where he's coming from, I know where you're both coming from." Lorel was trying to be calm but she didn't enjoy the narrative Daniela painted.

"You know what, forget it Lorel. You've never loved ANYONE or BEEN IN LOVE you just wouldn't understand! You always defend him and I'm sick of that I'M DONE!!"

"DANIELA I NEVER FUCKING SAID THAT!!" Daniela was extremely insecure about their relationship and it always poked through when Zayn did something to weaken the validity of his love. Lorel knew that very well but she didn't have time to baby her and shield her. "Your insecure ass is the reason why you two will never make it."

"I deserve more than being treated like a glorified sidechick. That could be your life but I am so much more." She sucked in the tears that escaped her and wiped away what stained her face.

"That's what you'll always be!" Daniela closed her eyes as she could feel everything buzzing. She shut herself into a stall where Lorel could hear her sobs that made her feel extremely guilty but the words were already said. The door opened and a bunch of people piled in to tune into the drama. There was nothing else to see other than someone crying in a stall and another huffing into a mirror. She swore she saw Aubrey somewhere in the crowd that piled in but she was too angry to take a double take. She grabbed her stuff off the counter and pushed her way out of the bathroom. Many eyes were on her and she just wanted to get away from them.

Christian spotted her in the hallway after hearing what happened and pulled away from the attention.

"You didn't have to pick a side. I never asked for you to pick one. You didn't have to do that." Zayn became annoyed as Lorel detailed what happened between them. Daniela and Lorel didn't need to have anything against each other because of him. He thought things were good with them.

"How can I not pick a side when she did a huge betrayal. She chose your enemy. She knows how bad things were last year. She is in a relationship with the one guy she could have just had nothing do with. She chose that so I picked a side, your side because she's wrong."

Zayn I'm sticking at your side for a reason, I get it. I get that you're probably going through something right now and when you're ready you will tell me right." Zayn just nodded and sighed, all this was weighing on him. How did he come down to just him and Lorel? "We don't have to talk about any of this anymore if you don't want to." He didn't want to be talking about this but everyone was currently.

"Don't feel sorry for me, I'm the least important person at this school. Daniela's dad is gonna be on my ass about those videos of you two. She is at risk right now of losing her title. I'm gonna get the brunt of the blame because I'm supposed to look out for her. Nobody outside of a school setting cares about me and there aren't eyes on me but there's eyes on you two. I feel like you should care more about that right now."

"Oh my god not this again." Lorel hated how much Zayn would care about their public images. Once he started keeping an eye on Daniela he started doing the same for the rest. At some point it didn't seem like he was enjoying any of the outings they attended because his focus was on everything else. "It's unfortunate that you still have that mind set. I wish the Venices allowed you to be a normal teenager."

You can easily put two and two together with a clear mind. Zayn stared at the post that popped up on his screen as it all seemed to fall into space. He made a big mistake bringing Aaron into his life. Zayn didn't really hear what Lorel said as he stared down at his phone in disgust. The fucking Chronicles where back at it. They posted everything and now everything was personal. He felt like Saintclair was personally doing this because Zayn was hanging out with Aaron but he wondered if Aaron dated a chronicles member, was he also a member? Was there new found friendship a sham? Was Aaron using him? Wait, he was pretty sure Aubrey was doing the same since he was a well known member. He felt so stupid for even entertaining any of them. Zayn smashed his phone on the floor with a yell and made his way away from the cafeteria. He blocked out the voice of Lorel calling out to him and the stares he got.

His head rested on the cold wooden table of the library. He could think of nowhere else for peace and quiet. As it set in he regretted smashing his phone now. Everything was overwhelming him. Too much all at the same time. Nothing felt the same anymore and he thought of others differently. He wasn't just angry anymore at Daniela over the grievances he has with Chantelle but for all that he did for her. He cared a lot for others and did so much only for them to turn about and say he was selfish and never cared. Maybe Lorel was right, he should stop. He didn't realize he was crying until he felt the need to wipe it. He felt a tap on his shoulder and whipped his face around to look at Aaron. He didn't want to see him right now.

"Hey, Are you okay?" He rolled his eyes and rested his face back on the cold wood. Aaron took a seat next to him. "I heard what happened in the cafeteri-"

"Why do you care so much?" Zayn asked bluntly. "I'm the least important person at this school, the only thing I have is school popularity. What do you want from me?" Zayn sniffled. He never cried in front of others as he saw it as him being weak but he couldn't control that right now.

"Where is this coming from? I said before I care cuz we're friends."

"Aaron, be honest for once in your life, are you a Chronicles member?" Aaron's eyes widened for a second but he kept his composure as he scoffed at the question.

"No. Why would you ask that?"

"Because I'm not stupid. Your closest friends, Saintclair and Aubrey are 2 of 4 known members. How can I not ask that when you are so closely related. Aaron, I don't trust you." Aaron swallowed thickly as the words hung over them.

"You… don't … trust me?" He asked as he pointed at himself.

"No. What do you have against us? I did nothing to you? Do you hate me that much? IS this about track and field? Remember I wasn't the one who started that rivalry. It should have stuck out to me that night at the party but I was blinded at the fact that just maybe you could turn out to be a good person but I was wrong." He raised his head off the table to face Aaron. "I don't want to see your face, I don't want to talk to you or have anything to do with you and if you and your friends continue to mess with my friends. I will raise hell." Zayn placed his head back onto the table as he told Aaron to leave. He reluctantly left with a sunken feeling.