Touch (2)

What did I do wrong in my life? How had this happened? I had set up 15 different excuses and potential ways out of this. So why, just why! I stared at Blank in front of me. It was the day after whatever you wanted to call last night. I had managed to leave his room. I had even managed to do the day like normal. But now..... I gulped.

"Hey so the guild Stardom got assigned the next challenge. Odd how they made it a single guild challenge huh?" I said.

Blank blinked at me. "Stop trying to change the subject." He replied.

Somehow I was back in his bedroom. Why couldn't the challenge have gone to the LoneWolves? That would of made a great excuse.

"Would you stop panicking? I am only going to touch you. It's not like we are actually 'doing' anything." Blank stated.

I shivered remembering his back massage last night. Sure I had enjoyed it. But what would happen when the back changed to bottom? I wasn't sure I was ready for that.

"Can't you just wait until I'm on deaths door to find out?" I asked.

"Nope." Blank stated firmly.

I could feel my legs already shaking.

"You're terrible." I muttered.

"Oh just lay down already. You still have geology if you start feeling sick." He stated. "Tell you what I'll even let you say watermelon if you want me to pause for a bit."

I glared at him. "Watermelons are now ruined for me."

Blank rolled his eyes. "You want to come up with your own code word then?"

"What about just pause or stop?" I asked.

"Come on show some creativity." He muttered.

"Fine!" I growled. Let's see something I hated that wouldn't be ruined by association. "Let's just add to your rock collection instead. How about granite? It's a type of stone."

Blank started laughing.

"What!" I yelped.

"Nothing just didn't realize you liked rocks." Blank said.

"I don't therefore they cannot be ruined for me." I said.

Just as I said it I thought about what if every time I saw a rock I thought about it! Wait no it was a specific rock. Did I even know what granite looked like? Could I truly tell it apart from other rocks? I probably couldn't, so it shouldn't be a problem. From now on I just won't run into any granite rocks. They can just all be sandstone instead.

I made a mental note to never take a geology class.

Blank walked over and sat on the bed. Then he patted an area next to him. I should make a run for it now. if I did I doubt he could catch me. My speed was unreal. I had recently learned he focused on strength where I had focused on speed. The assassin vs warrior mentality, I could win if I ran now.

I sighed and sat on the bed. Some small part of me kept wanting to be near him. I still hadn't managed to get rid of it.

"I promise I'll be very gentle." Blank said.

I felt a shiver run through me and I didn't respond. He slowly pushed me onto my back and adjusted me on the bed.

"Just remember your rocks. If you forget you can literally just say rock and I'll stop okay." Blank said.

He reached for my shirt.

"Can't you just do the pants only?" I whispered.

"Nope." He replied.

Next thing I knew I was laying in the bed with just my pants on. I gulped as I felt him gently touching my stomach again.

"I thought you already did your check there." I grumbled.

A slight smile curled up his lips. "Don't worry just making sure you don't change from day to day. I really need more than one test to be sure."

I shot him a completely horrified look.

"You promised only once!" I yelped.

He ran his hand through my hair. "Just relax, it won't be that bad. You might even enjoy it."

I huffed and shut my eyes. What did I actually want. I wasn't even sure at this point.

I felt his hands gently undo my perfectly done tie. Then he slid my pants off. I shivered slightly. Was I cold? I couldn't really tell. I felt so exposed in my underwear.

His hands started from my feet and slowly worked up to my anklets. I shifted my weight a few times. Then he was up to my knees. Why did my knees feel so sensitive today?

Thighs, they are like the second place that should never be touched. It felt so wrong but also kind of good. Again with that stupid good feeling what was wrong with me!

"Ever heard of the French?" Blank suddenly said.

"French?" I asked confused.

"Yeah." He replied.

"The people? What about them?"

"They invented this type of kissing. Maybe we should try it. You know in case you ever need dental care." Blank said.

"Uh no? Are you even a certified dentist?" I asked.

Before I had a chance to say more his lips found mine. I jerked a little in shock then held still. His tongue found its way into my mouth and explored it. It found my tongue and each of my teeth. It wasn't that bad really. In fact that small part of me came back again.

Good, good, ugh I buried it finally managing to pull away and breathe again.

"Hmm seems okay, maybe I should double check to make sure." Black said.

"Yeah no. You've already proven I'm fine." I replied.

I got the feeling this was no longer just about him checking me over in case I ever got hurt. I quivered, no something more had started for sure. Was I scared? Yes and no. Darn he really needs to give me more time to sort out my feelings!

"Okay then we will move onto the last area." Blank replied.

Good I thought last area, almost done, wait what! The last area.... My eyes grew wide as Blank slowly slipped my underwear off of me. I was completely naked. My barrier to the world was gone, I was...…..

What was happening exactly? My clothes had always been my security. I felt my breathing seemed to become strained. Blank wasn't even touching me yet and I was already shaking like I was having a seizure. Sweat began to cover me and my heart felt like it was going to explode.

"Royal? Hey Royal. ROYAL!" Blank's voice seemed to grow distant.

I couldn't focus on anything except that I was exposed. I felt hot all over. Like I had been dumped into a steam room. I….I....

Suddenly a blanket was wrapped completely around me. I was completely covered again. Slowly my senses started returning to normal.

Blank was hugging me tightly around the outside of the sheet. I could feel him gently stroking my head and whispering something soothing that I couldn't quite make out. I jammed my eyes shut but tears kept flowing out anyway. I wasn't making a sound but I felt Blank hug me tighter as he pull me against himself.

I wasn't sure how long it had been. Hour? Two hours? Possibly longer.

Finally logic started working in my brain again. A panic attack. This was my first time having one that wasn't germ related. Or was it germ related with being naked? I snuggled deeper into the blanket. I never wanted to come out.

On the surface Blank somehow managed to coax me back into a t-shirt and hoddie. After that he gave up going further because I wouldn't let go of the blanket. He just continued to cradle me in his arms. I looked at my knuckles which had gone white from clutching the blanket. I forced myself to loosen their hold.

I tried to focus on slowing down my breathing. I was fine, just fine, I am....fine. I caught a glimps of the clock. Three hours had passed. Blank was still holding me gently. I had finally returned to my sanity.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

I immediately felt Blank hold me tighter. "It's not your fault" he whispered. "I'm sorry if I pushed you too fast.

"No" I mumbled "This is good right, this is what you wanted to find out. Just how much of a pathetic worthless mess I am." I laughed darkly at myself.

"Hey stop that." Said Blank. "I don't want to hear you talk down about my friend like that."

I chuckled at myself again and glanced over my shoulder at Blank. Concern was etched all over his face. Darn he even managed to look epic and hot while concerned.

"We will stop here." Blank said quietly. "I should of never pushed you this far. Do you want me to take you back to your place for the night? Or where are you most comfortable?"

"No" I said quietly "This was good, I never even knew that about myself because I've never had all my clothes off at once except in the shower." I looked back into his eyes. So cute. "It was partly my fault for not recognizing it sooner.....I want to continue." I said quietly.