Jed's Truth

(From Ella's Perspective)

After going to the castle, things did not go as planned. The king's father's room was extra dirty. It took us three hours to clean that single room. We barely got any free time after finishing. It was almost nine.

We could not look for the window leading to that mysterious room. "There is no time left for that. We need to do it some other time. Who knew this king's father would..."

"I think he... well, fucked someone's butthole. I heard that this kind of disaster happens sometimes in Anal sex. You know what I mean, don't you?"

"You mean shit splatters?" Jed asked, pure disgust in his voice. We might have laughed about the whole thing. But as we had to clean the thing, there was no way we could laugh. I almost puked on the sheet, but somehow managed to make it to the toilet. Jed had a hard time too, but at least, he did not have to puke.

"I'm not saying it always happens, but there is a chance," I said.

"Well, can you tell me a bit... I mean, I'm just interested, nothing more than that," he said awkwardly. "No, you don't have to..."

"Okay, I know a bit about it. Well, you need to clean your bowls first. You know what I mean? Use the toilet first before anal sex. And you got to clean the area, more than you do usually. And go slow. It's better that way. And you might feel like you need to poop. I mean, it's common. You got to relax then. The feeling will pass away. And, well, the next thing is a bit gross..."

"What?"

"You can actually poop," I muttered. Jed looked utterly shocked. "It's a nightmare, I know. This is what happened today in the king's father's room. I think the girl pooped. It can happen even though you cleaned yourself first."

"That's gross!" he said, pinching his nose as if he could smell it right away.

"Yeah, I know. And it shouldn't be painful. The place might be a bit tight and the whole thing can be uncomfortable, but it shouldn't cause you much pain. You just have to go slow. If there's pain, then you got to stop. You can feel a bit sore after anal sex. You know, it happens in vaginal sex as well. And there can be funny noises while anal sex. You just can't make a big deal out of it. Just laugh it off and move on," I said.

"That's all?" he asked.

"That's the key points. But I don't think you'll understand if I talk about lubes."

"Lubes? We have lubes," he said.

"Oh, I didn't know. Then well, you got to use a lot of lube while anal sex. A lot, really a lot."

"You say as if you have tried it."

"No, I haven't. I just... I'm curious, a lot. I feel like I need to know everything. I read about these things in books and the internet," I said.

"Internet?"

"Well, it's used to communicate with people and do other stuff. It's hard to explain," I said.

"But there is nothing like that," he said. Of course, he knew that I was from this world and I could not just reveal myself to him.

"There is. You people just don't know. Never mind, so tell me who is the boy that you like?"

"I don't..."

"I know you like a boy. It's normal. Why are you making a big deal out of it?" I asked, irritated. "Spill out the beans, Jed. I'm losing my patience."

"Well, there is this boy next door. He is, well, I don't know why I just like him. He is handsome too. That's the problem. He is never going to like me. Besides, I'm not sure if his preference is boys as well," he said gloomily.

"Really? I want to see the boy too. We just need to get close to him. Perhaps he likes boys too. Who knows? We can talk to him and I'm sure he's going to like you," I said.

"Will you tell me a truth?" Jed asked, suddenly.

"I always tell the truth, almost always."

"Why aren't you saying that I'm crazy? That I've lost my mind? That I'm a curse to the society and I haven't grown up properly?"

"Why would I say that? Because you like a boy?" I laughed. "It's a normal thing, Jed. Perhaps most societies don't see this thing as normal, but it actually is. Liking the same sex is one's choice. If you like a boy, it's totally your choice. Be proud of your identity."

What happened next was something that I did not expect at all. Jed suddenly hugged me. I was taken aback. It took me a moment to process everything.

"No one, not a single person ever said something like this to me, Leora. When I told my mother about this, well, it's the main reason she threw me out of the house. She said that I embarrass her. But you, well, you are really supportive. I thought I'm crazy too. I thought I'm a sinner for feeling attraction towards boys, rather than girls as the world wants me to. I'm not a sinner, am I? I'm not crazy, right?" he asked, in a slightly teary voice.

"Of course, you are not crazy," I said, hugging him back. "Just remember that it's your identity. Love yourself, your choice. I'm your friend and I'll be with you. Tomorrow I'll come to Edrich's place with you. We'll find a way to talk to the boy."

"Really? Will you help me?" he asked, pulling back from the hug.

"Of course, I will help you. Trust me, Jed, we're going to do crazy things together. At long last, I've found a friend with almost the same mentality as me. Do you think I'll let the chance pass without being crazy? We'll talk about everything and do the stuff we like. Starting with this mission of talking to the boy that you like. I need to see how he looks. Trust me, he's going to fall for you too. By the way, what's his name?"

"Miles Silas. Good name, don't you think?" he said, smiling, a bit shyly.

"Yeah. What does he look like?"

"Well, he is taller than me. He is slim too, but not as much as me. He has black hair and freckles," Jed said in a way as if he could see him in his eyes right now. Jed had definitely fallen for him.

"Good then. I'll see him too. Tomorrow after work. I will tell Lee that I'll be late," I said.

"Who is Lee?"

"Well, he is the man I live with."

"Oh. Tell me about him then. I mean, how you feel about him. You said you'll tell me. Besides, I told you about myself," Jed urged.

"Well, as I told you before, he is handsome and very gorgeous."

"How do you feel about him?"

"Um... I don't know. I like him, kind of. I don't know... it feels weird around him. He doesn't talk much. I mean, when I met him for the first time, he was completely shut down inside himself. But he opens up a bit now. He has a cold voice, really cold. It feels a chill running down the skin. But I like his voice. Well, I've one night accidentally touched his hair. I mean, there were strands of hair on his forehead. I felt the urge to move them. He was awake. He found me doing so. It was really awkward. The next morning, he made a deal with me," I said while being careful that I did not reveal too much about his appearance and the first deal that I made with him.

"What deal?" Jed asked. He seemed interested to know how I felt about Leandro. And I did not lie to him. Jed had revealed his truth to me, so I could let him know a bit about my truth too.

"Well, he said that I have to let him, um... kiss me per meal."

"Kiss?" Jed asked, surprised.

I nodded. "As he gives me food twice a day, I have to let him kiss me twice."

"Did you guys kiss then?"

I told Jed all about the kisses and how I felt every time his lips met mine. Talking to Jed about this was easy. He listened to every single detail and even let me know his thoughts about the parts as well.

"He even said he wants to fuck you and if you say yes, he will go down on you? Oh, trust me, Leora, he likes you. No, he doesn't only like you. I think it's more than that," Jed said after I finished.

"I don't know."

"Do you like him?"

"Well, I think so," I muttered.

"And do you think you can control yourself around him?"

"That's the problem. I can't. But I'll try. There is a chance he wants me to use my body only. Or why would a handsome man like him want a thin stick like me?"

"Oh, Leora, you really do underestimate yourself. But it's your choice. You can wait until you can fully trust him. And if you think that he likes you for you, not your body, only then you'll give yourself to him."