Chapter Thirteen: New World

It's been almost a month since Luke left, and I know he probably hates me but I miss him. I miss him being there for me and giving me good advice. I'm such a terrible person for not having those feelings for him, he was such a great guy and I didn't deserve him. Jude sees the way I've been acting recently and he tries his best to cheer me up. He compliments me so much and I can't help but giggle half the time.

Jordyn thinks he's been flirting with me, but I highly doubt it. We're just friends. Best friends. It helps to think about what Luke said about Jude only being vulnerable. I know he was right because Jude would never act this way before Sabrina, and now all of a sudden he wants to flirt?

I really just want to get my mind off of boys. My life was so much easier before this year. I didn't like my best friend, I wasn't hated, I never hurt people, and I never got so upset over everything. Lately, I've been so cranky and I'm not even on my period anymore. My stomach has been cramping for almost a month and I just can't get it to stop, I've literally tried everything. It just seems to be getting worse every day. Jude thinks I should go to the doctor but I think it's fine. A little stomach ache never killed anyone.

It's spring break now and I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to be doing for a week. Jordyn left for Mexico and Jude was in Ireland so I literally had no friends. I decided to walk to the park in hopes of making new friends, plus it was a pretty warm day outside so why not. I ran into Melissa again and we talked for about an hour until she had to go. I was just sitting on the hill looking into the little lake. Some guys were playing football, one threw it too far out it bounced weirdly right next to me. I picked it up and threw it back to the dirty blonde running towards me, Jude showed me how. The boy looked familiar, I think he goes to my school but I've never talked to him. He caught the ball and continued walking towards me.

"Nice throw. You're Jude's girlfriend right?" He questioned as he was standing in front of me now.

"What?" I let out a laugh.

"Oh, sorry. I just assumed since you two were always together."

"No," I was still laughing a little, "we're best friends and that's all."

"Cool," there was a long awkward pause, "I'm Caleb by the way. I played football with Jude, I was the kicker."

"Nice to meet you," I said as he extended his hand for me to shake, "I'm Alyanna."

"That's a pretty name." The first thought that went to my head was that Luke said almost the same thing when we met.

"Thank you," I look over his shoulder and see his friends are impatiently waiting, "I think your friends are waiting for you." I point over his shoulder to where his friends are giving irritated faces.

"They can wait," he says while turning back to me, "are you going to be here for long?"

"Actually, I was just about to walk home."

"Mind if I walk you home?"

"What about your friends?" I let out a small laugh.

He turned around and threw the ball to the guys, "they won't mind, so can I walk with you?"

"I'd like that," I couldn't help but smile and he did the same.

I walked at a slower pace than usual not just because I wanted to talk to him longer, but because my leg was starting to hurt and I felt like I was limping. He asked if I was okay at one point and I just nodded my head. We had a really good conversation on the way home, talking about interests, TV shows like the flash, and on my block. We were both pretty depressed about how it ended. He actually seemed like he was trying to grab my hand but he was too nervous, it was pretty cute. I would have let him, is that bad?

He walked me up to my doorstep, once I reached my door I got a little dizzy and he noticed because I closed my eyes and placed my hand on my forehead. I think I just need to drink more water.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yeah, just a little tired," I said, thinking he was referring to me being dizzy.

"No, I mean your nose is bleeding." He reached into his pockets and grabbed tissues.

"Thank you, I don't know what's wrong." I accepted the tissues, but I've never had a nose bleed so I didn't know what to do.

"Here, let me help," he said laughing at the fact I didn't know what to do. "Can I come in?"

"Yeah," I sounded so dumb because I was pinching my nose. My dad wasn't home so I don't think he would be too mad, I'll just tell him later.

We walked in and my nose would not stop bleeding, I don't know what's wrong. Caleb helped a lot, it was really nice of him to want to help and not run away from blood. He was so kind and cute. My nose continued bleeding for about an hour, he stayed with me the entire time trying to figure out what happened.

"Aly, I really think you should see a doctor. I'm worried about you."

I blushed a little, "okay." He places his hand over mine and I can't help but smile. He is about to turn my world around and I don't know if I'm ready for that.