Chapter 3: Zombification

So. ...you might be wondering how I became the outsider ? The invisible girl ? The zombie in the room ?

Well...I suppose there are several reasons for that. First of all. ..I got five siblings older than me by a decade and all decided to take the good genes but screwed up in life anyway so my parents put all my siblings' groundings on me and I ended up being a lone wolf-Well pampered, boring and always stayed in my room.

The summer at the end of sixth grade, my father suddenly told me I was gonna change school and so I did. For the first time in twelve years, I went 10 kms far from my home and went to register to the new school. My dad drove our rusty -old excuse of a car to the gate of one of the best schools in the city. When we got off the car, my belly filled with butterflies cause I saw so many handsome boys at the gate.

I thought, 'this is it! I am finally gonna have my teen romace story as a new transfer student at a school full of handsome boys from the upper class society. '

The next thing I know, Dad walked past the awesome mixed school and ended up registering me in ALL GIRLS' SCHOOL full of mean princesses spoiled by their rich parents and run by nuns with anger issues. I was already ugly so down the drain went my sweet romantic comedy highschool story.

I spent all class time being a nerd and all break times playing volleyball and all afterschool times running home to make it before my curfew, which was 4:45 pm-an hour after school closed. That one hour was spent trekking and waiting for bus and being suffocated in the bus, then hicking the rest of the way home so. ..yeah. My life is so mundane I deserve to die.

I thought I would die in my room and transmigrate into one of the books I was reading but the next thing you know, I was leaving for college.

I had so many crushes in college. I some how passed an enterance exam to a newly established tech-uni and got into mechanical engineering. All smart kids across the country also took the exam and came to the uni-so we ended up having a Generation of nerds in our college. It was great for me- I had a thing for smart boys, I crushed on them half of the time. I also started looking slightly better than I did in highschool. But the creep in me won over the romantic and I ended up falling in love with sneaking out and going for a run on the highway behind the school. I ran to see the sunrise. I ran against the wind. I raced against cars and carts down the street. For those 20 minutes on the highway, I laughed like a maniac and shouted and sang while running like a mad woman. Because I really was a mad woman.

I liked boys, but I fell in love with empty classrooms and rooftops and chalkboards.

I fell in love with the long walk to home every Friday and the longer walk to school every Monday. I climbed to the highest floor and kept hanging over the balcony...

So yeah. As you can guess-the boys didn't me like back. Not that I confessed! Hell NO!

Then I dropped out of College and enrolled in another one abroad in Asia.

Some how people saw me differently there- I guess. It was the first time I was told I was beautiful. Like hell I was gonna believe them!

But stuff happened. I guess there WAS a certain drama there. It ended too soon though. Corona locked us up. I graduated in my beautiful prison of a room. I would have told you about it but I am too tired to narrate that at the moment tho.

I am always tired.

Do you relate?

I wonder.

I am going back to school soon though. It's Europe this time. I will try not be a coward or a creep and actually date someone. Maybe all the boyfriends I missed out in Highschool and undergrad will show up and we might have cute love geometry and stuff. ...

Or I might finally die and transmigrate to somewhere nice...and become the villainess I wanted to be.

Maybe I will finally get the psychopath role I secretly suspect I suited well.

I will give the main character one hell of a trouble for sure. But not here. ..and not now.

Battery low again.

I'm a lone zombie of a wolf.

I am. ...halfway dead.

I am. ...sleepy.