Chapter 12

When I wake up my head is pounding. I really need to stop crying before bed argh.

I've been trying to decide whether to go downstairs and ask for a aspirin or not. I decided to put my pride away and go and ask ahead.

When I reach downstairs I think I hear blondy laughing and I'm guessing it's with Chance cause the others don't seem to like her very much.

When I get to the kitchen she turns and looks at me and gives me a fake smile and I also return it with the same enthusiasm.

'Can I get some aspirin please?' I ask now looking at Chance who doesnt seem to be paying attention to me because he just completely ignores me.

Without prying any further I decide to leave. Last night I decided I would not beg for anything to anyone anymore more especially Chance.

I also decided that last night would be the last night I cry because of that man and if he ignores me I'm no longer going to try to get his attention

'Wait' I hear him say but I'm already too far gone and i am so done being everyone's pawn.

That was when I collided into a wall huh then when I looked up it was Ice and he was glaring at me, I swear that is all his good at.

'Watch where you are fucking going'

'S-Sorry' I mutter then I excused myself looking down but as I was leaving he grabbed my wrist.

'Are you okay? You look a little pale' he asks I don't know what surprises me more the fact that he actually has a heart or that he can actually be nice and not glare.

I want to say I'm okay but I feel like he can see right through me.

'Um do you like um happen to have some aspirin' I mutter while looking anywhere except at him.

After what felt like a minute 'Come on' he says.

He leads the way and I follow behind him like a lost puppy. We then reached a room and then he entered but as I was entering he orders me to stay outside. The nerve of this man.

Like the person I am I don't listen to him and enter anyway and his room is like just plain white no decorations or anything it really lacks a woman's touch that's for sure.

'Here' he interrupts my inspection and then ushers me to exit his room.

'Thank you' I smile at him and I realised that I'm actually smiling at Ice I never thought I'd ever see that.

He doesn't return the smile not that I expected him to. I turn to leave but then stop and I give him a hug and of course he doesn't return it. When I let go of him I am met with a pair of familiar cold blue eyes.

Only this time they are colder than usual. This time I don't spare him a glance and I walk away and head towards my room.

Before I reach it I feel a hand on my shoulder and I already know who it is. I'm then suddenly turned around.

'What the fuck were you doing with him?'

'Not that it's any of your business but Ice actually helped me when I had a headache instead of ignoring me and pretending like I don't exist' the last part was more than just the headache.

His eyes show a little bit of regret but as usual he covers it up.

He then smaches his lips on mine kissing me with hunger and he deepens the kiss and of course I gave in easily ugh I hate the way my body reacts to his touch. He then breaks the kiss then heards to my neck and bites it lightly and it sends me tingles.

'I'm sorry' he says to me while kissing my neck. I let froze letting his words sink in he actually apologized to me he said...did he just or oh my God I never thought I'd see a day Chance actually apologizes to someone let alone me.

'What the fuck is going on' bondy says and I immediately break away and I already miss the warmth of his body on mine.

She then reaches me and slaps me. I don't say nor do anything and I waited for Chance to at least defend me but he just stood there not doing anything. What was I really expecting for him to actually come to my rescue. I have never been anyone's first choice or good enough to anyone so I was not surprised but was a little hurt.

So I left unable to stand being humiliated it's times like these I really miss Cece, she is like my rock the only person who actually enjoys being with me and I thank God everyday for actually bringing her into my life. If it wasn't for her I don't know where I would be right now and at that thought I smile.

'I really miss you Cece' I mutter to myself I could feel tears forming in my eyes but I stopped myself from crying I made a promise no more tears.