Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

Sam went to his pack, pulled out his union suit and held it up for Nils’ approval. “Russell made me get this. I haven’t used it yet. But if you think it’ll do?”


“Well, I think it will,” said Nils, giving his approval.


The men changed, exhibiting the same measure of modesty that had been apparent when they had bathed in the stream. They settled down on the mats and lay facing each other, heads propped on hands. Molly waddled into the shelter and looked from Nils to Sam. Finally making up her mind, she walked to the end of Sam’s matt, circled a few times and lay down with a huge sigh.


“Those pups will come soon,” Sam observed.


“Yes,” Nils agreed. “I’m a bit worried about it. Don’t have any idea who the daddy is, but she sure is big.”


Nils looked at Sam in the fading light. “I’m really glad you’re here,” he said. “Especially glad it’s you who’s come to help me.”


Sam felt a surge of emotion pass through him. “I am, too, Nils.”


Chapter 31