Son of an Indian brave and a white captive, Soaring Hawk is raised in the native customs. As he grows into manhood, he discovers his desire for the love of men. Knowing the fate of those of ‘two spirits’ within his tribe, he leaves the Indian village, disguises his heritage, and enters the white man’s world as Samuel Hawkins. He soon discovers life is difficult for a man who prefers men. While he finds companionship, and forms bonds with many of the men he meets, he is unable to find a relationship which satisfies his deepest need. He also discovers much of what is in the world outside his village conflicts with the values of his native upbringing. He embarks on an odyssey which takes him across the continent and into the arms and beds of many lovers. As he travels, he comes to realize love has many forms. But the one he seeks most continually eludes him. Where will his odyssey lead him? Will he ever come to the end of his search for Soaring Hawk?

The Search for Soaring Hawk

“Whatcha got against milk?” Nils asked as they cleaned up after their meal. “It’s good for you. We drank lots of it back home.”


“Where’s home?” Sam asked, not sure if he had anything against milk except it didn’t seem to appeal to him.


“England,” Nils replied. “I was born in Sweden, but we came to England when I was a boy.”


Sam waited to see if further information was forthcoming. When Nils offered none, he prodded. “Why did you come here?”


Nils looked up from his task of rinsing the metal plates and cups and stared off into the distance. After a moment, he turned to Sam and looked intently at him. “Well, to be honest, it was an excuse to put off marrying Sally.”


Chapter 32