Chapter 14

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I drove around some after that to clear my head. I wound up at my old high school. Nothing about it had changed. Ironically, everything about me had. I wondered as I sat in my idling car how Bing’s life had turned out. He wanted to be a veterinarian. He loved animals, was smart, driven. Was that why I fell in love with him? Did I see a brighter future for myself with him in it? Or was it all just puppy love, first love, a mirage in the desert that was high school?

Fine, I was confused then and I was far more confused now. Maybe life never gets any less confusing. Maybe you figure one thing out just as another obstacle appears on the horizon. All you have to do is keep one step ahead so you don’t fall two behind.

“And I only got a B in philosophy,” I joked to myself. “That teacher didn’t know her ass from her Nietzsche.”

I drove away and headed home. Ma greeted me at the door. “Adams,” she said, by way of a hello.