Chapter 53

“I had sex before I even had a blowjob,” Jude said. “And it was kind of crap actually. Much better with Megan, I knew what to do with it by then.”

“Holy shit.”

Jude laughed again, and ruffled Anton’s hair. “Gonna be different with you anyway, especially if it turns out you don’t like it the, uh, traditional straight way.”

“Vaginally,” Anton said, and wrinkled his nose. The word itself was grim.

“Yeah.”

“I don’t know.”

Jude’s hand started to scratch lightly again. “We’ll figure it out. No big deal.”

Anton could feel a little lump forming in his throat again. “But what if it is a big deal? I mean, what if I can’t even let you touch me there without massive dysphoria issues? I couldn’t even let you touch my chest the other day, and—”