Chapter 10

“Why I lived and Hal died. I’m just a nothing guy nobody cares about. Hal was a great guy. He had a wife and two beautiful little girls. He went to church, he volunteered at shelters, coached softball. He’d been decorated multiple times by the force. He was a fucking hero and hedied.”

He choked on his own sob even as Danny’s arms came around him, pulling him close.

“God, why did you make me think about that?” He buried his face in Danny’s chest.

“Jas, shh, it’s all right.” Danny’s hold tightened.

Jason didn’t know why he was crying again over Hal. He’d cried his tears for the loss of his friend. Or thought he had anyway. The last thing he wanted was to turn into some sort of crybaby.

After a moment, his tears slowed and he pushed away, gently but firmly from Danny’s embrace.

“Better?”

“I don’t know.” And Jason realized he didn’t know.