James Rockton is ready to die. In fact, he plans on it. Having lost his life partner to AIDS, he books the South Pacific cruise Richard didn't live to share. James will spread Richard's ashes at sea, and then slip overboard to join him forever. He’s too old and too heartbroken to continue on alone.<br><br>But James doesn’t count on meeting a young man whose parents constantly put him down. Then there’s the obviously gay young art dealer who ogles a crazy young photographer traveling with an older gay man about James’s own age.<br><br>James and Herb begin spending time together, trying not to laugh too hard or get too involved with these young men, who circle each other in rapidly shrinking orbits. After all, James and Herb are old, with gray hair and less stamina. With time, talk, and martinis, will love manage to find them, too?

Fade to Gray

“And all they want to do is bang. Eric’s good to travel with, though, always pays his way, and sometimes even treats. He’ll be an imp and introduce me as his coworker, or his father, uncle, or even Daddy sometimes and shoot me such an I dare yougrin. I can’t help but laugh and usually play along.”


He blushed, and then looked up directly at me. His eyes were gorgeous.


I decided to share something I wasn’t used to saying. “I’m also pos.”


Chapter 9