Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

Jim recounted the contact with Mrs. Wilson and the verbal sparring with George.


“Yeah, maybe, but she’s old, married, and a girl.”


Brian grinned. “If she pays you to screw her, will you?”


“Geez, what’s going on in that crazy head of yours? What have youbeen smoking?”


Brian pushed the issue. “Would you?”


“Hell, no. Why are you making a big deal out of it? Do you want to watch?”


“Maybe I find it sexy that someone wants what I’ve got. The thought of you satisfying a horny housewife turns me on.”


Jim hunched. “Aw, this is stupid. She’d have to pay me a shitload of money, and that’s ifI could get a boner with a woman. Go back to your books, and return them to the library on time. I promised your dad to keep you out of trouble.” He winked.


“Close your eyes and think of me when you screw her.”


“You are a very, very sick puppy.” 16


Chapter 44