Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

“You know why. She pulled him tight and kissed him, her hand squeezing his ass, making him jump. She giggled. “Tell the truth, have you ever had sex with a girl?”


“No, Ma’am.” He pushed off, putting a few feet of space between them.


“Are you saying that because you think that’s what I want to hear?”


“I’ve always been shy around girls. Mrs. Wilson. This is wrong.”


“Yes, it is. Do you like being a bad boy? I like being a bad girl. You must know how handsome you are.”


She was halfway to drunk and he felt awkward.


“Jim, I’ve wanted you for so long. My husband doesn’t please me. He doesn’t try.”


Jim thought of Brian. “Mrs. Wilson, I have to go. I’m sorry I can’t do what you want.”


“But, Jim. Every young man dreams of being seduced, especially by an experienced woman. I can show you so much.”


He was almost out the bedroom door. “I’m gay, I have a lover, and you’re married. No!”


Chapter 51