Growing up is hard enough, but it’s worse as a pacifist whose country is at war. Jim and Brian are neighbors, best friends, and high school graduates heading for college. In 1970 the Vietnam War raged, and Brian and Jim, both pacifists, worry about being drafted. To make matters worse, both men are gay and far from out. When Brian finally admits his feelings for his friend, he’s surprised and pleased Jim feels the same. Brian’s father teaches jujitsu, and the two men learn the ancient art, though neither believes in fighting. They struggle to overcome their pacifist tendencies amid racial tension and homophobia that threatens to tear their lives -- and their love -- apart. Can Brian and Jim turn fear into courage and learn to defend themselves, and each other, to create a life of love?

Fear and Courage

Jim enjoyed being taken by force. He would deal with the emotional aftermath of being a pervert later.


Brian bit Jim’s shoulders and back. The water started cooling, but Brian kept screwing, whispering his love for Jim.


The water turned cold just as Brian came, screaming at the top of his lungs, a first for him.


Jim fisted his dick and came seconds later with Brian’s cock still inside him. They turned the water to a trickle, soaped and rinsed quickly, then toweled each other off.


“That was one of our best. I liked that you sort of raped me and made me take it. I liked that you slapped and spanked me.”


Brian wrapped a towel around them and they hugged.


Weeks later, on a Saturday, Jim sat up in bed as Brian paced the basement at nearly four A.M. “Hey, what’s wrong?”


Chapter 52