Chapter 35

“Yes, fine…I try. Not to. You know what I did. You know why we split up. The band.”

“I know.” Justin gave him a sort of sympathetic eyebrow-wiggle. The hair danced, casting flame-shadows on the morning wall. “I figured you didn’t want to talk about that one.”

“I don’t really, thanks.” His hands felt colder. Empty despite the tea. Of course he wasn’t a good person. He never had been. Manipulations, lies, rock and roll, all-night parties and flaunting of the riotous image, the fame and money and intoxication, and the untrustworthy bruised hollowness in his bones. He did try to be better. He’d learned the hard way. He’d never be able to undo the past. “Is there anything else you need? Anything I can do?”

His demon gazed at him for a second. “You wouldn’t know how to make pancakes, would you?”

“…what?”

“Breakfast food? Waffles? No?”

“I’ve…never made pancakes. And waffles aren’t real.”

“What do you have against waffles? Can I go through your cupboards?”