My whole body went taut. Of course, he wanted to hold me. I tried to tell myself it didn’t matter, that I could sleep with him plastered against me. I forced myself to relax, consciously releasing the tension in every one of my muscles. I could do this for Wes.
I must not have been successful, because after a bit of silence, Wes murmured my name questioningly. I blew out a breath.
“Can you just scooch a bit that way?” I said, motioning further behind me.
Wes raised his head to look at me, and I could just make out his features. “What?”
I sighed again, and knew I was blushing, but I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed. “I know it seems weird after everything we’ve done, but I just—” I stopped short and shook my head. Time for more honesty. “I can’t fall asleep if I’m cuddled up like that. I know it’s stupid, but I just…can’t.”