Or maybe John’s absence meant…
Stop it, now you’re sounding like a jealous lover.
Maybe he’d finally found that One-Eyed Jack.
Yeah, that’s a lot more likely. And it’d also be good news, Ben.
He twisted his hat again. “So why do I feel so awful?” he murmured.
Because you miss him, you idiot. You’re dying to see him.
He let that realization sink in.
His thoughts raced: Maybe I should go to his place. But what if it’s not a good time? What if it’s awkward? What if he doesn’t want to see me?
He stood up decisively. You’ll never know if you don’t try…
* * * *
Benjamin stood, staring at John’s door for a few minutes, like he’d done the first time. He finally mustered his courage and knocked.
Silence.
He waited a moment. Then, gloomily, he turned to leave, just as the door creaked open.
“Benjamin…is that you?”
John’s voice was barely a whisper.