She placed her head on his chest and let it rest there for a while. The warmth and the pressure was a comfort. Jack looked to his window and saw, through the slats of the blinds, the sky turning to that shade of gray peculiar to dawn. He touched his mother’s hair, surprised at its softness. He couldn’t remember the last time she—or anyone, really—had held him like this.
He wanted to tell her. He didn’t want to tell her. For to let her know the contents of his dream and the memory they signified would be a way of bringing it to life, making it an ugly, vile third presence here in the room. He swallowed around the dryness and the lump in his throat, remembering fists coming at him. Seeing the brick pavement of the alley rising up—too fast—to meet him as he fell or was pushed to its icy surface. He could see Doc Marten boots coming at him, kicking at his face and his gut, hurting, wanting to kill.