Chapter 42

I finally got to my feet, reminding myself not to sink through the floor as I made my way to lighting booth. I needed the familiarity of being there, where I’d spent so much of my time at the theater. I ran my fingers over the controls on the light board, the sense of all I’d lost intensifying. I wanted to die—but of course I was alreadydead.

I floated up, going through the ceiling to the theater’s roof. I went to edge, looking out over the city. Off in the distance I could see the apartment house where David and I had spent the last two years together. “I miss you,” I whispered. “I’ll always miss you. Grieve for me, my dear man. Grieve and then move on. Please, for your sake and the love you felt for me, move on.”

I curled up on the roof, looking up at the stars and began to count them, hoping doing so would take my mind off the last few hours and the final few minutes before my life ended. 2

“I think he could use our help.”