Chapter 10

She started talking a mile a minute about turkey and dressing, cranberry sauce and new potatoes, gravy and dinner rolls. The list of food rolled over me, drowning me in delicious images and smells.

I wanted. I wanted so much to go. I ached to go. But if the Home drilled nothing else into me, I did know the rules. Cute girls and boys got cuddly toys and happy mommies and daddies. Ugly oversized kids made their own happiness.

Time to start over and get real. I let her talk until she seemed to dry up.

“Uh, nice talking to you, ma’am. Here’s Jay. Merry Christmas.”

I handed him the phone and started clearing the table as he wandered away to talk to her.

See, here’s the problem with a loft. There’s no place to go to be private and alone. And I knew this discussion with his grandmother was one of those talks.