Nights passed. I thought Father would calm down, or at least Mother would try to reason with him on my behalf, but it seemed hopeless. I worried that Ash didn’t know what had happened to me. What if he thought I’d left him? What if he foundsomeone elsewhile we were apart? I tried not to think rashly but it was hard. Panic and jealousy stole into my thoughts. I’d never felt like this before, and it was wretched. All I wanted was to be back at my warlock’s side. Did Father think if he locked me away I would forget Ash? He clearly knew nothing.
Garnet and Vesey came to see me at times, trying to coax me round. I insisted my mind was made up, although my mind really had very little to do with it. On the twelfth night of separation from my lover, I wrote him a letter. I had to let him know I was missing him. Later, I’d devise a plan to escape.
So I hoped.