What do you do when you're a popular porn star and the love of your life is deeply religious and totally closeted? Why, you keep your true identity from him, create an alternate reality, and hope he doesn't find out, of course. Because, if he ever does, that would be the deal breaker. That was Jordan Hearst's reasoning, anyway. However, despite Jordan's best efforts at keeping his charade a secret, Spenser Hudson does find out. Having a liar and a porn star as a boyfriend is a deal breaker as far as the devastated Spenser is concerned. Fearing the loss of both his job and his family, Spenser abruptly disappears from Jordan's life, castigating himself for ever letting his carnal desires override his faith, thus allowing him to fall in love with the handsome, charming Jordan. With all attempts at reconciliation rebuffed, Jordan tries to move on, but the love he feels for Spenser won't go away, making it impossible for him to return to his job of having meaningless sex in front of the cameras. Spenser is given a different perspective on his and Jordan's situation from an unlikely source. Can the love he still feels for Jordan be the key to rekindling what they once shared? Is it enough to make Spenser see there's more than one way to look at the deal life has given him? Can a new deal to be struck?

The Deal Breaker

The realization humbled Jordan. This act that he’d treated so cavalierly all his life, now took on new meaning, a deeper significance. He felt as if he and Spenser were consummating their love for the first time. As Jordan reached his climax and was emptying himself into the man he loved, grateful he’d separated himself from Real Romance Studios, he silently pledged his commitment to their love and their relationship and reaffirmed his willingness to do all in his power to preserve it.  9


Spenser sat nervously next to Jordan in the pew at church the next Sunday. He was sure the eyes of every parishioner in the building were on the two men. He checked frequently to make sure he wasn’t sitting too close to Jordan. When the usher had asked the people sitting in the pew to bunch up to allow more people to find seats, he’d resisted and had to be asked twice to comply


Chapter 13