What do you do when you're a popular porn star and the love of your life is deeply religious and totally closeted? Why, you keep your true identity from him, create an alternate reality, and hope he doesn't find out, of course. Because, if he ever does, that would be the deal breaker. That was Jordan Hearst's reasoning, anyway. However, despite Jordan's best efforts at keeping his charade a secret, Spenser Hudson does find out. Having a liar and a porn star as a boyfriend is a deal breaker as far as the devastated Spenser is concerned. Fearing the loss of both his job and his family, Spenser abruptly disappears from Jordan's life, castigating himself for ever letting his carnal desires override his faith, thus allowing him to fall in love with the handsome, charming Jordan. With all attempts at reconciliation rebuffed, Jordan tries to move on, but the love he feels for Spenser won't go away, making it impossible for him to return to his job of having meaningless sex in front of the cameras. Spenser is given a different perspective on his and Jordan's situation from an unlikely source. Can the love he still feels for Jordan be the key to rekindling what they once shared? Is it enough to make Spenser see there's more than one way to look at the deal life has given him? Can a new deal to be struck?

The Deal Breaker

This was followed by a disclaimer, saying all actors were within federal compliance rules, over eighteen years of age, and had been tested for STDs. Also, this was fantasy and that in real life proper protection was encouraged.


Spenser’s heart froze, not sure what to anticipate. What came next made things even worse.


As the red curtain dissolved, a man standing next to a swimming pool appeared. He was dressed only in baggy, white cargo shorts and was vacuuming the pool. Spenser realized the man was Kent, whom he’d met at the Chinese restaurant a few weeks earlier.


Kent turned his gaze to a sliding patio door. A man wearing a blue and purple paisley Speedo and sunglasses had emerged. He was carrying a drink in one hand and a book in the other. Spenser gasped and covered his mouth with his hand. His heart thudded painfully in his chest. It was Jordan.


Chapter 18