What do you do when you're a popular porn star and the love of your life is deeply religious and totally closeted? Why, you keep your true identity from him, create an alternate reality, and hope he doesn't find out, of course. Because, if he ever does, that would be the deal breaker. That was Jordan Hearst's reasoning, anyway. However, despite Jordan's best efforts at keeping his charade a secret, Spenser Hudson does find out. Having a liar and a porn star as a boyfriend is a deal breaker as far as the devastated Spenser is concerned. Fearing the loss of both his job and his family, Spenser abruptly disappears from Jordan's life, castigating himself for ever letting his carnal desires override his faith, thus allowing him to fall in love with the handsome, charming Jordan. With all attempts at reconciliation rebuffed, Jordan tries to move on, but the love he feels for Spenser won't go away, making it impossible for him to return to his job of having meaningless sex in front of the cameras. Spenser is given a different perspective on his and Jordan's situation from an unlikely source. Can the love he still feels for Jordan be the key to rekindling what they once shared? Is it enough to make Spenser see there's more than one way to look at the deal life has given him? Can a new deal to be struck?

The Deal Breaker

Getting a degree of control over himself, Spenser rose and looked around. The living room was a mess. Empty beer bottles sat on end tables. Newspapers lay strewn on the floor. A plate with a half-eaten sandwich and an unfinished glass of milk adorned the coffee table.


The kitchen was worse. The sink was piled high with dirty dishes. Empty Stouffer’s and Marie Callender’s boxes were overflowing the garbage bin.


Spenser opened the refrigerator. It was empty, save for beer, condiment jars, a half-gallon of milk gone bad, and two shriveled tomatoes. On the table, amongst the debris, he saw the cursed index card which had exposed Jordan’s betrayal. It had been ripped to pieces and left lying there. Spenser looked at Henrietta, sighed deeply, and sadly shook his head. Henrietta whined.


Chapter 19