It’s not easy being a gay man in Utah, but it’s even more difficult when you’re young and overweight. Jay has never fit in with the general “club culture” and he knows he’d never be attractive enough to catch a one-night stand, much less a boyfriend. Losing himself in books and school alleviates his loneliness, and he doesn’t waste time dreaming about what he can’t have. Until he meets the new director of the GLBT Center on campus and promptly falls in love -- against all common sense and logic.<br><br>Hoping to catch a few glimpses of Stephen outside of the Center, Jay decides to start working out at the university gym. The plan turns out to be too successful as Stephen volunteers to be his workout buddy, then invites Jay out to lunch, and finally, kisses him. Jay wants Stephen more than anything, but he can’t bring himself to trust Stephen’s intentions. Not when he knows he’s disgusting and Stephen is so perfect ...

From Behind that Locked Door

But it wasn’t. In fact, Muhaimin had only one thing to say. Another warning against Whalen. Cillian sighed. “I already know not to trust him. What more do you want from me?”


He nearly spit out his sandwich. After a few moments to recover, “What?”


“Leave it to Jack if you’re scared, but it must be done. Kill him or have him killed; it makes no difference.”


He’d much rather see Whalen be convicted of his crimes and locked away, despite what his hallucinations seemed to want. “I can’t kill him,” he told Muhaimin. “And I would never make Jack do something like that.”


“No. I can’t. He may still be a threat. He may even be dangerous. But he hasn’t gone near me or my family since he quit the priesthood. As far as I can tell, he has no interest in me any longer. I would defend Jack and Henri if I had to, but I don’t think that’s even remotely necessary.”


Chapter 52