It’s not easy being a gay man in Utah, but it’s even more difficult when you’re young and overweight. Jay has never fit in with the general “club culture” and he knows he’d never be attractive enough to catch a one-night stand, much less a boyfriend. Losing himself in books and school alleviates his loneliness, and he doesn’t waste time dreaming about what he can’t have. Until he meets the new director of the GLBT Center on campus and promptly falls in love -- against all common sense and logic.<br><br>Hoping to catch a few glimpses of Stephen outside of the Center, Jay decides to start working out at the university gym. The plan turns out to be too successful as Stephen volunteers to be his workout buddy, then invites Jay out to lunch, and finally, kisses him. Jay wants Stephen more than anything, but he can’t bring himself to trust Stephen’s intentions. Not when he knows he’s disgusting and Stephen is so perfect ...

From Behind that Locked Door

Cillian wandered over and hugged Henri. Then, he headed for the bathroom. Muhaimin was there, relaxing in the tub full of water. It looked at him, and he silently prepared himself for another sermon or piece of unwanted advice. But none came. The capybara closed its eyes and left him alone. He splashed some water from the sink onto his face. He would have brushed his teeth if he had any toothpaste. Maybe Zoe would grab some while she was out.


When he returned to the room, he found Jack sitting on the bed. He watched the TV absently. Cillian thought that perhaps Jack was just happy to avoid thinking about their situation for a few minutes. He let him.


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