It’s not easy being a gay man in Utah, but it’s even more difficult when you’re young and overweight. Jay has never fit in with the general “club culture” and he knows he’d never be attractive enough to catch a one-night stand, much less a boyfriend. Losing himself in books and school alleviates his loneliness, and he doesn’t waste time dreaming about what he can’t have. Until he meets the new director of the GLBT Center on campus and promptly falls in love -- against all common sense and logic.<br><br>Hoping to catch a few glimpses of Stephen outside of the Center, Jay decides to start working out at the university gym. The plan turns out to be too successful as Stephen volunteers to be his workout buddy, then invites Jay out to lunch, and finally, kisses him. Jay wants Stephen more than anything, but he can’t bring himself to trust Stephen’s intentions. Not when he knows he’s disgusting and Stephen is so perfect ...

From Behind that Locked Door

They had to share a restroom with other shelter occupants, which meant no bathtub for Muhaimin, but they weren’t planning to stay here for long. Just enough to get some sleep. Jack and Cillian were the first to crawl into bed. They lay facing each other. Jack passed out before his husband.


Zoe took the top bunk so that Henri and Muhaimin could share the lower one. They all fell asleep with the light still on.   19


Around three in the afternoon, Cillian and the others started to wake up, largely due to hunger. They hadn’t eaten anything since the hospital. Though lunch had been served hours ago, the food was left out for anyone to reheat in the microwave. Pasta with cheese and meatless tomato sauce seemed to be the only option. Cillian offered to retrieve portions for everyone.


Chapter 87