That brief interaction with the outside made me feel overwhelmed, It wasn't that I had never been outside before, but it was just that no matter how many times I was taken outside I was guarded by numerous maids and it felt stuffy no matter how fun the place was, ANd now that I saw just a glimpse of something from the outside without anyone stopping me, I felt very satisfied yet I was scared because I didn't want anyone to find out that I was aware of a pathway that could lead outside or they would close it off for good and I would receive quite a scolding myself. I decided to remain silent for a while.