"Chapter 44- Attachment"

"Well, I don't want to see you,"

"Have I done something wrong?" I asked as I recklessly took off my black mask, "maybe we can still fix this," I walked towards him reaching him with my hand but he slapped it to avoid my touch. "Why is it hard for you to understand! I don't want to see you nor to be with you again!" his words contradicted the sorrowful expression he's showing.

"Are you giving up on me just like that?"

"You're giving up on our dreams of getting married together?"

"..."

He took a step back before he turned his back on me, he seem to be hiding his expression during this argument between us. "Everything is just a phase," he said those words as if the attachment was never a thing in his life

"so... Everything is just nothing to you? what about yesterday!?"

He flinched as I saw him glancing at me for a second,

"was all just an act?"

"..." he gave me a silent treatment. It's rude for not giving me the answer I want to hear or the answer you want to say, a shower of tears creeped out of my eyes and it kept flowing and flowing. The sky started pouring small droplets of rainwater from the sky.

"Yes, it was all an act, and I'm tired of it,"

this is absurd, I want to hear his own answer, not the one he made up in his mind,

"you're a coward," my voice trembled

"A liar, and... a traitor. Do you want me to hate you until your death?"

"you may if that's what you want,"

He turned his whole body on me and said the most heartbreaking words I've ever heard other than my parents.

"I'm only using you to fill in gaps in my heart,"

my knees weakened, my heart was shattered, the rain started dropping from the sky. "Have you ever loved me?" I asked as I try to stop the urge to break down in front of him.

"The answer is already clear, I didn't, and I'm tired of pretending to love you,"

"because you're not the person I'm supposed to be bounded with,"

I raised my head looking at his facial expression, "then why are you making a facial expression as if you lost the lottery," I asked.

"It's not your business. Let us not meet again, Klein," he walked away as heavy rain started pouring on my back.

I cried out my heart as I knelt on the rough street, my cries weren't heard due to the loud noise of the rain; don't leave me to bleed, I can't live without seeing you nor hearing your voice.

Whatever the sins I've done to you please I will do anything so you could forgive me. Please... just come back.

***

I came home drenched in tears along with rainwater, Evans' cloak was covered on me, Laurice's tender hands comforting me through the hallways to my room. "Forget him, it's for the better," she said before we arrived in front of my room, "I can't," I squinted my eyes as I started to cry again, "he's my first love, how can I,"

"most of the people didn't end up with their first love," she looked at me with a soft smile, "What is Evans to you?" I asked as I glanced at her who was beside me, she was speechless and just looked away before opening the door of my room. I went inside took the coat off that was given to me and placed it on my armchair, I looked at Laurice who was leaning on the door frame with a lot of things in her head.

"Don't think of my question too much," I said before entering the bathroom.

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did I go too far? or it was just right, I didn't mean to make Laurice contemplate the question I asked her, but the question is; why- why did they come here, are there any specific reasons to be here, don't they have work back in America?

These questions made my head ache, it was hard to clearly open my eyes. It hurts- whenever I open them, I didn't even cry too much- or I just lack self-awareness about myself. I didn't think this could affect my life big time.

If I had just taken a friend's advice about love I wouldn't feel like shit whose coping mechanism is to soak itself in a warm bath.

"never get attached nor give your heart in whole to the person you want to spend time with,"

Tenshi... I wonder where are you now, It's been a while since we last meet.

(new character alert!!!)

Tenshi Megumi, A Japanese friend of Klein; Age=25,

Characteristics: brown with blonde highlights and forest-green serene eyes