Date 4

Technically my last idea was a success of not find by intruders and so I thought this is just one Guy out of the thousands on Facebook and at this rate, I will always keep dating someone or the other. Currently, I was hooked on "How I Met Your Mother" and Barney Stinson was my role model. I got so inspired by his character that I decided to date men from 200 countries. I didn't realise the intensity of integrity of the oath, I just took it out of sheer passion and like I always overestimated my abilities three deals were sealed. I was happy that I am down with 3 but the truck is that it has to be from 200 different countries so technically it was only one but I have a whole life ahead and I always had this idea in my mind that I will get really rich so travelling would be easy. So keeping my last Idea alive I kept on looking for more people and honestly, it was more fun this time. I had told Anupriya about everything that happened between me and Sidharth so even she got interested in finding people via Facebook.

I and my sister got close after the Enrique Iglesias episode which by now I am trying too hard to forget. I even told her about Sidharth and she was always open to listen but I didn't tell her about us kissing and stuff because I was scared that she might think it is okay to kiss and maybe practise the same. I know I am being a hypocrite here but I was being protective about her and for me, she was a saint and I would not mind if she ends up being a Nun. She was 4 and a half years younger to meet and honestly I was not so good to get in the early period of our life may be that ego of being an older sibling came in between and then you naturally become a dictator over the younger ones. But our relationship drastically improved when we started sharing limited secrets and Gossiping about them. But I was very careful to let out only those secrets that will not disrupt her innocence and kindness and for some reason, I didn't want her to become the person that I was becoming and wanted her to stay away from all these emotional traumas and thankfully she was in a Girl's school so she can enjoy her school life in a way it is meant to be and experience less of this rush inside. But she never used to study and because of her, I got one permanent dear that she might end up in an average of poor College doing nothing in life so I tried to be a little strict with her when it came to education. My dad kind of have upon her and only requested her to pass properly and my Mom believed in both of us but she was very patient and never scolded her too much. I only the other hand made her life difficult and did not let her escape so easily but it didn't work so it is important to realise that you can't really force something but only inspire. We also had a lot of similar interests in terms of movies, songs and we both were Anime fans. So I and my sister used to go to a nearby Cyber Cafe and download the whole season of anyone Amine and watch it over the week. My sister by then started inviting her friends over and all of them seemed excited by something. I was really curious because I overheard them and it was something related to boys which is unusual because there were no boys in their school. So I intruders and asked them what is the matter for such excitement and they told me that two new Batches have been admitted in their school and they were Co-ed but the Batches West only for Highschool grader so the boys who were studying at their school were seniors. It was a new batch and the school has started it from this year only so my sister and their friends had no idea how many boys were there but there were sure some good numbers and I was just thinking that those guys will be like a king sitting on their Golden chair at they will be the only Handful number who the whole school would be crushing on. I was thinking about how it would be if the seniors were flipped and me and my friends West studying in a Boy's school. I can't even imagine the kind of attention we would get and it will like living a celebrity life, only if that was possible and started envying those boys. My sister school is one of the best schools in Kolkata and very expensive for us to afford her free but used to manage it somehow. But her school was very unique because they used to do almost anything for their students. On one hand, other schools are concentrated more on the fact that how much money they can drain from the parents, my sister school didn't even charge for extra Stuff that any school normally did. Artist from that they used to them all of their students for an outing, movies, pizza almost every week and for every event they used to gift something to their students. There was a prize distribution after every exam and it wasn't just for the toppers as they believe everyone worked hard so the gift was for every single student. Artist from that they had a Mega event every for years which is like a school function and the practice used to start 6 months before the event which was a three-day event and the practise used to be so day long do there were hardly any classes happening then and the best for 6 months their breakfast, lunch and snacks see sponsored with unlimited drinks and desserts. And the food package used to come from the top restaurants and fast-food chains in Kolkata and they could take how many packages they and I also used to be in an advantageous position because she used to get everything for me as well and even sometimes used to take from her friends for me. Like I said she was a saint for me. The school was so encouraging that whoever got more than 90% every year in their 10th and 21st grade would get really expensive gadgets as gifts. I honestly have never seen a school like this in my life and never will because it contradicts the very basis of any business model that is profit. One day one of her friends Simran came over and she managed to get the numbers of two hot guys from their school. Initially, they didn't know what to do and asked me and I was like I am not a part of this because I can't sit with them and do all these nuisances no matter how much I wanted, after all, I was supposed to guide them. The next day my sister came to me and told me that there is a hot guy in her school and almost all her friends are going gaga over him. His name was Risabh Khemka and my sister suggested that we should stalk him on Facebook. So later at night we opened the Computer and started stalking him, he was hot for sure but more than that he seemed like the kind of Bad boy you should stay away from but can't. We even had his number thanks to my dear sister so we were in a dilemma that from where should we approach him. Facebook was the right choice so that we don't sound so desperate and anybody would go for approaching via Facebook but we choose to text on phone and I didn't know why we made that decision. He replied in like 10 minutes asking "Who is this?". One thing I used to hate about the earlier conversation when you did not have a smartphone was the deductions in letters that made one word and it was annoying. And after some time, they even started using numbers to represent letters that were even more shabby but nobody cared and even I used to shorten the word but my reason was different. I was unsure of my spellings and grammar ever if they were correct and shortened it to save myself from any insult that could follow. His obvious question has a very obvious answer and this time I thought to answer with others honesty and I said: "I got it from my sister who is in your school" to which he said okay and asked me about whereabouts. Thankfully I said the right thing because he was not dumb like Sandeep to have believed in a story that I cooked. He asked me if I know him more than his name and I told him only a little description. I believe at that age everyone has a lot of time in their hand especially if they are not scurrying and that explains the reason for almost all my dates. Even Shovan was a very poor student, after all, he hardly used to study and secondly because he getting into his dad's business and hence he just needed to graduate, a story very similar to mine. He then asked me whether I am on Facebook or not and then sent me a Facebook request. I am pretty sure he wants to see me and accordingly decide the direction of our conversation. After that, we started talking on Facebook and one week down the line we started getting close and our conversation was kind of a hit and we used to talk all evening and then he even started calling me and we used to have an hour-long conversation but I was pretty sure things will cool down after a week from my end because I generally can't talk so much. But after a week he became more enthusiastic and I was like trying to find the balance back so I made sure not to instantaneously reply so that it would decrease the frequency of our conversation. My 10th-grade exams were over and Anupriya was doing a sleepover at my place. I told her everything about me and Shovan and that I am already fancy him and she suggested I should confess. Even my sister supported this advice and I texted "I love you". That feeling when you let something out that you have been keeping inside for a long period is so liberating. You don't care about the outcome because you have already thought about the different possibilities in your head and since you have reached the peak and just want to let those feelings out of you. I did the same and waited for his reply know and there it was "I love you too" almost in a minute. I couldn't believe my eyes and titled it the best day of my life and honestly, if you ask me now I'd say it is one of the study decisions I made till and he was the artist guy I have dated till now at present.

The problem with us girls is that we know when things get shitty and when things are going the way they shouldn't because our intuition is very strong to feel that bitterness developing but then we are so blinded by our emotions that we choose to live in misery and trouble. We try every bit to save the relationship so it can last forever but how long can we expect something that is already broken, to stay. So moving onto my ultimate failed relationship and you will know why I call it that way very soon, we started our official relationship with a phone call and initially, we didn't really discuss our confession but only talking about random stuff. Then at last when he was about to keep the phone down I told him you are forgetting something and he said in a slow Mo "I ".... And with a small pause added, "want to fuck you". I don't know what was wrong with me because I should be offended by now but I wasn't and instead started laughing and told him this should be our Golden Words. I am feeling sorry for myself and yes I don't want to embellish this part of my story with any fantasy but only real and would like to pen it through the perspective of a wise woman. We were in a namesake relationship but we didn't even go on an actual date and most importantly haven't yet met in person. I kept asking him if I wanted to see him but he always procrastinated on the idea of our meeting and I was not sure whether I should insist much on the fact and move on with the relationship. We lived far away like some 25 km and I always used that as an excuse to myself for us not meeting but that was not even a validated excuse. We had so many transportation facilities that it wouldn't take us more than an hour and apart from that currently I am living with a strong belief that when people want to make something work it works. Two weeks into the relationship I discovered a very interesting thing that he was way more popular the I know. He has changed 3 schools in Kolkata and everyone single person from that school be it the juniors or seniors knew him the reason he was just the most naughties and will student you can come across and since he was way rich than the average students he always got away somehow. I had few friends in my locality and tuition who was studying in his previous school and every single person knew him. I was amazed by how can someone be so popular and that made me like him even more. I felt like I was living a teenage dream dating some hot wild guy but was dating someone who was both filthy and rich. Slowly the frequency of our conversation started dropping and it kind of scared me so I tried to be more alive and funny by thinking in ways and googling some tips on how to keep the conversation alive and your boyfriend interested. Most of the tips and tricks could be trailed back to our meeting which wasn't happening and honestly at one point I gave up and stopped insisting that we should meet. Meanwhile, my idea of finding people worked for Anupriya and she found a boy named Mathew and decided to meet him. She didn't want to go alone and we planned on meeting him in a nearby mall. That day Anupriya came to my place and insisted that we wore shorts but seen I wasn't fully waxed I couldn't, so she got me some waxing strips and we stripped off my hair and got ready for her date. We took a taxi and went to the mall and he was waiting there for us in his school uniform and a school bag. We sat near a tea stall and Anupriya got a little awkward as usual and the responsibility to keep the conversation alive was technically on my shoulder. Then Mathew started talking about how he is the one guy in class who is always thrown out and since he is an Anglo-Indian he gets both good and bad attention. The best thing about Anupriya and Mathew was that they were both music lovers and wanted to pursue music as a career and I could see that there was a possibility of them vibing. Then we went to KFC and ordered fries and some burgers and the weird thing was he didn't even offer to pay and we paid our bills which were kind of weird because we always expect boys to pay. Maybe even I was there so it must have crossed his budget so he went with not paying at all. Then we came back and Anupriya dropped me halfway and I came straight home. I couldn't stop thinking about how they have only known each other for a week and yet they had their first date and already planned for the second one, whereas I on the other hand was getting no advancement in my relationship but things are not even going to work if I insist so I have up. Surprisingly that day he didn't even call and even I didn't have that much call balance so I was waiting for his. Also, I had a lot of ego at the same time so made sure that if I am initiating a conversation today so he should be the one initiating the next day and today it was his turn. So it was perfectly fine for me to suffer in pain but not crumble my dignity. And as expected he didn't text me that day and I feel it was the worst day of my life. He texted me the next day and we were talking normally about how it day was and what did he do. I wanted to know he didn't call me yesterday but then I couldn't ask and he even didn't call me today as well, we were just chatting normally. I started getting scared and told my sister everything but she thought that I am overreacting to this situation and should give him some space but I told my sister to collect some information regarding him like who is he friends with and by chance is there something that I should be worried about. My sister gave me a very annoyed look and went back to sleep and tried but couldn't stop thinking about what went wrong. On the other hand, Anupriya and Mathew were hitting it off to the next level and she even started going to his place and met his Mom. Her Mom was more chill than our regular Indian Mom's and even used to drink with Matthew's friend which was kind of weird and Anupriya even invited me to his house party and I accepted the invitation. So even I started thinking about finding some other distraction in my life because things between me and Shovan have come to a standstill. But it was really hard to find a guy like him because he had it all Looks, Charm, The Bad boy tag and above all I felt that I really really liked him and maybe can never get over him.

I and Anupriya recently discovered something very enchanting, it was the black and white magic and we read so much about it and that couldn't residue ourselves from trying some of it. We decided to only practise white magic, while Anupriya was supposed to do it for strengthening her bond with Mathew and I on the other hand would do it to create a bond that wasn't even there. Meanwhile, Sukhleen was also dating someone and I never really understood her choice in boys, she used to say yes to almost anyone who would propose to her. So almost everyone in my group was engaged with someone or the other having their problems and the name "Single Ladies" didn't suit us anymore but we still didn't drop it. The first spell that I picked was really easy, all I have to do is write my Name and his title together on a piece of paper, encircle it and every day for the next 7 days I have lit a Candle keep it just above the name and Imagine about how happy we are together for the next 7 mins. It was crucial that the same items are used every day and hence I tried keeping them safely inside my study table. The next day I was talking to Anupriya and suddenly my Mom came with a piece of paper asking me why have I written "Kritya Khemka" in it. I got so flustered that I told mom that he is a very big singer "Tom Khemka" and even asked Anupriya to tell Mom that we love him so much that I want to marry him one day and that is why I wrote my name with his Title. Even Anupriya on the phone got so carried away that she said to make Aunty listen to one of his best songs and she started singing one of Eminem's songs. At this point, I really couldn't hold my laughter and started laughing at Anupriya and my Mom left the scene. Like always I don't know if my mom bought it or not but she'd let it go. I guess our parents also understand the kind of hormonal shift we are going through and they try to act cool about it because of they don't then things might get ugly. So it is wise to support your children and stay updated with their current affairs. I did that spell religiously for the next 7 days and it conversation did improve a little but I am not sure if it was the spell. He had a very bad habit of boasting about himself and he used to tell me all his school stories and even I used to listen to them with great interest and be enthusiastic. But suddenly he stopped texting me and even if he did it was just some random conversation. I asked him if something is wrong but he never told me and only replied with "hmm" and I got so annoyed that I told him that it is enough and I don't want this relationship anymore. He didn't reply anything to my text and I got my clue which kind of made me forested m depressed. Earlier I was only sad but now I felt depressed and sad. Our school was about to reopen from the summer break and I had already made be friends in my Science section and only used to hang out with my Old Friends during Lunch break. We were five in a group and all were seen by five different sections and initially, I was not happy about the change in section but after the dinner break, my friendship with the new people got stronger and I started opening up little by little. Mostly I used to hang out with Pooja and Mayank and it was really fun with them. I haven't told them about my past or present yet because I was scared she might be judgemental so true to know her a little. Apart from them, I have got some old friends from my last section and they were good people as well so mostly I sat with them or Pooja. Grade 11 was very different and difficult compared to the other grades and everyone started the rest race taking so many extra classes and starting up to date. And I on the other hand was still figuring out which holds to buy according to the Syllabus which was already given to us at the beginning of the year. For them, it was the crucial period because 11 and 12 is the final stage that will decide on which College you will get. On the other hand, for me, it was just two years before I get into the College of my dreams. I was sometimes amazed to see how rigid I am with what I wanted to do in life so much that I never questioned my dreams even for once. For me, it was the only hope that will take away all my passion and bless me with a new life.

The first white spell that we did want much of a success so we decided to look for another one because there are so many of them that finding the right one is the key to unleash the magical charm onto your loved ones, at least that is what my research suggests. So I picked up a new one which was about making your boyfriend aware of all the good qualities that you have and making him fall in love with those qualities. I liked this story because I wasn't deceiving him but only making him notice my god qualities and admire them. I liked the idea of this spell because most of the time you are not able to realise the full potential of your partner and are hindered from seeing those qualities that would have made you talk in love with him/her and sometimes even if you do realise it is so already too late. I didn't want to be one of them and hence planned to work on it before it is too late. The spell needed all of you to write down the top 10 good qualities about the both of you on a white piece of paper, put a stand out your and his hair on the paper, fold it, spray your favourite perfume on it and put it inside an envelope and seal the envelop and keep it very close to you so that whenever you go it starts with you. And every time you talk to your boyfriend or meet him, that particular day before going to bed you are supposed to kiss the envelope and keep it under your pillow and believe in the power of magic. For me there were three hurdles first I don't have his hair, the second I don't meet him but only talk and third I don't use perfume and only deodorant. So my research told me that in case you have one ingredient missing then you can find the best possible replacement so instead of hair I make a collage of his and me Photograph, I planned to only kiss the letter when we talk on calls and text and I used my father's Cologne. I was very happy with that replacement and planned to proceed with my process. Surprisingly that day he did call me because he hardly used to call so that day I very proudly kiss the letters one day I get to say "Yes" to him but I shouldn't be so hopeful. He called me again the next and I started questioning if the magic is working and what if I would have actually out the actual ingredients that were asked for. I made sure that whenever I met him I will manage to get a stand of his hair and do my trick all over again. He was being a little romantic than usual and told me that he missed me but don't get too excited because he usually does this whenever we get on a call. But after a week things started talking less because of so many arguments we started having and the main cause was for me wanting to join the Salsa classes. I don't even know why I told him, I just wanted to let him know but it turned out differently and for a week all we had was a heated conversation and then suddenly he stopped texting. Honestly, I don't even understand what happened here because if he was being so possessive shoot me then he should have done better but he didn't even try to meet me and somehow I always compared our relationship to that of Anupriya and Mathew's because they started pretty later than us but they are so into each other know, going out every meet and her going to his place every alternate day and not only that, they even texted almost every hour. So it was very natural for me to get jealous and hyper about us. It was very hard in the initial few weeks and if you see me then you will instantaneously figure out that something is wrong with me because I was completely devasted thinking the same thing all over again that I might not get over him for the rest of my life and I should have learned from my experience that we move on but all we have to do is give it some time or find a better person. I wish I was there to tell my Old self this but the world doesn't work that way and I'd have to learn it by myself. All my friends are still in their dating our relationship done whereas I was only one who was single all over again and I felt insulted because I did blabber a little about him and us so I should note accept the taunts that are destined to come my way but Jasprit taunted me a little showing off her astrological skills of how she earned me earlier but I didn't listen. But don't take her wrong I must have portrayed her in a Negative way all along but she was always overprotective about me so that kind of explains the behaviours she had been exhibiting in the past few years and also she is very soft from inside and always make sure that I overcome all my sadness quickly by putting up a tough front. I honestly liked her a lot as a friend and the best part is that it was very natural for me to forget anything that the teachers would ask us to get like Graph book, Geometrical box or some stationery that we normally don't get to school and she made sure to carry an extra for me so that I don't get punished. She also invited me to all her functions and occasions and I used to take my little sister as well with me.

It has been two months already and I have had no conversation with him and though I still like him always wondered whether I should text him or not but Thankgod I have enough self-control to not do that. So I was kind of waiting and suddenly realised that I have the power of my spell and if it works properly for me I can get wonders. Coincidently me and my friend Ipshita, who was a classmate, shared the same story. Even his boyfriend didn't want to meet her and preferred texting instead. She just meets him once and that was it after that they had a break-up once and then again patched up but she was very unsure about how things were going and after a lot of thinking, we found an obvious connection which was they had the same Sunshine and were both Pisces. So the next day I printed out all the characteristics of a Pisces and it was about 150 pages thick and got to school so that we can sit together and research about your to understand them and get them to fall in love with us. Those days me Pooja and Ipshita used to sit together and since I was closer to the both of them I usually sat in the middle and when that day I took out my notes from my bag and kept it on the table Pooja was shocked to see my desperation and have me a blank look that I can never forget, it was hilarious at the same time she seemed annoyed. But completely overlooked it and went back to my research and me and Ipshita started highlighting the points that matched them to find out a pattern. After the whole day of research, we found out that they are big liars and sympathy seekers which were 100% something he had and I can't deny. We hired down a lot of points and also advice we can keep in mind but for Ipshita she can execute because they were back together but I was nowhere in contact with him and hence the second aspect of my getting back to him is to work on the magic spell. This time I made sure to pick up a spell that is achievable and I have all the required ingredients in the vicinity and finally found I true spell that was destined to bring back my love which included a little shedding of blood. The spell was supposed to be performed on a full moon night and I had to write his and my name in a piece of paper and prick a little blood from my thumb and press it against the name so that it is concealed together and finally bury it down with an item that I love in an open park. I checked the dates for the next full moon and it was 15 days away so eagerly awaited send thankfully I had my physics class on that day and it started a little late so I had a handful of time to do it. I told Ipshita that I have something to do and since I didn't want to do it alone so asked Ipshita to accompany me and hence we started ours a little earlier. We went to a shady pay which is like 350 m away from our tuition class and I took three needles out of my box and started pricing my thing. Ipshita got scared seeing my madness and tried stopping me but since I had already planned everything there was no backing out now. After at least trying for 5 mins I was able to get some drop of blood out and it wasn't an easy task given I can hurt myself so definitely the continuous pricking did hurt my thumb. And after that, as the spell suggested I concealed it together on that piece of paper and buried it now very deep. My hand were already very muddy and thankfully Ipshita was already carrying a Water Bottle I washed them off. Then while going for our classes she tried explaining how this is pure madness and it should be stopped but honestly, I didn't care and felt very content with what I did. There was a guy in that same Physics class "Vinay" and he kind of good looking and very intelligent so I kind of had a crush on him. Very had never talked at such but I didn't mind being friends with him and I was completely sure that he was very shy. Physics class was relatively boring for me because the faculty was too slow and down by 2 weeks I had already learnt how to draw his face and you could see that all over my physics notebook. On the third week of my class, Vinay came late for the very first time and was sitting right next to me because there was no dear left in the front and I finally did him a "Hi" and then we started talking and he got so interested that I felt like he wanted to introduce himself but was waiting for the right moment given his shyness. I really don't mind being the first to approach and hence I did the same here and it turned out pretty well do well that from the next class he voluntarily started sitting next to me and we used to chat all class but the faculty interrupted us so much in between. The thing is he was really intelligent and when it took an average student 5 minutes to solve a problem he used to do it in like 30-40 seconds and everyone was amazed by his speed and since he was very attentive in class, he was the favourite student of that faculty. And currently, my chit-chat was technically taking that student away from him, Sir used to get a little annoyed but at the same time, he adorned me due to my cuteness and was kind of okay with us hitting it on. We were talking so much in class that at one point everyone believed that something is going on between the two of us but if you ask me I was always unsure about my feelings for him, it was like whenever I am with him I admire him but when I used to come back home he quickly vanished away from my mind. Even Ipshita didn't like him so much and thought that he is too nerdy for our taste but I don't know I always admired him. Then we finally exchanged numbers and started chatting on phone but I always thought about how Shovan is doing and stalk him all day on Facebook just to get a hint on whether is he doing someone but it almost confused me that how can I get so attached to a person that I have never even met and I don't even know what he looks like in person and how does he talk and tall is he. I know nothing of that sort but yet couldn't resist myself from the charm of his memories that so so deeply encrypted in my mind that I remembered our conversation word to word. I was not myself forget about him as if I wanted to keep him alive in me and I don't know why but I did those miserable mean things to myself.