Date 5

I was not entirely over Shovan but was becoming immune to the emotions that I have been going through and I learnt to not be so affected by people and thankfully my sister was the biggest support. I had to get over Shovan and she went all possible way to help me find a distraction and one fine day she came back telling me there is a new guy who was admitted recently to her school and she told me he is really hot and asked me to stalk him on Facebook. So we switched on the Computer and started stalking him and my! my! he looked liked Keanu Reeves but I wasn't sure if he was that tall but hot and cute. And like how things happen usually I sent him a Friend's Request on Facebook. He accepted it but like after a week which was kind of insulting and so we decided we shouldn't approach him. I didn't still mind approaching but there will be a disruption in the balance between any future conversation that we might have giving him an Upper hand at this. But thankfully he texted "How do I know him?" which was kind of rude and direct so to give a counter-attack I said "You don't" to which he asked me whether I am from his school and I said "No" so he asked me about my school and the Conversation picked up. I'd say it wasn't very frequent and exchanged very few texts every day because whenever he was online he would be playing Video Games. So it took me at least a month to know him and honestly even I wasn't in any kind of rush given my final exams wear approaching and I had a lot of things already on my plate that I had to take care of. We were in continuous conversation and decided to meet after our board exam.

This one month of endless exams was nothing compared to the study I have been thorough in my life as the kind of pressure we undergo is endless and used to think about people whose career was dependent on the kind of marks they get that made me chill thinking at least this is not what I am going to be asked for my NIFT Examination. All my exams went good only and Chemistry was my last paper and it was relatively easier compared to the other subjects and couldn't solve one question so I looked around and one of my friends had already solved it so I turned around as she was telling me the answer and when I looked back my paper was gone. I got so scared as the faculty-in-charge took my paper and she told me she will cancel it. I was on the verge of breaking out and requested her but she was not returning my answer sheet. Thankfully I was already done with all the answers and stapled it properly so not giving back was okay but cancelling it wasn't. Because that meant that I had to appear for the exams again and I won't be able to go to NIFT. After the exam was over I went to her crying and begged her not to cancel it and she said she won't but still I wasn't completely assured. Generally, our exams used to take place in a different centre given by the Board Committee and my Dad used to pick me up after every exam day. Today also my Dad came and one of my classmates also came along with us and meanwhile he started asking me why did the teacher took my paper and I shushed him down because my Dad shouldn't know and for the next three months until the results were out, I was left in a little horror of what if my paper was cancelled. I must be the first person in my Family to undergo that but thankfully it wasn't and to this date, I get terrified even thinking about the narrow escape I had and how I made sure that nobody at home knows about it otherwise I'd be dead meat for sure. Exam cheating and I have been a very long friend and all it needed was sheer confidence but now after that episode, I finally gave up on it.

I started cheating during exams from my second grade when me and my then best friend Sudipta, who is also in my group now, used to sit next to me in almost every exam because we had consecutive Roll Numbers. So we exchanged exam papers after we were done filling out our answers so that we can check each other's papers. Sometimes we used to climb down our seats and discuss the Question in hiding and the teachers weren't so careful as they thought we are just kids but I think we two were the most naughties in class. Sudipta's mom and dad had a live marriage which was pretty uncommon back then and she knew about it so we planned on writing a Love story about her Mom and Dad making us the director. Very nicely we snatched the middle paper out of my Notebook gave that story a title and wrote out names a Director 1 and Director 2. We just wrote one paragraph which we thought I'd too much for today given our age and I kept it inside my Notebook and we went to the Washroom. Once I came back our Benchmate told us that he has given the paper to our Class teacher and she called for us. We were so nervous and scolded him for doing that to us then we carefully went to our class teacher and she was like don't write it again. We were so relieved as we thought that our parents might be called but now we can breathe in peace but there was one more task to be done, destroying that piece of paper because if it falls into the hands of any of our classmates then we might get into trouble. So we waited for our class teacher to leave and as she did we hurried up to get the desk took out the paper from her register, crushed it and threw it out of the window and then we decided never to write a story again in class. Then when I was in class 8 I used to carry chits in my Pencil Box and wrote the formulas on my thighs underneath the skirt. Final exams were the best time to chat because we could wear Blazers which had so many pockets that you can put endless chits inside without being caught. In 9th they started talking about all of our belongings which kept us in a tight position and we completely relied on each other for our source of marks but we crossed that hurdle as well by dividing the chapters everyone has to take care of among ourselves.

So it has become like a habit that was finally led to rest after my chemistry paper was taken and it was for the greater good. After the exams were finally over I had a lot of things planned up but first I had to buy an Android phone with a good camera. I bought a Samsung phone which stayed with me for five long years and it was a really good model which made me proud of my purchase. Then I and Vinay started chatting on Whatsaap and made a plan to meet in A Coffee House. I am not a Coffe lover but going to a Coffer shop for a date is the safest option as you cannot sit there for long or can't leave without finishing the whole coffee and a snack and also choosing from the menu was always easier which didn't put too many holes in anyone's pocket. So provided the perfect balance for the first date and I think I only visited a Coffee shop when I went out for dates. But one day before he told me he won't be able to take me to the coffee shop as he was out of cash and wouldn't be able to pay. Honestly, I didn't mind paying for him as well but I didn't like that he was so blunt about it and hence I decided I shouldn't be paying so instead of the Coffee shop I told him to let's meet near Girish Park Metro Station because I usually take an auto from Girish Park back to my home whenever I go for my Art Class. So I told him that I will be going to my Art class on Tuesday and I can meet you after that. He was okay with that because his home is like 10 mins away from there and like planned I asked him to wait near the Metro Station and as I came out he was there waiting for me. Like I told you he did look like Keanu Reeves but a little short like maybe around 5'11" but I think that was enough. We went to a nearby park and sat there talking about random stuff and he asked me whether I have a boyfriend or not I did a blunder. I told him about Shovan Khemka which I shouldn't have because he knew him as he was one year junior to him and obviously in the same school. He asked me how did I know him and I told him because my sister told me about him and I had no idea how I was being portrayed in his head. He even told me that he had a conversation with him last night and I told him that since we have broken up do please don't mention to him about me or us. After it was already an hour he asked me what do I want to do next and no clue so after chatting for more than half an hour he dropped me at the auto stand and I went back home. We started texting more often after that and then we planned to meet again at the same park the next day. But due to my classes I had to cancel so instead, I insisted on meeting next week because I was already going out with my family over the weekend. For some reason, he took this otherwise and assumed that I am not much interested and asked him whether I want to date him or not which was out of the blue so I told him obviously and promised to meet him the next week. The next week I met him at the same place near the Metro Station and we again went to the park and after almost chatting for like an hour he asked me where I would like to go to his place. Got some reason going to his place felt like a better option than staying at the park and letting random children stare at us and his place was like 5 minutes away. Thinking of it now I wonder how can I be so gullible to go to his place at one shoot without even thinking whether it's even safe to go or what if he tried to do something wrong with me. But nothing of that sorts ever hit my head and I was following him to his place like a needy dog with my tongue out or maybe that is how I feel about myself now. His place of how I exactly can describe would be a typical 80's Indian house with infinite shall rooms, old walls with paints coming out in slabs and the drawing hall had no roof and his grandmother who is sitting on one corner of the floor and cutting vegetables. I felt sad for her I didn't know why she looked even older than her age. He introduced me to her and honestly I wasn't expecting to be introduced and then he took me to his terrace and it was quite calm, breezy and dark. His house has an old smell that kind of made me nostalgic because it somewhere reminded me of my grandparent's house and I really liked it. His terrace had a water tank where you could climb up and sit on top of the lid and this is exactly what I did. We were talking about random stuff and he was telling me about his career path and I want to be a chef one day and he was telling me more about football. Then I told him about my career choices and aspirations which kind of impressed him. We were sitting closer than usual and there was a kind of tension of little hormones rushing inside me and I could sense the same in him as well. I was wearing white jeans and since it was dark he told me that it seems like you are not wearing any jeans due to it's colour which is kind of playing a trick with him and he is not able to take it off his mind. I didn't know how to respond to that and what exactly to make out of it so I chose to ignore it. It was already 8 by now and it would take me 45 minutes to reach home from his place so I had to leave in like half an hour so after like 15 minutes I told him that I have to go otherwise it would be too late for me and he didn't by seem so keen about it but promised to drop me to the Nearest Metro Station and as we were leaving her told me to wait for a minute and he went somewhere and after a minute he came back looking a little pale. He told me that his brother is here and he took me to his room and told me to wait here for some time and switched off the lights so that no one can see us. Then we were whispering and he apologised for putting me in this position and said it is okay. Then he asked me to teach him few steps but I resisted initially yet after continuous persistence I showed him some Salsa moves that I had recently learnt from some online YouTube classes. We started dancing, the room was also dark with breezy air and the wooden windows were thumping against the wall which was distracting outflow but instead, he was getting more close to me and by now his hands were around my waist and by now I could feel him breathing and I wasn't able to resist him anymore and told him that we should stop dancing because I am feeling a little awkward. He didn't say a word and was still trying to sync in my harmony and then he kissed me on my lips. It felt like heaven because of the earlier tension that has been built and I felt so relieved but at the same time, I wanted more. Then while we were kissing he gently took me to his bed, climbed up on top of me and started kissing me and then tried finding his way to my boobs. I took his hand closer to my waist so that I can stop him from going into more sacred parts of my body and he took the hint, so completely focused on kissing me and grabbing me by the waist and hugging me. It was already late and I told him that I have to leave now so he immediately stopped and helped me fix myself. After that, he grabbed my stuff and he told me to give him a minute so he can check whether his brother is gone out or not. He came back telling me that we have to hurry up because his brother is in some other room. So I came out and as he was closing his doors, he asked me to kiss him before we leave because he won't be able to kiss me once we are outside his room. He then grabbed and kissed me and then we left his place to go to the Nearest Metro. I was already in a hurry and didn't concentrate much on being all cute with him. We took an auto and as we reached our destination he dropped me and asked me to call him as soon as I reach home. I waived at him and let for the metro and once I got a seat, I started reflecting on whatever happened between us and how I could still feel myself longing for him and it got me aroused. I couldn't stop thinking about him after that and couldn't wait to get to my bed and talk to him and dream about him later that night. All that I had imagined earlier was happening as we were talking about how our day went earlier and he is not able to get me out of his mind, but there was one thing that was not escaping my mind. I thought that he planned still this to get me to him to his room and find a way to kiss me, so I told him directly that did you plan so this for us to fall into a situation that would lead us to kiss. He started telling me that it must seem to you like everything is planned but it actually wasn't but somehow I didn't seem convinced and told him the same. I didn't know why I was so concerned about it because even I liked it, but he was offended and stopped replying after thRat which got me worried and skeptical. I wondered whether I should apologise or not but then I didn't because I found no reason why I should and left the situation as it was. For me even I want too inclined towards him but more on the fact of making out with someone, so it wasn't bothering me much about how he wasn't texting me which got me feeling offended. So I decided that in case if he doesn't text back so I to will not text him either. Days passed and there was no text from him but meanwhile, I got a message from Shovan my last boyfriend and we were texting non-stop so I started putting no attention to Vinay.