Date 11

Me, Ankita and Twinkle have been planning a trip forever and finally decided to go to Pondicherry for 3 before we ask her back to our respective homes. So since my jury got over at first so I had to wait for 3 more days and then exactly the next morning we will head out for Pondicherry. For the next three days I was chilling and as well as working on my portfolio because since I don't have a job yet I have to work my portfolio and make it more appealing enough to be selected out of the hundreds of portfolio they will be receiving in the next 2 months. So it is only wiser to start early without any time. Finally even Ankita was done with her just and we went shopping to buy some clothes for Pondicherry because currently we didn't get any fancy clothes. Then the next day we had booked a cab because we wanted to go comfortably, generally we always go by us but since this might be our last trip to Pondicherry together we didn't mind spending a little lavishly. The next morning Twinkle came to early PG and as we were waiting for the driver he called and cancelled in the last minute because he there was some kind of strike going on by the cab drivers. But now we had no other choice but only to take the bus to Pondicherry and we should hurry up because everyone who would be going by cabs now will be left with ni other option but to take the bus. Also this time we upgraded our hotel and took the one we always fancied and yes it did dig a hole in our pockets but I think we can manage after spending so meagerly. The bus was already getting full and thankfully we matched to get 3 seat at the back which was a distaster for me because the road might get a little bumpy and I get all pukish of traveling gets uncomfortable. But there was a little excitement because there was a group of hippies and there were 4 memeber and one of them was carrying a guitar and we were sitting right behind them. There was one girl and three guys who were all dressed up in perfect beach clothes and I had already picked my favourite. He was very nerdy with spectacle blonde hair and had light blue eyes with a sharp noise and men wearing spectacle with a hint of Keeping things to himself is my thing. Now we had to find a way to initiate conversation with those guys because even they are going exactly to Pondicherry then it will be really fun to hangout with them and who knows things might just take interesting turn but as we were in making plans about who should be first among us to day hi, that girl from their group herself asked us if we are heading to Pondicherry and weather we have been there before. And then there was no stopping they told us everything about themselves, that they are from Australia and how they always wanted to visit India and basically Pondicherry is the last Destination and they were in India from the past 3 months and will explore Pondicherry and stay here for a week and then head back to their country. We your them about his it is our Graduation trip and we are almost done with our College and we have been to Pondicherry couple of times because it is really close to Chennai and we will be staying there for the next 3 days. They asked us if we have already booked our hotels and we told them that we know which one we will be booking and directly go there and book it. They have already booked an hotel and insisted of we can stay at their hotel so that we can chill with them for the next three days and party. We enquired about their hotel and check it's priced online and it was definately crossing our budget basically one third more and we were already in loss because the current was already an upgradation. We vigorously checked for discounts and coupon codes but everything was invalid. Twinkle suggested that we should start at the hotel we have decided and visit them but that still definitely not happen, so we started thinking about it. We had extra cash on us because in our latest semester we with in a company and they pay us monthly stipend. So we decided to use up that money and stay at the same hotel and definitely we will not order any food or use any extra facility. We got down together and went to the hotel and I used my bargaining skills showing them out student's ID card asking them to not charge us for extra bed. Finally our 40 mins down the conversation and a quick request to the hotel manager they finally agreed but we didn't get the kind of respect that we would possibly get 40 mins before. We again requested to allot us a room in the same floor but that wasn't possible there for was Deluxe so we had a adjust in the floor below then and that wasn't at all a problem to worry about. We were so excited to have things going better than we expected and Ankita was excited to go to the beach but I was more excited on going into the arms of Lucas, the nerdy from the group and thankfully we already enquired indirectly that he is single so I can atleast flirt with him. Then we freshened up quickly and asked Twinkle to wait till for us to finish up first because she will forever. Then me and Ankita started taking pictures when Leila came and asked her what wether we should go to the Paradise Beach today and we agreed. Then in half-hour we were ready to leave and took a bus from a nearby busstand that will take us directly the the park from where we can go to the Beach. So there different entry fee for the beach and the park and they had to pay double what we paid because of being International Tourist and they already know that by now. Then we had to take a boat which would take us into a small man-made Island beach and it is the Paradise because and we have only been here once because the tickets are pretty expensive even for us. We initially thought that are hippies who like traveling around but turns out they are all software engineers who work in the same company and are Colleagues turned friend and take a long vacation every to explore different countries and like to see up like hippies while they are on their vacation. The beach was really cleans and there with houses and restaurant but it was a really hot day so we were mostly sitting in shades. At this point I really wanted to make a conversation with Lucas on a personal level and I was looking for a topic with I asked him you like parties. He said that he not such a party person in general and doesn't drink so much but he likes joining his friend of they are going to a party then he doesn't mind and then he asked me the same question and I was like yes because I love dance, music, trippy lights so party is always yes for me but yes I need company and just want Walk in alone and start being crazy and a support is very much needed. Then we were all hungry and went went to kuch at this restaurant in the Island and order so many food. These people sure eat a lot and definitely not without a beer and when the cheque was here they didn't let was pretty because they were looking you guys just graduated and we completely understand that feeling so you don't have to pay. We insisted but then let it go because that will help us to somewhere level up our budget and anyways we are very less compared to them. After that we were simply lying down waiting for the sunset and after that left the place and went to a small local market that had amazing crest items. They bought so many things which was unbelievable and they we went back to the hotel. The best about the hotel was they had bonfires every alternate day and today was one we all wanted to sit their and Lucas brought along his guitar so after sometime he started playing and thankfully I had arranged my seat in such a way that I was sitting next to him asking him to play my favourite song and getting that vibe of us being a couple obviously only in my imagination and that felt good. Leila was already in a relationship with Jack from their group and she wanted to spend some alone time with him after that and went back to their room. Lucas and Liam was left behind and I asked Lucas if wanted to go for a walk a bold move from my side but completely with it because he said yes to it. There was a part of beach owned by the hotel so it was all lighter up and a lot people were walking around so it was perfectly safe for us to take a walk and while we were walking I asked him how did he like in here and he had only good reviews and obviously they must be done based but he is not telling me yet. We talked about it favourite songs and I made hear "Bohemian Rhapsody" and had no idea how he didn't listen to it before and then introduced me an Australian singer. Then I casually asked him if he had a girlfriend and her told me he was dating someone but last they break off because she went to pursue her master in the USA. After that he haven't dated anyone yet and he liked things to happen naturally and but be set up for one, exactly my thoughts. He also showed me some of his artworks from high school and they were really good with an alternative meaning and I really like art that has a purpose and communication. It was almost 1 and we decided to call it off but he asked me if I would like to see the sunrise tomorrow morning and though I am definitely not a morning person but saying no to Hot Guy is again next to impossible and replied saying I would love to send join him and told him I will of I friends can also come obviously I won't allow them to come but just did that so he doesn't completely take me add someone desperate. The next day he knocked at my room and I asked him to give me 5 mins so that I can change and then he was there in the lobby waiting for me and I told him that none of my friend are in the state of waking up this early and he told me the same case with Liam so he told me then it's just us so let's call it a random date and I suprised to hear that because I was also aiming for the same thing. The sat by the beach watching the sun that has kind of already risen and told me that is felt the most peaceful when he is around the water body. After sitting there for an hourwe decide to go somewhere cool for breakfast and I asked him whether he is a tea or coffee to which he said he is lactose intolerant so black coffee. He seemed to be very sorted and calm person and only wished if he could either stay back out take me. I came back around 10 and these guys still sleeping so I freshened up quickly and asked them to get ready. Today we decided to go to the Rocky beach and also they was a small band performance in the evening and we had booked online tickets for that Suprising it came at a discounted price. I like the cafe's that we have in Pondicherry giving a perfect balance between French and Indian taste. Both mostly we always have Ice-cream from this Ice-cream parlour that is the only ship that never shuts down and is quite famous because of that and is almost vintage. My favorite flavour there is berrucrush and more than the flavour I like the name because it seems like a fancy name of a beautiful colour in WGSN. I told them about how I have applied for an internship in Australia last year and got onto Akira but couldn't go because they was a time clash so if increase I don't get a good job here then I will definitely come down for an internship and they were more than happy to have me but they were staying in Brisbane and the brand I would possibly be working under is in Sydney. Liam told me it is not that far and only like an overnight journey which kind of gave me hope and got me blushing. I knew they was an affection maybe just for the sake of us being here but I happy with that and wanted to spend more time with him. We went back to our hotel so that we can change into something that gives out more of a rock concert vibe but whatever we had we all pretty and not grunge but when we saw Leila she definitely have us all fashion goals in her black shoes and skit mini skirt paired with a leather crop top and we were a little embarrassed because being a fashion graduate we were suppose to set trends and they should take inspiration from us but what can we do afterall we are having a quantity crisis right now. We all took a cab and Liam told me I looked pretty and got me fluttering inside. We went to the rock show only to find out that it was happening in a residential club explaining the cheap tickets and the were very few people but it didn't matter because as long as the music is playing we can groove to it. I asked him to play a bollywood song of he knows any promised to try in the end. We were all dancing like crazy and since there were less people in the room we could recognise us being the crazy lot and then after sometimes they started playing something a little romantic. Leila and her boyfriend paired up leaving us five behind and I do wanted to pair up with Liam but definitely couldn't make the first move but we were basically focusing on each other and dancing to the music and with every song that was a little closeness and finally he saw me asked me for my hand and we started doing random sala move while my friends were all smiling at me. Then he apologized for being a bad dancer and how he is really trying and I was like don't say you are being so natural and he was like don't try to fool me and then he asked me if I'd like to drink something and we went to the bartender and I am not even sure that is he really a bartender or maybe a member of the band because he gave me no such vibe of being a bartender. Then we left for our hotel and we didn't realise it earlier but there was a rooftop swimming pools and we decided to chill there tonight and since we can only access it to 12 so we should hurry and anyway we had more than enough of this band, not that we didn't enjoy but then 3 hours is to much for they were a little local and had not such a good hold of their bass. But the only problem was we three had no swimsuit or anything in nylon and Leila had two but I really didn't want to eat someone's but missing out on this opportunity is a very bad idea so we looked for a shop and got each of us one and I took the black one. Then we went to the room changed into it swimsuit and thankfully the hotel provided us with bathrobes because walking to the pool in swimsuit was a little weird but then I saw Liam in his perfect body and I couldn't get enough of it. Actually all for of them were perfectly in shape and we were a little embarassed for different reasons but one we were inside the pool nothing really mattered and me and Liam were mostly hanging together. Twinkle and Ankita were little annoyed because I wasn't give them much attention especially today which was really kind of wrong from my side so I told then let's hangout together and then they were it's fine you can go spend sometime afterwards if you want to because technically today is our last night together and tomorrow we will head vnack for chennai and there was no scope of extension because I have already booked my flight tickets. Then after playing in the water and dancing so some crazy song Liam holder my hand but no one could add it was under water and I didn't let go of his. Then he started pulling me a little closer to him and by now everyone was absolutely sure that there was something going between us but it didn't matter because tomorrow I will be heading out into a complete different direction. He grabbed me by my waist and we were talking about tomorrow and how he wished for me to stay as long as he is in India and made me promise that I will come down to Australia for internship. Then he asked me if I could swim because he wanted to go to the deeper side and even if I didn't know how to the depth wasn't more than 5 feel so I can manage and told him I knew the basic and he asked me to show him. I could swim across the pool but he is much faster and I struggling to make my way from one end to another and he was literally laughing at me but then he grabbed by his hand and thankful there were little steps and I was almost reaching his height by taking the support. Then he told me if it is okay for me to chill with him for the whole night and so that we can again take a walk by the beach, watch the sunrise and go for breakfasts like we did earlier today and ho can I say no to such beautiful request but right now I definitely didn't want to leave the pool and stay right next to him. And finally it was 12 we were requested by the staff to be clear the pool and get back either to the room or access the beach. I asked him to give me 15 minutes so that I can take a shower and then I wrote a night dress that was a little fancier than my regular night dress as it was coordinated shift and shorts made out of satin. He wrote basic polo T-shirt and a short and knocked on my door to check if I am ready. Then we went to take a walk and he v asked me if have ever had sex near the beach. I smiled and told him that no and I am a virgin and he was like how could you be and was a little speechless and asked if it is normal here and I told him no most none of my friends are and then he was like how could you be spared and I went on saying it is a long story but there was always an unpredictable end before we actually got there. He was laughing and was like thank God have any thoughts I shouldn't and we almost forgot that we didn't have anything for dinner and went onto to enquire if the kitchen is still open will it was about to be closed and the most they can help us is with s sandwich. We offer two chicken sandwich and one Milkshake for me and went to the bar to get himself a beer but since the bar was already closed he requested for a black and we asked them to serve us outside. Then as we sat he asked me about my family and how was my College life and wanted to know more about the kind of work I do. He was amazed and told me that even he wanted to be a musician but then couldn't pursue it because he never thought of that as a career but only a hobby and later he realised that he should I taken the other way but he does some guy maybe once a month and is fine doing that. He doesn't care about the game but want to play it and is okay if very few people are listening to him because he doesn't find the need to stream it across thousand and if fine playing only within his close circle but I on the other hand had a different ideology and felt the need to be validated by the maximum number of people maybe because I am still figuring out myself and he had kind of already made peace with what he is and the he is. I don't what was better but anyways there is no one way to look at things and you never know what would bring you more happiness. Then after having our dinner we went to the room but this time to his room and I don't why maybe we didn't want to leave each other year and since he was staying in a single room there was no issue of any possible intrusion. He asked if I'd to watch anything but I just wanted to talk to him and look at him and yet agreed and opened a football match. I don't really understand but every guy I date has something to do with football and I had a theory that there was someone kind of personality development from this sport which kind of sparked a personality I was readily attracted to. But then it was very vague and no ended up choosing that sport as a career. After few minutes he asked if I am getting bored and I wasn't really getting bored but then this is not exactly what I had in mind so he asked me if would like to sleep here and wake up early tomorrow and see the sunrise and I had no problem doing that and happily slept for like two hours and as were sleeping unconsciously he cuddled me and I was in between of almost sleeping and a little awake so I knew and felt it but too sleepy to react and yet we couldn't wake up to the sunrise because we were to comfortable and no one remembered keeping an alarm and we would up into each other's arm and though smiling into each other, knowing this is the maximum we can be together and sorry dating goodbye to each other. We had to leave by 4 today so that we can Chennai by 12 and we all together went down for breakfast and took farewell pictures and I wanted a a farewell picture with Liam as well so I asked Twinkle to click us. Then we packed out badge checked out of the hotel and went to a nearby beach because our bus-stand was really close by and I suddenly remembered that I don't have Liam's number but was it right to ask for it out should I leave it her as a beautiful memory and not drag it which would only rise unnecessary expectations. And we were already following each other on Instagram so if there is something then we can always get in touch the but no point exchanging numbers now. Liam was a little blue and I was obviously not and then we started hugging everyone and finally it was time to really let go and then finally I hi m hugged him real tight knowing it is probably our last. Then left the scene and got on the bus and I started crying and Twinkle and Ankita were like are you crazy obviously you are not going to marry him or something so just take it as a beautiful memory and move ahead and she was absolutely right. It is not like we loved each other or something and we happened to have a really nice time together and was really grateful because it was so unexpected and let go of him. We reached around 10:30 and went to restaurant and ordered dinner for. Then me and Ankita went back to our PG and it was disgusting because our hotel was so fancy and now coming back to this is so not acceptable but thankfully I am leaving for home tomorrow.

The next day my flight was there in the evening and I'd plan to do some shoot before that. Then my friend's dropped me at the Airport and I huggy them tightly and once I security check was done and sat done quietly at one corner of the Airport and started reflecting back to whatever happened in my life and wrote a very meaningful quote about everything that happened and posted it. I got to emotional about all these and happy that I am done with all of these things and can peacefully breathe now. As soon as I landed and reached my home the first thing I did was poop nicely and the vigorously wash myself from everywhere and then I slept for the next two days. I told my sister about everything that happened and she like how do you always land up in such situations where there is always a hot guy and some Drama. I told her what you think you attract and that exactly is what must be happening with me because I always seek for some romantic excitement and she said maybe or may not be but whatever is the case I can atleast look back at the pictures and be happy about it and the best happiness is the one that comes when you are not even looking for it and is so unexpected. This was the most peaceful date I ever had because there was no drama and uncertainty and ended so smoothly. I wanted so Liam if he is okay and has he reached yet but I didn't want to create something that might feel like a drag. But the very next day he asked me if I reached safely and I told him to let me know when he reached his place and exactly after a week he texted me with a picture and said he reached back to his studio apartment and I left the conversation with a smile. I knew this is exactly the end we both want and we should be mature to abide by it and incase I did manage to reach Australia then that would be a different case all together.

Then I got back into working on my Resume and Portfolio and fter that I had few interviews in Kolkata but I didn't like any and kept searching and I wanted a two month break before I joined anywhere. I started working on my Portfolio and applying to different Companies and it took me approximately two month and a lot unnecessary interviews before I confirmed at this place in Hyderabad where I was to start working as an Assistant Fashion Designer from August. Meanwhile I had to go to Chennai for my convocation and my parents also came along. This is the first my mom visited my College and from there we went to Mahabaleshwar but my heart was so in Pondicherry and wherever I had time I used to randomly go through the images and I haven't told my parents yet about this beautiful experience but obviously I did have them a glimpse of his we used to travel with these people but didn't tell them whatever happened between me and Liam. I wanted to text him telling that I am currently in chennai but no, that is so unnecessary and sometimes I used to think that what if even I am thinking the same thing that probably I don't want to keep any old ties but I didn't love or anything but just like him as a person, had a crush because they was chance for us to be together and then got out separate ways because no one is looking for a serious relationship.