I. BelHert Civil War-1

Humankind rarely ask why a hero becomes a hero, why a saint is a saint, and how a great man becomes a great man. It seems that from the moment they become heroes, saints, and great men, their past doesn't matter, they just need to live as heroes, saints, and great men. Or, from the moment they are born, they begin to become heroes or prepare to become heroes.

However, when we look at heroes in history, there are always heroes of this kind in every era.Heroes have always appeared in Homo society, but "heroes" themselves have become "heroes" because of accidents of one kind or another.

Du Guangyuan wrote in his postscript: "I am not a great man, and I have never prepared to become a great man. My life has been living for others since I was 24 years old.It is not me who become great people, but those who I live for them. "

"A free man, a complete man." After Du Guangyuan's death, Mao Zedong extracted these two sentences from Du Guangyuan's letter to him. But if we look back at Du Guangyuan's resume, his life experience is the opposite: "A forced person, an incomplete person."

Whether it is our planet or the hometown of Du Guangyuan, the GaoKao is an important turning point in life for young Chinese. It is difficult to say whether Du Guangyuan is excellent or paranoid. He took the GaoKao three times, failed the first time, and enrolled in Wuhan University for the second time. All of this is for a girl, who was admitted to Tsinghua University's foreign relations major as early as the first year.

Later, due to a series of opportunities, Du became an international student in Nai-Area recommended by the United Nations under the recommendation of Gong Can from the Nai-Area. That year, he was twenty years old. Like all young people in the industrial society of the peaceful age, he went from a diversified, multi-polar, and individualized world with personal confusion to a completely unfamiliar world without a foundation.

Studying abroad is more like an escape without a future, six years of life, a master's degree certificate that may not have any gold content. Others choose short-term exchanges, and only a few will choose to spend six years with the students of Nai-Area Comprehensive Education. But he is much older than these people.

On the day of the outbreak of the BelHert War, Du had just finished three years of comprehensive education and became an industrial engineer. However, this kind of "advanced organic living metal" manufacturing had neither an industry nor a foundation for development on the earth. There are already many people who have ended their studies abroad early. In the absence of referees, Nai-Area will not let international students stay. Especially after the technical students learned about the dark prospects of the development of these industries on the earth, they all packed their bags back to the earth early.

Except for Du. "At that time, I was just a paranoid, there was no her there, I don't want to go back to the 'old world' anymore!"

Because of his interest in social sciences, he studied political economy and linguistics in the Nai-Aera for another year. On the eve of the age of 24, he was invited to work at the Nai-Aera Embassy in BelHert. For a student studying abroad, this is more of a practice than a job. He didn't have much to do there. The peaceful life lasted only more than one month. During that time, Du always chose a place and spent two to three days to visit there.

Just two months before Du arrived in the Moldis, the capital of BelHert, there was a political crisis here, and at one point he was on the brink of civil war. But unexpectedly, in just two days, the central government facilitated the reconciliation of Unic unity and Loeric unity, and the army mix and government reorganization started surprisingly.

The war broke out extremely quickly and was extremely puzzling. In less than four hours, large-scale military conflicts took place across the entire continent (the size of the entire Americas).The government army, Unic unity, and Loeric unity formed a three-legged situation.

In the capital Moldis, a fierce battle broke out between government forces and Unic unity. Just after the first shot was fired, a round of shelling proceeded slowly from east to west along the street of the embassy. After the shelling, there was another round of incendiary bombs. When Du woke up again, the staff in the other rooms of the basement had unfortunately died.

Most people have never seen a dead person. When dozens of corpses with grim expressions lay in front of them, it was like a mountain bursting and suddenly collapsed. There was only the smell of gunpowder smoke in the basement, but Du couldn't help but vomited. The survivors gathered these poor people who died, and in desperation had no choice but to carry them outside the basement.

In the two subsequent shelling, the basement collapsed halfway and the survivors died half again. The last house, the last four people. However, two days later, Du was left alone.

"This is war, this is war, lying on the dead."

"On the seventh day, I saved a woman."

Du Guangyuan has forgotten her name until now, because she speaks another Hert language, which was originally in his future study plan. He only knew that she was also an overseas student, from the other side of the sea. Three days later, on another desperate night when they returned empty-handed, the two grew up once. It is precisely because of this growth that both of them have ignited the hope of wanting to live.

If it is said that during the Siege of Sarajevo, the citizens can still do their best to find a glimmer of hope in the dark city. So in Moldis, day is death, and night is still death. In addition to the three political forces, there is also the extreme anarchist "Vanahon".

"They are no longer believing in the government, but a group of desperate beasts."

If the three major political forces still have some sense and know that they want to become the masters of the mainland, then these "Vanahon" are cultists who believe in doomsday carnivals.

Du's happiest moment was when the two dug their way to the emergency reserve. The garrison staff had begun to become giants, but the two were already numb. After finding a way to dispose of the corpse, they not only had the hope of survival, but also the material to survive.

With the forced withdrawal of government forces into the central city, Unic unity has surrounded the Moldis. Hunger drove the "Vanahan" crazy, and more and more reports of massacres spread in the settlements. The first person came, then the second, and the third. Du initially worried about the distribution conflict, but a strange collectivism quickly linked everyone in this basement. "As long as more people can survive."

He have forgotten how many attacks by "Vanahon" have been repelled. For the embassy near the government army block, "Vanahon" only dared to send a small team to threaten them. In their bones, they were actually bullies and fears of hardship. But Du Guangyuan also saw with his own eyes that a humanitarian rescue plane dropped supplies and was snatched away by "Vanahon". Killed people again.

In the one-month siege, the winner was not the government army, not the Unic unity, but the Loeric unity. At this time, they have been reorganized into the Hert Red Army.

After being saved, the girl began to alienate him, as if the skin-to-kin of the previous few days did not exist. Du didn't keep her either. After being checked, he followed the refugee team and began to evacuate outside the city. A missile exploded in the crowd, and when he turned his head, the girl had fallen in a pool of blood.

Du, who once ridiculed the drama of TV dramas, has only the powerless feeling of falling into the abyss of the dramatic reality. She didn't die right away. A steel piece interrupted her spine. There might be no pain, but she could feel her life disappearing bit by bit over time.

I don't know where she got her strength, and took his left hand and placed it on her heart. Her heartbeat slowly calmed down, and there seemed to be a happy peace. She smiled and looked at herself, and said a word, he didn't know what it meant, and later found out from her comrades: "You are very important to me, please live for me, please."

On that afternoon, an earthling studying in Nai-Aera became a member of the international column in front of the camp of the volunteers on another continent of this planet.

It was also that afternoon that Du knew for the first time that the Nai-Aera had joined the war in the form of a volunteer army.

In the southwestern hemisphere of this planet, the difference in species rights between the "Nai-Continent civilization" with Nai-Aera at its core and another "Onan-Continent civilization" led to a full-scale war confrontation.

"Each side can be separated from the other side's economy. This is a real life-and-death struggle."

On the first day of the war, he was an angry avenger. For my lovely friends and the fleeting but unforgettable love.

In the first week of the war, he was an Avenger.

In the first month of the war, he was a confused avenger. This is not my war!

Hertenan's thought seems to be composed of diodes, and physiologically, not only relative to Humankind, even relative to Humanaind, which controls family planning, Hertenan's developmental advantage as a human being is already a zenith star. However, this means that they do not care about individual deaths, or even do not care about individual deaths, in collective fanaticism. For any Homo sapiens species, the death of a life is a huge loss of a population. After any age that does not cherish life, Homo sapiens will always feel afraid. But Hertenan won't. For an ideological opponent, ideological elimination is not complete, but physical elimination is complete.

Hertenan didn't like this stranger who was out of step with them. In the execution of political enemies, Du always showed disgust. Finally, in the second month of participating in the war, he was sent to the military court for violating military orders.

As a member of the International Column, he did not have any sense of belonging. He neither belonged to the Hert Diaspora nor a fighter from the International Agency. He was like a lonely ghost, no one cared about his life or death.

On his twenty-fourth birthday, the Her't Military Court convicted him of treason. A political entity with no blood, political, or social relationship with him convicted him of treason. This is logically true and ridiculous, but it is difficult to refute in reality.

He passed death for the first time.

地球智人很少会询问,英雄为什么会成为英雄,圣人为什么是圣人,伟人又怎样成为伟人.似乎从他们成为英雄,圣人,伟人那一刻起,他们的过去就无所谓了,只需要作为英雄,圣人,伟人活着就可以了.又或者,从他们出生那一刻起,就开始成为英雄或者为成为英雄而准备.

然而当我们将英雄放在历史中去看,每个时代总会有这样那样的英雄,但"英雄"本人却是因为偶然成为"英雄".英雄在智人社会中从来都是必然出现,但"英雄"本人却是因为这样那样的偶然而成为"英雄".

杜广圆在遗书写道:"我并不是个伟人,也从来没有准备成为伟人.我的生命自二十四岁起都是为了别人而活着.成为伟人的不是我,而是那些我为他们活着的人."

"自由的人,完全的人."杜广圆逝世后,毛泽东从杜广圆写给他的书信中,摘出了这样两句话.可如果我们再去回看杜广圆的履历,他的人生经历却是反着的:"被迫的人,残缺的人."

无论是我们的地球,还是杜广圆的故乡,高考对中国的年轻人来说是人生重要的转折点.很难说杜广圆是优秀还是偏执,他参加了三次高考,第一次落榜,第二次报名武汉大学录取,但没有入学,最后一次考入一所普通二本院校.这一切的一切都是为了一个姑娘,她早在第一年就考入清华大学对外关系专业.

后来因为一系列的机缘,杜广圆在南域人龚灿的推荐下,成为了一名地球联合国推派南域留学生.那一年,杜广圆二十岁.和所有和平年代工业社会的年轻人一样,他从一个多元化,多极化,个体化同时夹杂着个人迷茫的世界到了完全陌生,毫无根基的世界.

留学更像是一种没有未来的逃避,六年长居生活,一张可能没有任何含金量的硕士学位证.其他人都选择短期交换,只有极少部分会选择和南域综合教育学生一起共同度过六年生涯,杜广圆比这些人都大得多.

贝尔赫特战争爆发的那天,杜广圆刚刚结束了三年的综合教育,成为了一名工业工程师.不过这种"先进有机活金属"制造在地球既没有产业,更没有发展基础.已经有很多人提前结束留学生涯.在没有推荐人的情况下,南域不会留下留学生.技术类的学生在了解到这些产业在地球发展的黑暗前景之后,他们都早早背上行囊回到地球.

除了杜广圆."那时候,我只是一个偏执狂,那里没有她,我不想再回到那个'旧世界'了!"

因为对社科类感兴趣,杜广圆又在南域学习了一年政治经济学和语言学.在二十四岁前夕,他被邀请到南域驻贝尔赫特大使馆工作.对于一个地球留学生来说,这更多是一种实践,而不是工作.他在那里也没有多少事情可以做.平静的生活只有一个多月,那段时间,杜广圆都是选择一个地方,然后花两到三天,最多一周,在那采风走访.

就在杜广圆到达首都梅杜斯的两个月之前,贝尔赫特发生了政治危机,一度走到了内战边缘.但没成想,仅仅两天,中央政府就促成团结联军和卢尔派和解,军队混编,政府改组令人惊讶又理所应当地有条不紊地开始了.

战争爆发得异常迅速,又异常令人费解,不到四个小时的时间里,整个大陆（相当于一个南美洲的面积）都发生了大规模的军事冲突,政府军,团结联,卢尔派形成了三足鼎立的态势.

而在首都梅杜斯,政府军和团结联之间爆发了激烈的攻坚战.就在第一枪打响之后,一轮炮击沿着大使馆这条街从东至西缓缓推进.炮击之后又是一轮燃烧弹,等到杜广圆再次醒来的时候,地下室另外几个房间的工作人员已经不幸死去了.

多数人没见过死人,当数十具表情狰狞的尸体躺在自己面前,就像是一座山轰然爆裂突如其来地倒塌下来.地下室里只有硝烟的气味,但杜广圆忍不住吐了起来.幸存者们把这些死去的可怜人集中起来,无奈之下只能背到地下室之外.

之后的两次炮击,让地下室不负重坎,塌陷了一半,幸存的人又死了一半.最后一间房子,最后的四个人.然而在两天之后,就只剩下杜广圆一个人.

"这是战争,这是战争,躺在火药堆上的战争."

"第七天,我救了一个女人."

杜广圆到如今已经忘记她叫什么,因为她说着另一种赫特语言,这本来在他未来的学习计划当中.他只知道她也是个留学生,来自大海的另一边.三天后,在又一个绝望的空手而归的夜晚,两人成长了一次.也正因为这次成长,两人都燃起了想要活下去的希望.

如果说萨拉热窝围城战中,市民们还能够尽自己的可能,在黑夜的城市寻找一丝希望.那么在梅杜斯,白天是死亡,黑夜依然是死亡.在三个政治势力之外,还有极端无政府派"瓦那亨".

"他们已经不是不相信政府,而是一群绝望的野兽."

如果三大政治势力还有些理智,还知道总要在未来成为大陆的主人,那么这些"瓦那亨"就是笃信末日狂欢的邪教徒.

杜广圆最幸福的时刻,是两人挖开了通往应急储备间的路.守备的工作人员已经开始巨人化了,两人却已经麻木了,在想法处理尸体之后,他们不仅有了活下去的希望,也有了活下去的物质.

随着政府军被迫撤入中央城区,团结联已经将梅杜斯团团包围.饥饿让"瓦那亨"们发狂,越来越多的聚居区传出尽数屠杀的消息.第一个人来了,然后是第二个,第三个.杜广圆担心的分配冲突,一种奇怪的集体主义精神在这个地下室里链接着每一个人."只要能让更多的人活下去."

已经忘记打退了多少次"瓦那亨"的袭击,对于靠近政府军街区的大使馆,"瓦那亨"只敢派出小队伍威胁,他们骨子里其实都是些欺软怕硬的家伙.可杜广圆也亲眼看见,一架人道救援飞机投下补给,然后被"瓦那亨"正大光明地抢走.又打死人了.

一个月的围城战,胜利者不是政府军,不是团结联,而是卢尔派.这时候,他们已经改组为赫特红军.

得救之后,那个姑娘就开始疏远他了,就好像前几日的肌肤之亲并不存在一样.杜广圆也没有挽留,在接受检查之后,跟着难民队伍开始往城外撤离.一枚导弹在人群中炸开,等回过头,那个姑娘已经倒在血泊之中.

曾经讥笑电视剧剧情狗血的杜广圆,却对戏剧化的现实只有坠入深渊的无力.她没有立刻死去,一枚钢片插断了她的脊椎,可能已经没有了痛觉,但能感觉到生命随着时间一点一滴地消失.

不知道她哪来的力气,拉住了自己的左手,放在她的心口.她的心跳慢慢平稳下来,似乎有一种幸福的安宁.她微笑着看向自己,说了一句话,他不知道是什么意思,后来在战友那里知道了:"你很重要对我,替我活下去请你."

就在那天下午,一个在南域留学的地球人,在志愿参军的营帐前,在这颗星球的另一个大陆成为了国际纵队的一员.

也就在那天下午,杜广圆第一次知道南域已经以志愿军的方式参战了.

在这颗星球的西南半球,以南域为核心的"奈洲文明"与另一个"阿纳洲文明"在物种权利上的分歧导致了全面的战争对抗.

"每一方都可以脱离对方的经济发展,这是一种现实的你死我活的斗争."

参战的第一天,他是个愤怒的复仇者.为了自己那些可爱的朋友和那转瞬即逝却刻骨铭心的爱情.

参战的第一周,他是个复仇者.

参战的第一个月,他是个迷茫的复仇者.

这不是我的战争!

赫特人似乎是由二极管组成的.在生理上,不仅相对于地球智人,哪怕是相对于掌控计划生育的奈洲智人,赫特人作为人类生物的发育优势已经是天顶星级的.这就意味着处于集体狂热的他们并不在乎个体的死亡,甚至不需要在乎.对于任何智人物种而言,一个生命的死亡就是一个种群的巨大损失,在任何不珍视生命的年代过后,智人总会感到后怕.但赫特人不会,对于思想上的对手,思想上的消灭是不彻底的,物理上的消灭才是完全的.

赫特人不喜欢这个和他们步调不一致的外乡人,在执行处决政敌的行动中,杜广圆总是显露出厌恶情绪,最后,终于在参战第二个月因为违反军事命令,杜广圆被送到了军事法庭.

作为国际纵队的一员,他却没有任何归属感,既不属于赫特侨民军,也不属于国际社战士,就像是孤魂野鬼,没人在乎他的死活.

就在他二十四岁生日那天,赫特军事法庭宣判他犯有叛国罪.一个和自己没有任何血缘,政治,社会关系的政治实体宣判自己犯有叛国罪,这在逻辑上真实可笑,但却在现实层面难以反驳.

他第一次跟死亡擦肩而过.