What Do You Do

What do you do when you're jealous of the ones you love because they're happy because they have something you wish you did because they have friends who likes them as they are because they have a relationship a person who likes them and your jealous of their happiness because that's all you've ever wanted what do you do when the one place you can escape your reality becomes your living hell it's torture when your dreaming it's torture when you're awake so what do you do what do you do when you have a dream so vivid and so real you wish you could live in it because in that dream you finally felt happy finally had friends a boyfriend who love you and then you wake up to find out it was just a dream a dream that you wish was real that was reality because you were finally happy what do you do?