When Do I Get To Be Happy

When do I get to be happy that's the question I want the answer to so bad it's hard to suffer and watch everyone else be happy I'm happy for my sister because she has friends because she has a life because she has someone who likes her and she likes that person back I'm happy for her but I want to know when do I get to be happy when will I get to have friends who accept me for who I am who understands me when do I get to have someone who likes me when do I get to feel happy when do I get to have a life I just want to know when do I get to be happy