Why Do I Want To Be Reckless

Why do I want to be reckless why does the memories of you make me want to drink till I can't feel a thing why do I feel like I want to go to town and go to a club and get fucked up I know I'll just regret it and that's not me I don't do these things and I won't do these things but dealing with the heartbreak has made me feel this way I deleted your pictures I deleted your number but I can't delete the memories of you and every time I think of you I don't know why why do I want to be reckless