The way to keep her

Chapter twenty-three

Ryker

What the fuck am I doing?

This is unlike me.

I have totally lost my mind.

Begging her to stay with me; is literally what I did. It took a lot for me to get on my knees and beg. I want her with me at all times. I don't want her to go back to her life. I don't want her to leave my territory because this is the only way I can keep her safe. Leighty already knows that I have messed things up before it has even happened. On the day of her death, I will not take her, I will save her. That is my plan.

The plan is already set.

I will fight to protect her. I will give everything up, just so I can be with her every day.

She is special.

She is the one I want and suddenly I am so obsessed with her that I will not even let her go.

"Master, what is happening. Why is she still here?'' Alumus asks me. he is confused. My behavior has been confusing for him, and that is why I have not punished him for questioning me.

Alumus might be my servant but he also deserves to be carried along. He is my right-hand man, not just someone that serves me. I open the door to my cave and he follows behind me.

"Things have changed."

He furrows his brow "With her?'' he asks.

I nod.

'She is set to die, we cant change that.''

"I am going to change it,'' I tell him honestly. I will not let her die. I will protect her and keep her by my side. That is the new plan. Leighty and the others will not stop me. No one will stop me.

"You know you cant.''

I don't know that. I just have never tried to change anything. I have been obedient. I have tried to live by their rules, even though I was never meant to follow orders. I have tried to be what they want me to be and now, I want to be hers.

I want her to claim me as I have claimed her.

I want her to want to stay with me.

I don't want to share her with anyone else.

"It will cause a ripple effect. It will still happen no matter what you do. there is no cheating death.''

"I will save her.''

He sighs "How master?''

I see the gentility in his eyes. He wants to know what I plan. I don't even know how I am going to make this better but I know that I have to. I will not take her. I am the one that is meant to send her away and I will not do that.

I will not.

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A couple of hours later, I go back to the room and she is still lying on the bed, in my shirt. I know she is awake, I can feel her. I have become so accustomed to her, that I know when she is asleep or when she is awake.

Her breathing is heavier.

She is still but I feel her more than she will ever know.

I walk over to the bed slowly and climb the mattress with a soft thud "I am sorry,'' I manage because I want this night to end with her smiling. I don't want her to leave me tomorrow upset.

I want her to want to stay here on her own.

I want her to come to me on her own.

This thing cannot be forced. That is the only way this will work out. I have to have her on my side. She has to trust me and now, she doesn't fully trust me.

"For what?'' she finally replies. Her voice is soft, it makes me just want to pull her back into the cocoon of my chest and keep her there.

"For walking away in the middle of a conversation.''

I left her.

I was upset.

"I have to go back home Ryker,'' she mouths out the words. I hate that she is pushing to leave me but I also know that it is too soon to expect too much from her.

She just met me, I told her that this was just sex. I didn't want anything serious with her and now I begging her to stay with me.

"I know.''

"This is not the end of us," she turns around and now I am facing her. Her eyes bore into mine, there is this intensity that hits me whenever I look into her orbit.

Mine.

"I want us to get to know each other. I want you to be mine,'' I blurt out.

Her eyes open wide.

The shock is evident in them.

I want her to agree to my demands but I can also see the fear in her eyes. I am too direct.

I am too much for her but I don't give a shit. I have less than three months to save her. I don't know the outcome of what I will do. I plan on saving her but I don't know how to.

"Okay,'' she manages, the shock still plastered on her face.

"Okay?''

She nods, a slow smile forming on her face "There is literally no one like you. I want to take things further with you. I want to get to know you. I want to eventually be yours too.''

The way she says eventually just tells me that she thinks I am being too forward and rushing things but I don't care.

If I am going to save her, I have to watch her every day. I might end up becoming a stalker. I will have to be around her all the time. I have to protect her.

Nothing else matters in my life. Collecting the souls suddenly feels like a job that I don't want anymore. I know the dark souls are the strength that I will need to fight the heavens for her.

I thought about what I could do to save her. There must be a way to keep her with me.

I cannot let her die.

"You can go home tomorrow."