Struggle to define dream from reality

Tanaania, if we stay here we're next!" I called her name and said we would be next if we stayed.

How do you know- How can you even think to say something like this?" She said, then she cut herself off and asked me. I got up and pulled my shoes to my feet, getting ready to put them on.

Remember when I told you I had that feeling like something bad was going to happen? And how I felt like something was coming for me and was nothing good? I asked her to remember when I once felt like something was going to happen and how I felt like something was coming for me. She was surprised when she looked at me.

Then we ran all the way home from the movies, the house was on fire and so was mom and dad!" She seems to remember it as I do it, she looked at me with suspicion and I nodded her in agreement.

Yes, and you said it was the same weird smelling gasoline?" I responded to her and asked her about the gasoline she had smelled then and now.

Yes, it was. But-

Do you think it's a coincidence that five years later in the same hospital as us, someone died and witnesses say the man was chased out from our room by a woman..?" I cut her off and said to her, then asked. She got up from the bed while I was going around grabbing our stuff to leave.

What is that supposed to mean?" I stopped and looked at her when she asked me, I know her to be quick but not stupid.

Naania thinks... Think Naania, that man or woman was probably at the wrong place at the wrong time. Last night i got that same feeling but i ignored it, Naania we have to go and we have to go now." I told her, before showing her the possibility of us being dead instead of that person.

But what about the doctors, they were suppose to-

Fuck the doctors, they can't stop us from dying if that person return to kill us." I said to her and explained that the doctors can't help us. Suddenly the feeling hits me again but this time it was kind of weird. I put our bags on the bed and bent down to tie my shoelace when the door opened.

I looked up to see the doctor from before and a woman who seemed like she was using his appearance to approach me. Because she was there hovering in his shadow. I heard shoes, a male shoe and a woman wouldn't be wearing a shoulder like that.

It's a gentleman's shoe and it was as if this person was walking that way on purpose, the sound was coming towards us. I looked between the doctors feet! And i felt nothing but fear, he stood at the as if he was staring inside and then she feeling disappear, i felt like a heavy weight was lifted off my shoulders.

I wanted to see who it was but when I stood up to see who it was, he was gone. And so was the female silhouette shadowing in the doctor's shadow. It's like I'm having a dream while I'm still presented in reality. Then a sound hit my ears like when a gun is fired up close to one's ears and my vision slowly went into darkness.

What is happening?" I asked myself. Then I heard Naania calling me, I opened my eyes and she asked.

Are you okay?"

Yes, what happened?"" I responded to her and asked her.

One minute you're saying we have to go, and the next minute you're fainting." She replied to my question telling me what happened to me. I sat up immediately.

Nothing else, happen?" I asked her.

No." She said to me and it made me suspicious.

What about the man who was burned to death in the hallway?" She laughed at me after I asked her the question.

What kind of crazy dreams are you having?" She smiled and asked me, it was as if nothing happened but this wasn't any dream. I looked around and it was just me and her in the room again, but I remember before my vision went out the doctor was at the door.

It's so confusing. What is going on, one minute it happens and the next minute I'm the only one remembering things which seem to have never happened. I remember clearly I was down on one knee trying to tie my shoe lace, suddenly I looked down at my shoe and both my shoelaces were tied.

It wasn't a fucking dream. I was seeing and feeling everything that was happening but why? Why am I? The only one who is remembering everything? Why? I was losing control of myself and my emotions i know for sure, i saw everything and i felt it too so why.

I Saw Everything, I Heard Everything, I Feel Everything, So Why? Why Are You Doing This To Me? Why? Just Why? And To Me?" I screamed out I couldn't, I just couldn't take it anymore. My tears came and I couldn't stop myself. I was just tired.

It's okay, everything is going to be okay. It was just a dream and they felt very real! I know, I often dream of my mom and I'm sad! When I woke up, I cried badly because it felt so real and they weren't there but to me they were and that killed me when I returned from dreaming. And they are not there anymore." She said comforting me but there is nothing anyone could possibly say that would make me feel or think otherwise. She told me that she would know because she often dreams about mom and dad and how bad it was when she wakes up and they're not there.

But even so all this could not possibly be a dream. I refused to believe that this dream of mine felt so real. Too real, dreams and nightmares tend to feel and look real but this was different. Dreams and nightmare or unclear and confusing at times but this was no dream it was too played out to be a dream or nightmare.

I looked up at her as my tears ran down my cheeks like it was rain, raining down on my face, i was about to open my month to say something when the door suddenly opened. It's him, the doctor from before he was there before I fainted but I was just so angry at everything.

Get out! Get out!!" I yelled at him, I don't why but I lost my cool so quickly. I was pointing him back through the door he came.

Get out! I hate you! Get out!!! It's all your fault! Get out!!!" I didn't know what came over me, but something wasn't right about everything that was happening. At some point he was there as if he was overseeing what was taking place.