Chapter 2

An ever-expanding dream spread above in the azure sky covered with fluffy white cottony clouds. I wonder whether anyone noticed the beautiful sky today and how the blue sky was both brilliant and gentle at the same time. I wonder whether they saw how calmly the clouds were sailing past as they continued to slowly move in the direction that the wind desired. I wonder if they let their gaze rest on their white tops or if they follow the endless greys that blend so well together that they nearly appear blue.

If they did, I sincerely hope that they experienced some of the quiet amazement that I experience, which is as warm as the sun's beams. If so, I hope they experienced a thrill in their fingertips as well as enhanced perceptions, including the intoxicating scent of blossoms, the gentle sway of leaves, and the way light reflects off of both foliage and feathers. Because nature provides me a peaceful thrill when I tune in to these varied and subtle joys, these everyday beauties... And at that very moment, I am the happiest queen there will ever be.

Or so I say…

My name is Alexandra Kate Harrington. I am the only daughter of the Duke of Danbridge, Duke Edward Harrington. My father told me that I was born to be a Queen. So, ever since I was young, I was already destined to marry the crown prince of the Kingdom of Farrell. From then on, I focused on becoming a better wife and queen in the future which is why I do not do anything unless it is concerned with the prince. I have invested my time and my heart toward the man.

That is why now that I am currently 20 years of age, I am now marrying the crown prince or the future king of Farrell Kingdom, King Maximillian Heath Belmont.

It was supposed to be the happiest day of my life.

A wedding that was so grand that every important person attended even if they came from different kingdoms. By means of important persons, I mean the Queens and Kings of the three kingdoms are present to witness my wedding today.

This is the wedding that I imagined it to be, a wedding dress that I have desired, a perfect flower that I have chosen, and of course, my prince that I have loved since I first laid my eyes on him. Everything was perfect and have gone well. Even the ceremony had gone so fast to the point that I was unable to get a grip that it was already time to kiss my love. We have already exchanged our vows and our wedding rings. The only thing to do now is to kiss him which is why I am completely melting right now.

My heart started to pound as I saw his hand start to lift my veil but right then, I froze when I finally saw his face in front of me. He… looked disgusted looking at my face and I can't help but feel scared.

"Don't worry… you won't stay alive in this marriage for long." He whispered grinning like a devil which made me flinch.

I was then brought back to reality when he kissed a peck on my lips. After that, he moved away and looked at the guest who was now clapping at us. I did the same too but as I looked at them, that is when I realized that I couldn't hear any sound of their clapping hands, even their voices that seemed to be shouting… I couldn't hear anything at all.

All I could hear was a ringing sound that seemed to keep getting louder and louder.

I was suffocating… to the point that my visions started to blur.

"H-Help," I said struggling but they couldn't hear me, maybe due to my voice and also because of the shouting and clapping people inside the venue.

Long until I completely lost it and my visions turned black. I felt like I fell because I sensed my entire body bumping onto the floor, except for my head which seemed like someone had caught it. After that, I don't know what happened. All I knew is that everything started to mess up on this wedding day.

It was already dark when I opened my eyes.

"Evening came quiet too soon," I whispered when my eyes were fixed on the window of the room. I diverted my gaze toward myself and noticed that I was already not wearing my wedding dress. I was only wearing now a red thin satin dress that looked like the ones that I have seen in a dressing shop a long time ago when I was looking for dresses. The shopkeeper recommended me some because they have heard about the news of my marriage but I decided not to purchase them since I never dressed like that before. Besides, I still do not know if Maximillian will like it if he sees me in that kind of dress but now that I am currently wearing a similar dress like that, it seems like he liked it.

I decided to sit up and look around me. It was not my room anymore. The exterior was so extravagant which left me in awe. It was so spacious compared to mine and I can't help but admire it completely. It must be the King's room but where is he?

Yet, I suddenly felt shivers down my spine as I started to recall what just happened at my own wedding. He… warned me that I won't last long in this marriage.

Did he already sense that I have no powers?

Or is he planning to kill me?

I have to tell my father about this tomorrow because only my father knows about my abilities. No one else.

However, where is Maximillian when it is already so late at night?

It is the night of our wedding.

I stood up from the bed and picked up the robe at the edge of the bed. I wore it and went to the door to open it. It was already dark outside and no one was guarding the room. There were no signs of a maid so, I don't know where will I find him.

Though, not far from the room where I went out. I saw a door slightly closed which is why a light was coming out from the room. I decided to slowly head towards it and hope that he was there.

I wasn't wrong.

He was there but… he was with another woman.

The woman whom he has brought from a place which I do not know where. All I know is that he was taking care of her and because I am the crown princess and the future queen who will be marrying him. I didn't give much thought that this lady might be his lover. I accepted her and treated her as a friend but I didn't expect that she would be a lying bitch.

Maybe because of shock, I just stood there and quietly watched them fuck one another. I could clearly see them hungry for one another but I didn't leave nor stormed inside to stop them. I decided not to because this… might be time for me to finally wake up from my silly dream that Maximillian… never loved me and was just forced to marry me because of my father.

However, I was brought back to my senses when tears started to roll down my face. I wiped it off immediately and once again looked at the two. Yet, I froze when I saw that girl already looking at me while riding above my husband who seems to be so out of it because of pleasure. The woman grinned at me as I heard Maximillian moan loudly.

It was deafening so, in the end, I decided to finally walk away and let them be.

Alexandra… what was it that you wanted before?

Maximillian?

No… it doesn't look like he would be willing to be yours.

Then, what is it that you truly want?

Ahhh… yes.

I only wanted to be loved… but why is it such a hard thing for them to do?

I found myself inside the room once again. I saw a terrace in this room which is why I walked there. The cold breeze greeted me when I got outside. I fixed my robe to help me feel warm from the cold. Yet, it didn't do any justice so I decided to just head inside after a minute of mesmerizing the starry sky.

The darkness of the night was a distinct sort, the kind that only seeks to hold the stars and make them shine even brighter. In its protection, I could sense my own soul, that innocent inborn flame, more vividly. It was such a comforting darkness that gripped you no matter what.

So, Alexandra... from now on.

What is it that you want?

The truth is... I still have no idea for I have lived for Maximillian for all these years.