Embracing Destiny

I am a murderer. I killed them. They died because of me. If only I left it alone. If only I didn't let the rage cloud my judgment. No. Sooner or later, one way or another, it would've gone through a portal and destroyed my village, killed my family. But still, the fact that I was the one who set things in motion filled me with immeasurable guilt. Once again, I was able to relive the tragedy through its eyes. The difference was I was seeing it from the perspective of the "villain". There are always two sides to the story, the saying made me laugh in contempt. Through its eyes and its consciousness, I saw how the soldiers killed its children. I felt its grief. I felt its panic. The spider went hysterical and destroyed, and killed, everything and everyone in its way. I felt its pain when spears and arrows pierced its body. I felt its pain when cannons were fired at its face. After hours of trying hard to survive, the beast was killed. I did not know whether to be happy or sad about it. My heart was torn.

I spent the following days back in the swamp, wishing the ground would swallow me whole. Despite knowing its futile, I tried killing myself again. The days went by and the realization that I was no longer Erika the soldier but the Queen of Thorns, the monster, hit like a storm in summer. Why me? I kept repeating the question in my head, until I remembered why I was stuck there in the first place. I tried to be the hero. Maybe my curiosity got the best of me. I was probably just too obsessed with the truth. But Dan and Mike must be safe back home, that's what matters. Darn it! Portals are unstable, what if they've been sent to some unknown land and time? It was so frustrating! My emotions were all over the place and I was losing control of the queen's immense power. I "saw" portals opening up and monere, my beasts, wander through them. I watched as humans killed them for games mercilessly. I watched the humans torture the confused and scared little beasts, and kill them for fun. They had evil, menacing smiles plastered on their faces. It made me furious. I watched the scenario happen repeatedly to multiple innocent monsters, and a part of my heart died each time until I was left with nothing but a broken heart wrapped in cold sharp thorns. Right then, I knew I had to make a choice. I knew I had to pick a side, and the answer was obviously right in front of my eyes. I can never go back to who I was. They will never accept me. They will only see me as the monster I've become. Humans aren't completely innocent either. They've killed thousands of beasts over time without even trying to communicate with them. Humans are monsters in a way.

There must be a reason why I was the only one in the family to survive the tragedy. There must be a reason why I became a soldier, and was sent to the path of truth. There must be a reason why Ivana gave me her powers instead of killing me. I see it now. Everything happens for a reason. It's my destiny. It's time to finally unite the demon world. More importantly, it's time to see which monsters shall rise to the top. It's time for war.