Toxicity of power.

I came to ask for your permission because I want to leave the states for my homeland and I don't know when I will be coming back.Sebastian said to the Supreme commander who was sitting down in his office and face down ad usual.He hardly looks up no matter who enters or what the person is saying.They usually call him the busy man because he hardly has time for play or anything that doesn't concern his area of work.He hardly smiles and he doesn't look anyone in the face.He isn't afraid of anyone and he is the very strict type.He lost his whole family over a home accident.

He left his home for Russia one time only to be called to give him the news that his wife and children were burnt and they were all dead.The house in which they live in caught fire at night and killed his family and no one ever found out where the fire emanated from.Before the incident,he was very cheerful and he likes to play alot even though he still payed so much attention to his work. He had time for his children and even extended it to the friends of his children and everyone loved how cheerful he was.But the death of his family changed everything and he went from being cheerful to being cold and reserved.Some people would say he turned from being an extroverted individual to an introverted one.It affected him a whole lot but still it didn't stop him from doing his work.

He was so devoted to his work that he resumed office the next day after the burial of his family.He said he wouldn't like to stay idle and wallow in sadness over something that couldn't be changed.He was really a strong being and it seemed nothing could penetrate him as to make him weak.

Why do you want to leave?Young man,he said still busy doing what he was doing.

I have some personal issues I would like to go and settle over there at my place and I'd really appreciate it if you give me the time and space.

How personal is it?Because before I give you what you are requesting for,I have to make sure that your reason for leaving Is worthwhile.Apart from that I wouldn't grant you any permission and if you decide to leave on your own.Then it simply means you are no longer part of this Institution and I don't have a problem with that .

So young man speak up and do that real quick because as you can see I'm very occupied and I don't like to waste time.

A long silence developed in the air and I was there wondering whether I should tell him what happened or not.It was really hard for me to open up to anyone concerning things about me or my family.Even though its death,it doesn't change anything.Out of everyone in the military,only Damian knew about it and that was because he was the closest person to me and he noticed my behaviour.

If you are not ready to speak up,kindly get up and leave my office young man ,don't be stupid.

I'm sorry sir,I didn't mean to upset you.The issue at hand is that I lost my family sir.

On hearing that he raised up his face immediately and gazed at me for a while and it actually made me uncomfortable .Did I just hear you say you lost your family?Like your whole family?

Yes sir,that's why I want to leave as soon as possible sir.

But what happened to them ?if I may ask,what brought about that tragedy.

Sir I learnt that they were murdered by a very powerful man in my homeland.

What did they do?Give me the full details If you would.

I don't really know why he killed them but I know he was friends with my father when he was alive sir.I am guessing they had problems and they resorted to violence,the man decided to kill him and kill his whole family but since I'm not there,I wasn't killed.But it would have been better for me if I got killed with them,at least I wouldn't be feeling this kind of pain right now sir.

Its really a pity and I'm sorry for what happened to you,even though nobody knows how you feel.I perfectly know how you are feeling now.But if I may ask,why do you want to abandon everything you've built here and leave just like that? What's your main purpose of leaving and what are your plans about burying them,who even gave you that information ?Are you sure of everything that you are telling me?

I'm very sure of everything I'm saying sir and I received the information from a woman I trust very much and she doesn't have any reason to tell me such a cruel lie.

From a woman indeed,and you trust everything she told you,did you ask anyone else or you just want to act based on what a woman told you.

With all due respect sir,I ask that you respect my feelings and give me what I'm requesting for sir.If not I will be forced to take a drastic decision.

You got some nerve young man,I'd advise you be careful how you talk to me unless you really don't love yourself.

If not for what you are going through at this period I would have taken some measures that you won't like at all.

Now get up and leave my office till you learn your manners then you can come back if at all you still want to do this.

And listen to me,he added as I stood up to leave,its better you go and make more enquires and find out if everything you've just said is really true.Only a fool believes the words of a woman,he added and I left immediately before my anger gets worse .

I was feeling so bad and I wanted to just rip his shirt off and give him the beating of his life but I didn't do any of that.I chose to respect myself and respect him too.People can be so insensitive.