CAN & CAN'T

(SEOKJIN POV)

I met Namjoon in front of my room building. I hugged him, still worried for Hoseok, he didn't come back to the room yestrday night and Jungkook's strange behaviour didn't help me neither.

"Don't worry, baby. Taehyung called me as soon as he woke up, he spent the night in his and Jimin's room." Namjoon said, breaking the hug.

"Really? Why he didn't he say anything? I thought something had happened to him." Namjoon shrugged.

"He's a big boy, he knows how to take care of himself. In fact, he's older than me." He has a smirked on his face.

"And I'm older than you and you still treat me like a baby." I crossed my arms with a pout. He whined and cup my face.

"But that's different. You're my baby boy, I've to take care of you and protect you." I frowned, but I struggled trying not to smile.

"But I can also take care of myself, I'm the oldest. Besides, I've been preparing myself since I was a kid. When you were just a baby, I could already throw water with my hands." He needs to understand that I can take care of myself. He looks like a father sometimes.

"But you were only two years old." He said, stunned.

"See? That's what I'm talking about." I pulled away, starting to walk. "We'll be late."

He back hugged me. "But let me at least get worried and protect you if something happens, okay?" He kissed my cheek. I smiled to the feeling.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you more."

I was walking to the cafeteria when a man stood in my way. "Hello, my prince." He knelt down. He's my father messenger.

"You can get up, Antonio." I giggled.

"Yes, my prince. That's for you." He handed me a letter.

"Mmm, from whom?" I asked, looking at the envelope.

"A friend of yours, my prince." He said.

"Okay, thank you for your hard work, you can go now." I smiled. He knows me since I was a baby, he's part of the family.

When he left I opened it, intrigued. 'Meet me in three days, near the river, after sunset. Go alone, Jin Seok.' I chuckled. I know the handwriting and I know the only person who calls me 'Jin Seok'. His name is Lee Han Soo, he's my childhood best friend. I read again the message, he's still weird as always

When I arrived to the cafeteria, I was about to ask a lot of questions to Hoseok, but the weird scenario I saw when I met them and the obvious tension made me think about it twice. Did I miss something?

"How is your day going?" I asked, trying to break the ice. Now I'm sure something happened.

"Really good. My professor said that I'm the best in my class." Namjoon seems proud, but it's not a surprise, everyone is always congratulating him for something. "What do you think about that, Yoongi?" Namjoon asked, he probably noticed the strange behaviour of the others.

"Uh? Oh, good. Congratulations." He said, his eye nailed to his food. Why everyone looks off?

"Jiminie, don't have you anything to say?" Namjoon asked. When Jimin heard his name he almost fall of his seat. I frowned. What's wrong with him?

"No, I didn't do anything I promise." He panicked. Namjoon chuckled.

"Nobody accused you of anything, calm down." Namjoon said, sweetly. "I just wanted you to say 'Contratulations Joonie' as you always do."

"Something happened, Jimin?" I asked, leaning my body forward.

"No, no. Nothing, nothing. Why do you ask? Jungkook told you something? He's lying, I promise." He shook his hands, denying everything.

I frowned. We all frowned, looking at Jimin and Jungkook.

"What happened, Jiminie?" Taehyung asked, calmly. He grabbed his boyfriend's hands.

"Nothing, nothing happened!" He almost yelled. "Right Kookie?" He said, reluctantly.

Jungkook was blinking fast, also with a frown. He managed to shake his head.

"See. I did nothing and anything happened!" He stood up and left. Okay, what the heck is going on with everyone?

"Hobi, why didn't you go to sleep in our room yesterday? I was worried something has happened to you." I caressed his back. It wasn't something Hoseok would do, or at least he would tell us.

He gave a small smile. "I- I lost my appetite, excuse me hyung." He got up, walking towards the bathrooms.

"Yoon-" Namjoon started.

"I'm off." Yoongi said, before leaving as well.

I sighted, resting my head on my hands.

"If it makes you feel better, I'm okay. I'm just worried for Hoseok." Jungkook, Namjoon and I put all our attention to him.

"What happened to Hoseok hyung?" Jungkook asked, his eyes wide open.

"I can't tell you, I'm sorry. I should go talk to Jimy, I'll see you later." He half smiled before leaving. All this situation is giving me a headache.

(TAEHYUNG)

My smile fell when I was out of sight from the boys. I couldn't say good night to Jimin yesterday, I couldn't get my good night kiss, neither could he and I couldn't cuddle him all night. I couldn't pretend to be sleeping this morning so he would wake me up with kisses. He didn't talk much this morning and I'm sure it isn't for Hoseok. Maybe I did something wrong, maybe he's mad at me.

I was walking through the gardens when I spotted him under a tree. As I got close I could see he was with his eyes closed, breathing in and out, peacefully. Maybe I shouldn't interrupt him, but I need to talk to him so bad. I miss him.

I approached him, quietly. "Can I join you?" At the sound of my voice, he opened his eyes, slowly. "Mhm, of course you can. Come here, baby." He opened his arms. I sat between his legs, enjoying his back hug.

"I missed you." I pout, turning my head to face him.

"You miss me?" I nodded. "So much?" I nodded again. "Really? Can you show me how much you missed me?" I smiled before turning myself around, my legs hugging his waist. I was going to give him a bear hug, but his lips distracted me. I'm not afraid of PDA, so I kissed him instead. I think he wasn't expecting that because it took him a few seconds to follow the kiss, but I know it's what he wants. I bit his lower lip, asking for permission. We didn't fight for dominance, it was more a slow make out session, my favourites. We're just exploring each other as we always do, enjoying the warm feeling of our mouths. But it didn't last long because he suddenly pulled away. I looked at him, his eyes were screaming something I couldn't hear.

"Are you okay, baby? What's wrong?"

"Oh, nothing, nothing." He said, placing me next to him. "I've to go to the bathroom, don't wait for me." He said, running away. Running away from me. He still loves me, right? I pout.

(YOONGI POV)

He didn't sleep in his room? Where the heck he went? Ugh, why I care for you so much Jung Hoseok? Oh, I know. Because you're my fucking best friend and I ruined everything.

"Can you please stop walking? You'll make a hole if you continue." Charles said. I was so immersed in my thoughts that I didn't notice my walks.

"I'm sorry, I'm just nervous." I bit my nails.

"Come here, we can cuddle." Cuddle? What he thinks we are? Boyfriends? I chuckled.

"I appreciate you, but I've something to do." I said, putting on my shoes before going to look for a certain brown.

I found him in a little shop from our school. He always comes to see clothes when he's stressed or sad, also when he's a happy flower. What can I say to him? 'Hi Hobi, sorry, what I said yesterday were all lies, can you please forgive me?' Ew, no, that's pathetic. Ugh, I'm not good with words, maybe I can write him a letter? Buy him something? No, the letter is better.

When I raised my head, he was gone. I ran towards the school, where I supposed he was. As always, I was right. He was sitting in the fountain, his head lowered.

I approached him, cautiously. It's time to speak and fix things, Yoongi.

"Hi, Hoseok." Ugh, no, you should have said 'Hobi'. Or it would have been too friendly? But, we're still friends, right?

"Good bye, Yoongi." He stand up, before walking away. I ran to him, grabbing his shoulder. "I want to talk to you, please."

"Funny, I don't." He said, shaking his shoulder, getting rid of my grip.

I ran, again, standing in front of him. "Please, I want to fix things. Don't you want us to be cool around each other anymore?" He looked at me, his eyes weren't showing any emotions at all. Well, yeah, deception.

"Out of all people, I thought you would be the last person in the world to do that to me, but, oh fuck, you did." He kept walking and I grabbed his wrist.

"Please, I want to fix what I said. How can I make it up to you?" I pleaded.

"You can't." He was going to turn away, but I grabbed his wrist harder, but trying not to hurt him. That's the last thing I need now.

"Please, I know I can. Please stop being stubborn."

He looked at the ground before looking at me, I felt his eyes staring at my soul. "Sometimes things can't be fixed, Yoongi. Sometimes you just have to learn to live with it." What? What he's talking about? He's talking about our friendship? But our little fight can be fixed, we fought before. What's the difference now? I felt my grip getting weaker, until it was gone.

"You can't do that to me, please Hobi. It was just a fight. We fought before. What's the difference now, huh? Tell me." My vision was getting blurry.

"The difference is," he made a pause, his face didn't change at all, "That for me is not a simple fight. You would never understand."

"Then explain it to me, please." My first tear fell. "You're my best friend, I can't do it without you, you know that."

He sighed. "You went too far with your words, now if you excuse me." He tried to walk away, put I stand again in front of him.

"Then what? What happens to our friendship? It's gone? And the boys? We're in the same group, you can't avoid me forever. Why don't you want to forgive me?"

"I want, but I can't." What's that supposed to mean?

"And I can't without you, you know I can't. When can you forgive me? Days, weeks?" He looked away. "Months? I can't be months without you, I would be sad and I would do things both of us don't want me to do-"

"For the same reason you think you can't do it without me, I can't forgive you." He walked away. This time I didn't stop him. I cried, leaning my face to my hands.

Come back Hobi. Please, come back.

(JIMIN)

I'm tired as hell. I went to eat dinner with some other friends in a restaurant, to clear up my mind. After closing the door, I throw my shoes somewhere in the entrance.

The lights of the small living room were closed. I checked the light of our room, also closed. Taehyung's probably asleep already.

I passed my hands through my hair when I remembered what happened before. I really never came back. Lucky me, I told him he didn't have to wait for me.

I went straight to the bathroom. Once I had my pyjamas on, my teeth and face cleaned I lay next to Taehyung. I hugged him, my chest near his bare back. I breathed peacefully a few times before I noticed his back trembling a little. He's probably cold. I hugged him tightly, but after a few seconds I heard him whine, quietly.

I opened the lamp next to me. I looked at Taehyung's face closely, he's crying.

"Oh god, baby what's wrong? Why are you crying?" He didn't say anything. He covered his face with his hands instead. "No, no, please don't cry." I helped him sit straight on the bad, I sat in front of him. "What happened? Baby talk to me." He was still covering his face.

"You 'ont luv me any mo'" He cried. Eing?

"Taehyungie I can't understand you. Please look at me." He did so. I took away his tears with my sleeves. "Why are you crying?" He sobbed.

"You don't love me anymore." He cried again, more tears streaming down his face. What? Why he thinks that? Wait, did Jungkook tell him what happened yesterday?

"Did you talk with Jungkook?" I asked. My hands started sweating.

"Of course I talked to him, he's also my friend. We talk everyday." I sighed in relief. "Why do you think I don't love you, baby?"

"You're acting weird, avoiding me, running away from me. Why don't you want to be with me?" He cried. "I- I did something wrong? Please don't leave me Jimine." Seeing him like that broke my heart. He didn't do nothing wrong, it's all my fault.

I cup his cheeks. "Baby, baby listen to me. I love you." I said, slowly. "I love you more than anything else in this world. Do you understand it?" He nodded.

"But why are you acting strange? You know you can talk to me as well. What's wrong Jiminnie?" He was still crying.

I took a deep breath. "Actually, I've to tell you something." I grabbed his hands. "Something happened yesterday, but it was an accident, I swear."

"I believe you. Besides, your hands are cold, I know you would never lie to me. What happened yesterday?" Taehyung squeezed my hands.

"You see, when I was leaving Jungkook said he would give me the jacket, but I said that it was okay, I could grab it myself. Somehow we ended up on the floor, me on top of him and because of that our lips met. But it was only for a few seconds, less than five! Maybe it was only 2 seconds, or less than-" Eing? Taehyung was giggling. He stopped when he noticed I stopped talking,

"Oh, sorry, I found it funny. Sometimes you're so unlucky Jimminie." He caressed my head. "That's why you were acting strange?" I nodded.

"I thought you would get mad and break up with him." I lowered my head, the feeling was coming back, even thought Taehyung was okay with it.

"I would never brake up with you with for anything like that. Do you know how many accidents I had with Hobi?" I giggled, before realising what he actually said.

"What? What's that suppose to mean Kim Taehyung?" I couldn't hide my smile. He laughed.

"I didn't say anything because are accidents, besides some friends give each other peaks. I see girls doing it."

"Yeah, but a lot of times they are straight." I laughed. "Even if they aren't, it's just platonic. Wait a minute, do you give Hobi platonic peaks?" I gasp, but I laughed at the end. He shook his head.

"All accidents." He nodded. I couldn't help but smile. I caressed his cheeks with my thumbs, my precious baby was so cute. "Do you know, there's a song that says 'For as long as I live, and as long as I love, I will never not think about you.' And that's what I feel for you. You're always in my head, 24/7." He smiled.

"Really? And do you know there's a song that says 'I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more'. And that's what I want to do. I want to love you and be with you for thousand and thousand of years. Do you think our love will last that long?"

"I don't know it, but, right now, right here, I want to be with you all my life. Forever."

"I also want to be with you forever, Jiminnie." My eyes were watering, but with happiness.

I sat on his lap, I hugged him, tightly, tightly tightly. I love him and I love us. Forever.