WHAT IF

(SEOOKJIN POV)

Namjoon picks me up at nine o'clock as he promised. We walk peacefully to the theatre, hand in hand.

"Where do you want to eat dinner?" He asks, looking to the sides.

"Do you want to eat dinner now?" I ask, incredulous. "Joonie, my angel, we won't make it in time for the movie. Can you just eat popcorn or something? They also have sweets."

Joon chuckles. "You're unbelievable. Yeah, I can eat popcorn, but with one condition." I hum, so he keeps talking. "You'll have to give me a massage, my back is killing me." He sighs, dramatically.

"See? That's what happens when you over study."

"Yeah. Of course." He says, scratching his neck before taking my hand again.

"Everything alright?" He does look tired.

"Never been better." He kisses my forehead. I've more questions, but I decide to let it go, for now.

When we arrive, we order 3 bowls of popcorn and two sodas.

"The best dinner ever." Namjoon complains, when we are already in our seats.

"Shut up, the movie can start in any second." Indeed, it does. After my words the lights of the room get off and the screen lights up.

* * * * *

On our way back to school, I can't stop talking about the movie and asking Joon if he loves me more than the boy at the protagonist, which he answers with an "I love you so much more."

"For real? So much more?" I say. I stop walking to put my arms around his neck.

"Do you think that man would die for the protagonist? 'Cause I don't think so."

"Joonie you're the best." I say, looking at his eyes.

"I know." He shrugs.

"No, dumb. I mean it. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. I think my mother sent you to take care of me."

"Maybe, I'm an angel, after all."

Please, he's so dumb sometimes.

I lean in and kiss him. His lips connect perfectly with mine. We're in synchrony, our tongues dancing at the same rhythm. We make out for a few minutes. My hands in his hair and his arms in my waist, pulling me closer if it's possible.

But he slowly stops.

"Joonie?" I try to make eye contact, but he's looking something over my shoulders.

"Um. . . I- Just- Look."

I turn around.

I spot a couple kissing on a bench, under a school tree.

I'm about to laugh, when I start to recognize the dark figures.

What the heck?

"Are they-"

"Yes."

"Why-"

"I don't know." Namjoon sighs.

It doesn't look real.

Jimin and Jungkook kissing?

Impossible.

(JIMIN POV)

3 HOURS BEFORE

I go with Taehyung to the dorm, he doesn't like what he saw. He's sensitive to everything, even more if what happens involve his friends.

"Is Hoseokie hyung mad with Yoongi? Are they not friends anymore?"

I shake my head, but Hoseok looked mad. "They'll solve their problems, don't worry, baby."

"Why is Yoongi and Charles aren't a couple? If they like each other."

"People that like each other don't always date."

"Did you ever like someone but don't date them?"

I think about it for a moment. Have I ever liked someone but don't date them?

"No, because I only like one person. You."

"But I'm already your boyfriend."

I smile, shaking my head.

"Ahhhh." He giggles.

"I'll go check on Hoseok, wanna come?"

He shakes his head. "I want to take a shower."

I kiss his forehead. "I'll come back soon."

He nods, smiling.

I leave when Taehyung enters to the shower. I go to the gardens, even the hospital, but I don't find him. I spot Jungkook siting alone in their common room. I thought Hoseok could be here.

I sit beside him. "Kook, did you talk with Hoseok?"

"Oh, hi Jimin." He lows his head back again. "I tried. He wanted to be alone."

"Do you know where he is now?"

He shakes his head.

"Hey, cheer up! It's normal, friends fight sometimes."

He looks at me and smiles. "Where's Taehyung?"

"Taking a shower, he wanted to relax."

Jungkook nods. "Understandable."

"Do you want to take a shower, too? You can shower together."

He laughs at my bad joke. "I don't think it would be appropriate."

"Why?"

"Well. . . He's your boyfriend."

"I know."

"And. . .?"

Last year I would kill anyone who would try to steal Taehyung from me, but now I wouldn't mind sharing him. If he loved someone else, why couldn't he be with the two of us? I know he loves me a lot.

I chuckle. "Sorry. Bad jokes day."

He smiles awkwardly.

"Jungkook, can I ask you a question?"

"Tell me."

"What do you think about poly relationships?"

"What's that?"

Oh. I was expecting him to know.

"A couple of 3 or more people. They're all in love with each other."

"You can be in love with more than one person?" He asks. His eyes bigger than usual.

"Yeah, our hearts can love a lot of people. All the people in the world if you want."

"Really?"

I giggle, his chin will soon touch the floor.

"Maybe."

"Jimin, are you in love with someone else?"

I rise my eyebrows. "No. My heart only belongs to Taehyung. Why do you ask?"

"Why do you ask?" He says back.

True. I'm the one who chose this topic.

"I'm just curious. I wonder how it feels to like two people at the same time. Even more, being in love with them. It sounds really cool."

"It looks cool."

After that, we stay in silence.

Would I be able to date two people? Or more? Can I be with Taehyung and with someone else at the same time?

No. I can't.

I know Taehyung won't like it. He would probably break up with me if he knew I like someone else. I don't want to be the reason of his sadness. But at the same time, Taehyungie is a ball of love. Could he be in love with someone else? Would he be in love with someone else?

I run a hand through my hair. Would I care if tomorrow he says he loves me, but he loves another man at the same time?

I don't think so. At least right now.

It's hard to imagine my TaeTae in love with someone else, though.

(JUNGKOOK POV)

I eat dinner with a classmate before going back to my dorm.

Hoseok hyung and Yoongi hyung are cuddling on the sofa, watching a documentary. They made up, I don't want to interrupt their moment. Even if I wanted to stay, I can't fall sleep easily these days. I still have nightmares of the tower. I wonder what if we never came back. What if we didn't find Jin hyung. What if.

I hate my brain.

I close the door of the dorm as silent as possible. A minute later, the door of the school closes behind me.

I walk. The sky is dark and the stars shining. A few lights illuminating the path make me company. I don't like to walk alone.

"Kook." I turn around.

"Jimin, what are you doing here?"

"I like night walks."

"But it's cold."

"Same here."

I giggle.

Jimin starts walking and I follow him.

"So tell me, what are you doing here?"

"Hosoek and Yoongi made up and I didn't want to bother them."

"You could just lock yourself in your room."

"I like night walks." I lie.

"I thought you were scared."

"I'm growing up."

He chuckles. "Yes, you're Jungkookie. Some day you'll be as old as me."

"But you are only two years older than me."

"Two years are two years, don't make me feel younger."

I laugh. Jimin's obsession with age is another level.

"Okay Jiminshie, I won't."

"Don't make fun of me, I'm older." He laughs.

His laugh is contagious. We keep laughing and talking until we sit up in a bench. I like making fun of him. He's hilarious when he's pretending to be mad.

"Jimin, do you remember what we talked today?"

He tries to remember for a few seconds. When he does, his face relaxes. "Poly relationships?"

I nod.

"Do you think I can like two people at the same time? Is it normal?"

"Of course it is, you don't have to be ashamed of it."

"Good. Because I think I may like two people. So that means, I don't have to give up on them?"

He shakes his head. "It depends. Tell me, who do you like?"

"I can't tell you, but he has a boyfriend already."

I low my head, I feel so embarrassed right now.

"Do you know if he is open to a relationship like that? What kind of relationship are they in?"

I play with my fingers. "Well. . . It's complicated. I think the boy I like will agree, but I don't think he likes me back. And his boyfriend. . ."

"Are you worried because they may be a two only people couple? Are you scared of breaking what they have?"

"He wouldn't date me, anyway. But if in some case. . . Maybe. . . Kinda. I like the two of them. What do I do?"

Jimin looks at me for a few seconds, I think he's going to say something important, maybe he discovered who the couple is.

But he laughs.

"I thought you were more shy Jungkookie. Oh god, you're on fire, man."

"It's not funny, I'm worried." I complain.

I know I shouldn't have said anything in the first place. Maybe this is a stupid crush and I'll be over it in a few months. Is it worth it to risk everything for that?

"Okay, sorry. Go on. I promise I won't laugh."

"Putting on the side if they may like me back or not, I think one of them could maybe. . . be my boyfriend?"

He nods. "And the other one?"

"I think he only likes his boyfriend. He loves him so, so much. He'll kill me if he knows that I like his boyfriend. I don't think he would be able to have this type of relationship, I think he's not ready. I think he'll never be ready. I think he isn't that type of person."

"You also like him, right?"

"Yeah, but I don't think he'll care. He will hate me and I'll lose his friendship."

Jimin open his mouth, but close it quickly. "Are they your friends? Do I know them?"

No. No. No. What do I do? He'll discover me.

He gasps.

I'm dead.

I try to look him in the eyes, I can feel mine filling up with tears.

"Do you like. . . Namjoon and Jin?! Wow, I would never have guessed it!"

I choke on my own saliva.

But he continues. "Namjoon is the one with the open mind stuff and Jin. . . Oh god, you're right, Jin will kill you. But don't you know what kind of relationship they have? I wanted to encourage you, really. . . But it's better if you forget about it. Oh god. I notice every time you get all pink pink with Namjoon's compliments."

Jimin keeps saying nonsense, but my brain can't process it anymore. He thinks I like Namjoon and Jin? How could he think something like that. Out of all people? I get goose bumps to only think about it.

"Jimin I don't like them! They're not the couple I was talking about!" I yell.

He doesn't finish the sentence. He put his hand on his heart and sighs. I've never seen someone as relieved as he looks right now.

"I don't like them." I say, softer this time.

"Thank god, I was freaking out."

I scratch my neck. "Yeah, I noticed."

"So. . . Who are you talking about? I know them?"

"Yeah. . . I think you do."

"Really, who?"

I shake my head. "No, it doesn't matter. They'll never like me back. Look at me."

"What do you mean? Kookie you're so cute. And handsome. Do I have to steal one of Jin's mirrors to prove it to you?"

I giggle. "Do you really think so?" I scratch my neck.

He nods. "You're perfect the way you're Jungkook. You're funny, you're a good friend, you're caring, you're smart. You're special, Kook. Whoever the guys are, they're so lucky to have your attention."

My eyes are filled with tears again, but this time happiness is the reason.

I feel something in my heart that I've never felt before. I don't know what to say nor what to do. I'm trying to look at his eyes, but my eyes don't stop staring at his lips. His plump lips. He was my first kiss. He's still the only person I kissed.

Something in my body is making me lean closer, like an energy I can't control. I'm terrified, but I don't care. For some reason, I don't care. This force has more power than myself.

I lean in.

I kiss him. I've never kissed anyone, so I keep my lips in his. Not making a single movement. Suddenly the force disappears. I'm alone. My lips are on his. I recover all my senses. What am I supposed to do now?

This is wrong. I'm dumb.

Dumb. Dumb. Dumb.

(NAMJOON'S POV)

I pulled Seokjin closer to my body. I was freezing, but it felt so good to kiss him. I opened slightly my eyes. There were a couple kissing, too, but far enough to have privacy.

I smirked, until I realised who they were.

"What we're supposed to do now?" Jin asks, looking at them.

"Nothing. Go home." I grab his hand, but he doesn't move.

"Jimin has a boyfriend. Taehyung is his boyfriend."

"I know, but this is none of our business." I keep trying to make him walk away.

"They're our friends!"

I sigh. "Is his relationship, not ours. I know you're worried for Taehyung, but screaming in their faces won't help. Maybe it's a misunderstanding."

Seokjin don't say anything. He keeps looking at me.

Oh no. I just gave him an idea.

Seokjin lets go of my hand. He starts walking in their direction, I run towards him.

"You two! What do you think are you doing!" He yells.

I grab him by his waist, embracing him.

"Jin don't yell at them, what have I told you? It has anything to do with us, they have to solve it them themselves. We don't know anything."

But it feels like I'm talking to a wall.

"Don't run away! Cowards!" He yells. Hell, why he has to be so loud?

I'm lucky he can't run away.

"Seokjin stop!" I yell. "I know you're mad, but this is not what we're supposed to do."

He faces me. He has a frown and his lips into a fine line.

"What we're supposed to do, Joonie? I'm sorry, but if one of our friends saw you cheating, I would like to know it. Would you hide something like this from me? Taehyung deserves to know."

He has a point, but we can't get in the middle of someone else's relationship. Even if they're our friends.

"I know you're worried about Tae, but we need to think clearly. Don't take away their opportunity to talk to Taehyung. If they don't say anything in a couple of days, we'll talk, but with them. Not with Taehyung. He deserves to know it from them, don't you think?"

Jinnie nods, looking at the floor.

I put him closer and kiss his head. "I know you don't have bad intentions, my love, but it's better this way, believe me."

I feel his arms around my waist.

"Sorry." He whispers.

I caress his back, resting my chin on his head.

"I can try to talk to Jungkook. Can I?" He whispers. His voice sounds weak now.

I rest my forehead in his.

"Yes, you can." I whisper.

I stay a few seconds like this, until I kiss him again. I would do anything to quit the sad expression of his face.

We pull away after a few minutes.

"Can I sleep with you tonight, Joonie?"

I nod. "All the nights you want."

We literally run towards the dorm. We take a hot shower together, that leads in another make out session. I know I'll never get tired of this man. He has my heart.

Forever.