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When we drive back home, he is quiet, his face deadly still unlike the Hoseok I know.

As children, we were inseperable, chaotic.

Mother always complained about it to Appa, but Appa was too besotted with her to ever take her seriously.

I suppose she must have hated it at a point, but if she did, she never said.

She more or less let him lap around her like a puppy.

I grew up calling him Oppa, and Noona, Noona, though she always said something about how I wasn't a boy and should call her Unnie instead but Noona pissed her and it made me both Oppa and I laugh so I never stopped.

Baek Ji Daewi, on the first day he had met me must have thought I was male because he had said something about me calling him Hyung until Hoseok slapped his head and said I was a girl.

He tried making me call him Oppa but I thought that was cringy and said I'd call him Sunbae instead.

Baek Ji Daewi hates it... But he knows that if there was anything he'd rather, was me seeing him closer than a Sunbae.

Which was why he always asked that I call him Hyung.

That reminds me....

I wonder how he is right now.

"Who are you thinking of?" Hoseok suddenly speaks "There are wrinkle lines on your face. I know it's not your reincarnated witch of a sister or Kim Geon Woo, your eyes literally lit up when you mention the latter's name and you smile when you mention the first"

"Baek Ji Daewi"

The car jerks as a wild happy emotion shows on his face as I sigh "Focus Oppa, you nearly rammed us into a truck"

"Pfft, like that could kill me"

"I'm not you"

"Demons don't die, they come back somehow"

I turn to him, raising an eyebrow as he passes me a smile before he says "I thought he ran off to America"

"Apparently he ran back"

"For you?" He says and coos "He was ever so sweet on you"

"And So Mi Cha"

Hoseok let's out a dramatic sigh as he says "Everyone makes mistakes, this mistake..."

"Is in the past, I've clearly forgotten it"

But I know I haven't, maybe that's why I never even think of Sunbae so much or I try my best not to or maybe I focus too hard on Kim Geon Woo...

Because I haven't forgiven him for what he did and I doubt that I ever will.

"Of course you have" Obvious sarcasm dripping in his voice "So? He's back? And I'm sure Jan Yi Song still jets off at his sight"

"Yes" I say.

He grins "Ah, good memories"

Even I smile.

Back then, Hoseok who was the same age with Jan Yi Song and Baek Ji Daewi would write letters, pretending I was the one so that Baek would come visiting, so that Noona would freak out.

For some reason, even though I told Sunbae that I was never the one to send the letters, and Appa banned him from coming, he always found a way to come and Noona would always stammer, lose her breath, and in one case scenario were he had used her window to jump through, he had found her brushing her hair and she had shrieked and passed out immediately.

Hoseok reminded her of it whenever he could.

"He lives in my house" I say.

"What?!"

Oppa is suddenly swerving quickly, immediately with the car jerking as I sigh, thankful I used the seat belt before he lets out a curse "What's he doing there?! Are you into him too?!" Then his eyes begins to glow "Or are you doing it to keep that pest out of your life for good?"

Just so you are up to date.

Pest = Jan Yi Song.

"Nothing can possibly stop Noona if she wants to give me a word or two, not even an earthquake" I say.

Hoseok sighs "Right. The witch would probably fly through the rubble's with her broom and a snarl on her face. What is he doing here again?"

"He says he came to take some pictures of certain old places, he's a photographer now" I say "And he has no where to stay so I decided to help"

"Of course you did"

"I'm serious Oppa"

"You probably kept him there to make Kim Geon Woo jealous if he ever came along"

I'm quiet there.

He laughs, loud and crazy like, pumping his horn as I sigh again and shake my head while he says "You're so beautiful now!"

"Point is" I continue "I think I should not have left him that way"

"Tch, he left you for years and you kept staring at the mailbox hoping he'd..."

"Enough"

As if I had sliced the air, he made a small choking sound, putting a zip over his lips and a smile on his lips as I look away.

Wanting the memories to go away.

*

"So you're saying it's possible?"

My second day in Russia and I am positively wondering why the people here are always so covered.

Even on my suit and scarf around my neck with gloves on my hand, the chill seems to barely affect me as I stare at the doctor Oppa is talking to who is staring at me like I'm some experiment he's never seen before "Well it might be, but I don't know if I can..."

"Oh you don't have to be the one" Oppa says, patting his back, obvious fear in the doctors eyes "You WILL find someone for my lovely sister here. I will reward you handsomely after wards"

I doubt the man has a choice, considering the fact we are surrounded by about ten maniac looking men and a psychopathic one who has a permanent grin on his face.

I sit up in the chair I'm in "How long will it take?"

"I don't know. Months? We need to...."

"I don't have months" I cut in "A month, yes, but not months"

The doctor begins to stammer "B-But you have to understand! We must make sure it's compatible with you first! And... And to make sure...!"

Hoseok suddenly let's out a yawn as he presses something on the doctors neck, a buzz sound following as the man jerks before he falls.

Smiling, Oppa skips to me, a still full grin on his face as he bends to look at me "He's right you know, we don't have to rush anything"

"I'm dying without Kim Geon Woo"

The smile droops a bit before he suddenly recovers and stands up right "Fine, you have always been bitchy about things you want going your way"

"Thank you"

I look around, standing from the stool I'm in as I speak, steam coming out of my mouth "Do you have a phone? An untraceable one. I want to talk to someone"

He raises an eyebrow "Who?"

"Do you?" I ask.

He sighs, throwing a black one at me as he says "Have fun, I'm going to poke at the dead bodies in the morgue with my zapper"

As he says that, he presses a button on the phone like shocker on his hand as he laughs and walks away, the others following him from behind as I shake my head.

Taking the phone, I stare at the numbers on it, my mind racing.

I want to hear him, I want to hear him curse and shout at me, ask why he's not seen him or heard from me and I know that I would never be able to do it without hearing his voice.

So I call him.

It rings for a while but he picks and I hear his gruff voice "The fuck? Do you have any idea what fucking time it is? And... And who in fucking balls name is this?"

I find myself smiling at the tone he's using, he's obviously still sleepy yet cursing comes out so easily from him.

"Shit, if this is a prank, I swear to God..."

But I hang up, before I can hear the remaining words, a smile on my face.

All for you.

Always for you.