Hands and Therapy

My hands have an itching feeling…I feel the need to scratch them, harm them, maybe even to the point of getting rid of my hands.I …I don't no I can't understand why or how I got the obsession of hands but one thing I know is that I hate them.Why is it that I can never seem to control my hands properly I somehow find myself doing trouble so…I blame these hands of mine, my parents agree with my disclaimer so it must be true.Other people believe "I"am in control of my hands and "I"am causing all this mess.HOW WOULD THEY KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY HANDS WHEN I DON'T EVEN KNOW MYSELF! Maybe I over reacted a tad bit my deepest apologies I will try my best not to give such an outburst like that again.Now back to the subject what was it again…O right it was about my hands right why the duck can't this be solved you know what I might as well go to the extreme of wanting to create Scars on my hands to give discipline since they won't learn I will teach them. Good that's good now I will delay our meeting since I've got some hands to Scar….WHY ARE MY HANDS BLEEDING SO MUCH GOD FUCKING DAMN IT HURTS WHY WASN' I KNOW OF THIS WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH IT BURNS I DON'T LIKE THIS AT ALL…Alright it has been decided I will stop completely get some help and figure myself out although I do know this will definitely leave a Scar.

Hello we are back again and I just wanted to tell you that therapy has been the worst I have been told that I need to get more help and stuff yeah agreed with it but God is it terrible I don't like it here they give me what is the problem with my hands my things like that all day been saying that I probably catch trauma like I think but the card again I don't remember but what I do know is that I'm not helping so I don't like it.They can't just keep doing as they please, you know like just give me what I need,Cause what I need is what I need to know why I have an obsession with my hands.Why do I hate them why I can't stop the fact that I want to get out of here!They keep telling me that the process is not done well I'll tell them I can tell when I want it done because I believe I am finally ready for this like I'm so over it I just can't take anymore. I just want to leave and see my parents again, they can't just be keeping me hostage like this I want to go home I don't like it here it's not fun and I don't get to do what I wanna do, I wanna go home I don't want to hear wait.Why do I have to stay I wanna go home I really hated it hear it's not nice and they won't listen to what I wanna say just because there older.I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it. They should be listening to me, I am the patient not the other way around.