Self Exploring Exploring Self

I am in the beginning of a trail I am trying to find my inner self.I believe it would be better to go to a place of knowing...a yoga class.I took the classes and was astonishing just purely amazing, I've never felt better in my whole life.But after leaving I turned back to reality and was back to my old self.When I got home I reviewed the steps it didn't feel the same but I noticed that I am quite flexible.I would of never known if not for going on that trip of wonder, I will return for another time to enjoy myself.It has been three whole months since I've been going to the yoga class and I feel like the best I have ever been it's just so unbelievable I ...

just feel I feel like I've changed and seen the world anew, it's refreshing.

I have…I have decided I want to explore myself I want to find a new beginning for myself like was there something different but still something in the same category of what I'm always doing I don't want I don't want to change completely but I at least want to know what really is going on with me and understand who am I in and just what am I doing what am I doing that makes me want to live when we do it makes me want to try I just I just want to know you know find something but you can't find it because you haven't looked hard enough when you haven't really tried looking. So I must begin this trial of error and continue on with a path that I have never taken before of course I will be scared wow I don't I don't really know even if I might make it but as I can try that failures and option feeling and succeeding aren't what I care about about the process and what I do to get to a part I want to see I want to spend path to explore myself I want to explore more but who really is me but I can't figure that out I just standing around in my room talking about this to you guys and writing this down. No I haven't well actually I have had lotta questions about my gender my life and who I really am but I must say it will not be disclosed actually because I don't know what to identify myself as one day I can be here all day I can be a shitty one day I can be both but one day I can never truly stay as what I can switch off and on and truly just be almost everyone but in the same sense I can always be big but it changes and that's what's getting me confused I don't know whether or not I want to be a boy or a girl well I know for now that I'm none and neither because I can't figureWho I am so this is me exploring myself so it will take a lot of time pressure and figuring out what to do because I have no clue at all.